prod n mixed by soda boi

[lil soda boi]
why is it starting
it feels like i'm decaying
i talk too much
but no one hears what i'm saying
this ain't a game that i am interested in playing
i'd rather die than want to be with you
i guess it's just my fate
guess i won't be saved
it's something in my brain
it's saying that i've changed

[fridvy]
i wake up
brush my teeth with mud then lay out in the garbage
i need help 
but id rather take these pills til im retarded
i’m in hell
feel the fire on my flesh like every morning 
i’m unwell
outta road i push the pedal down n floor it

i’m lost
and i think that ive been for a minute
hands off the wheel when i whip it

i’m 2 far gone
bby ion think i can fix it
i ain’t been myself in a minute

i've been blowing smoke for a minute
i been blowing smoke
hella spinach
when i hop on it
yeah they know i'm gonna kill it, yeah
every damn day
yeah you know i'm gonna grill it, yeah
got beef? 
then brody gonna grill you
you'll get kicked out if brody don't feel you
he can hit the joint
yeah he's a real chiller
just don't ask if he's a real killer

[unpolarize]
and i tend to forget my phone bby when ur here
n i jus couldn’t be alone i needed u here
n i jus wish that you called up my phone yesterday
i need u here until im dead

[fridvy]
i want u here until im dead
impulsive words i shoulda kept
confess my love with my last breath
a thousand times ran thru my head

why should i go see the red inside my head
delete the files inside my brain when i am dead
i-i-infected memory
put me down gently
in your head rent-free
do you regret you met me
2025

[fridvy]
really wish that i could say
letting you go is a regret
but you still linger in my head

until im dead w/ lil soda boi + unpolarize

Self-taught musician (uke and guitar strummer) songwriter and vocalist from Louisiana.

All music written by Camille Ellyce Bordelon unless otherwise noted

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she/her

Banner by @toxin_brewer

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It’s all a illusion, a dark reflection of what could be

hollowbody
over u w/ unpolarize music video out now

Ｒｕｌｅ＃１：Ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｂｅ　＃２
Taking is not in all cases 'receiving' 
What we denounce from ourselves, we replace with something new. 
The regression of life 
& the fluidity of existence is a continuous giving and taking. 
We take from our experiences, and we give to our emotions. 
the inherent beauty of emotion is its ability to change our experiences.
this paradox fuels everything we know. 
like Life & Death. they give, and they take. 
again & again. 
"They" in this context, are the roles of the observers. 
recycling the same idea, and the intrinsic mechanism of reality 
that "what begins, must end" 
and somehow, eventually we accept this. 
Our affinity for being and our apprehension for nonentity 
It gives us our purpose, and we take it indefinitely. 
They give us desire, and we fill it with everything. 
All that you have, has been given to you. 
and you gave yourself all of it. 
In this particular case, giving is 'receiving' 
because you can take as much as you want. 
but the more you take, the more you give away 
and you give it all. 
every last bit.

Guitar driven, self produced, original instrumental music.

Happy headbanging and happy tripping!