My drunk and off xans throwing up in the high school bathroom type beat

hey
made this in 3 hours last night
produced by @wisssery & @user-757072975
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
far away
and gone again
i ride thru city streets
and sleep
was never an option

so take my soul
return to
days of old
and see whats better

the weather reminds me that i’m better off
driving on highways has taken enough
time is an essence that i can live without
im better now

i move on
yet it sits with me
i live enough
but never peacefully
cuz when i gain one back
its always knocked back down
i see the light sometimes
and catch an L right back around

where the fuck have my friends gone
maybe they moved on
i got me some new ones but
the old never prove wrong
im losing my sanity
in an apartment i don’t own

and my girl, she got some bright brown eyes
and i cant help but notice when she sits beside me
i feel like michael but i’m in disguise
cuz theres no way he’d ever be this happy

so take my soul
return to
days of old
and see whats better

the weather reminds me that i’m better off
taking my life and fucking it up 
tell me about my life u know so well
im better now

better [wisssery x lavendertxwn]

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produced by @deadyami

lyrics:
ran out of options way before i knew it
i can't even exaggerate what i've been through
i don't know what the fuck u want me to do
maybe it's bout time i put my brain to use

meanwhile while ur healing i'm not 
never see me again it's ur loss
u put in more i put in less
with everything i do there's never someone to impress

and it hurts to know that u wish u never met me
it felt like i couldn't break out
it feels different when i'm looking at ur face now
i'll stay alive if u just set me free
i never even know what u mean
now i'm just a 1 man team
i'm not what i wanted to be
no i'm not what i wanted to be

graduated and they're still not proud of me
it's always been so hard for u to see
maybe if i finish college i can get a move on
i don't need u pointing out the things that i do wrong
u put in more i put in less
with everything i do there's never someone to impress

and it hurts to know that u wish u never met me
it felt like i couldn't break out
it feels different when i'm looking at ur face now
i'll stay alive if u just set me free
i never even know what u mean
now i'm just a 1 man team
i'm not what i wanted to be
no i'm not what i wanted to be

not what i wanted 2 b (dead yami)

official music video: https://youtu.be/_9n5A6eBnc0

if u bring the camera, make my life a movie
i could b the actress if u wanna shoot me
what i mean 2 ask is how u wanna do me?
im not trynna mask, yr not trynna b a groupie
now im on my last ditch efforts of the nite
i dont wanna not hold yr hands this tite
i dont wanna stop, when we dance feels nice
and im feeling like myself, hope yr seeing this rite
when im out up on display, hold my heart up 2 the light
and im screaming every choice i made 2 lead me 2 tonite
and theyre saying that im made of star stuff, gotta shine
ive been starkid since 2 0 1 9
push 2 start it, light it up and spark it
torch it if its getting in yr way, its a target
u would think im famous when im working at a target
u dont kno what fame is, never even seen guitar picks
never had the grip tape tearing up the carpet
pedal board skateboard, amp sounds garbage
iPod touch only tunes when i charge it
i done fell in luv w/ the music when it started

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

ALL PLATFORMS

starkid2019 (+ crybabycam) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

i cannot speak or make a sound
my time is up ive been found out
he holds the key and the highground
and i couldnt save the casualties
youre getting numb while i feel your pain
i medicate to calm down my brain
something is up with the walls im insane
now youve caught me hands up and im feeling so lame

thank you for listening<3

found out

blink your eyes and it's here

with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

enjoy. <3

lyrics:

talk back
nothing short of me
fall back
the life i wanted needs
more than anything at all
something changing when im gone
i can’t tell if i’m just broken
or if all this has a cause
its all in the differential; sub-sequential results
change me like an oil spill in the gulf
my heart isn’t breakable but i know
the mood changes are taking half of the toll
that i pay when im driving past your home
the time frame isnt making sense, no i know
its all fake when i’m grinding down to the bone
i need faith but its hard to believe in ghosts

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

but when’s that come 
to stop the hurt 
i’m waiting for signs 
that’ll heal this curse 
it’s something that i’ve never seen before 
yet something i know i’ve been bracing for 
and i’ve got this feeling that 
i should just face the facts 
live in reality 
but we both know 
that wouldn’t be me 

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

i’ll never see it your way, you know it well
i tried to keep the peace here, now i’m in hell
and i can say never, i don’t give a shit
cuz nothing ever changes till im all in

spotify & apple!

heretic w/ evan carr [immortal x splashgvng]

on all platforms now
@fijimar synthetic kids 4evr

all in w/ fijimar ☆ prod. jibaorockin + slayingibis + tahtx

I’m laying on the asphalt 
Doing what you asked for 
Treat me like an asshole 
Even tho I’m fragile 

Blood flows down from my gold teeth 
Feeling alright when you stay near me 

All these tears are meant to be 
All these tears just prove what you meant to me 
All these tears just prove what you meant to me 
All these tears show its  meant to be 

I’ll try to run away tho 
Doing what I’m said or told 
It’s hard to stay 10 toes 
When ur all I’ve ever known 

Blood flows down from my gold teeth 
Feeling alright when you stay near me

Meant to me (Prod.Emptyroads)

2nd single <3

lyrics 

darling our love ain't the same
still getting fog in the brain
pissed off but can u still stay
i'm longing but walking away

she wanna sit on high hopes
lie on bad copes
soon ill fly home 
soon ill fly home 

pouring in slowly
rolling up sacks
to moving so quickly
how do we do that uh baby

i see all all the skies that we’d watch go by before we’d sleep
i cant help but keep these memories locked away

baby our love was the top
made sure we’d feel in the top
like baby you're hitting the spot
baby you're hitting the spot

just take my heart
it's not the same 

she don't wanna stop, like can you just drop it, no way
like, i wanna love you, i wanna fuck you yeah aye

she coming back, back to me
i'll keep it a stack, dragging me
like can you relax actually
just trying to figure out who i really wanna be uh

i wonder why you don't say i love you anymore directly to my face
i can't even let these words out no more, just pour the champagne

'coz i wanna love without help
wanna learn to love you by myself
i don't mind, i don't mind, i don't mind as long as i'm sane
i don't mind, i don't mind, i don't mind long as you're s-
i don't mind, i don't mind, i don't mind long as you're safe

love song, this a love song baby
love song, this a love song baby

pouring up champagne
rolling up fast
smoking a stack
making it last uh baby

i see all the stars but you
you
you 
are the one

homebound

homebound (jabarionthebeat)

(prod. mackk)
mix, master, lyrics by me
(lyrics)
take me from this place
i dont wanna be there anyway
you said you hated all he is
then u were with him for that night
i just wanna hold you close and tight
hope u dont leave me all alone
i just wanna hug u one time
maybe ill make u my life
and lets just know u did
and its been like this
i been all inside
i felt more than fine
hes been holding u
oh the timing fuck
more i do
has got me more in love with you

i thought i found a reason i could hide
who was right?
she took it all from me
and now i will lose my mind

now hes taking off your clothes
in his room, ur all alone
oh he used you?
who would have thought
when he bruised you in the heart
howd u forget, i warned you
lies sent, i trust you
welp right, i shoulda known better
without you,
ill drown in this weather
n i been feeling like you wouldnt care
she took it all from me n
she knew that i would be here
n i been hurting inside for the last time
cause i dont wanna be here oh no

Should Have Known (mackk)

nowhere fast

prod. @jkeibeats
mix & master @venaz7

lyrics:
yeah lately i remember all those times
wasted all my time on you
why you gotta play me play me
why you gotta play me play me

lowkey i've been stressed out all the drugs that im on
everything i do is so i can forget you
never getting over all the scars you left
but you always said its in my head

you talk with your friends about all the shit
see that you care you just wont admit
and i've soo stressed out
ion give a fuck anymore you text me you lie
you called me you cried you said you wanna die
ion give a fuck anymore
cause im on the same shit
don't ever call me anymore

all in w/ fijimar ☆ prod. jibaorockin + slayingibis + tahtx

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