[verse: jordanisdead]

I was aware of everything
But i found that i understood nothing
Maybe he'd look at me the same
If i hadn't changed
To what i replaced
The more i move the less i am
He reaches for my hand
It withers to sand
He asks me where you are
I lie and say not far
Pointing at stars
I tell him

[hook: jordanisdead]

Hopefully he could be an astronaut
We might look small from the sky
And i know if you could see through violet
You might see him in my eyes

[verse: jordanisdead]

I'm a flower bending toward the sun
I lost my power now I'm trembling for a gun
I live in circles, so I'm back from where i came
I close my eyes anxious pray i don't wake up the same
Echoes in these halls are haunting, i see fallen robins
I been raised in radiation, caving, lost inside the mosh pit
I'm a hostage, running faucet for all that i foster
Parasites govern my body, when she left i didn't stop her
Forced to mourn the morning that i lost her, i'm a monster
Fossilize my posture, fought to falsify my honor
I been letting down my friends and family for dreams that have banned me
Took advantage of a planet, i won't ever understand me
And i know i'm meant to be your guidance, supposed to be your leader
But that requires virtue and honor, and i'm possessing neither
So i will tell you how i told my friends
I'll never trust myself to influence no one again
So i confess my sins in hopes that you will understand
That i cannot replace a god i'm just a fragile man
I'm so fucking sorry, wish i had the strength to help you
When you ask all these ghosts where i am, they'll probably tell you

[hook: jordanisdead]

Hopefully he could be an astronaut
We might look small from the sky (from the sky)
And i know if you could see through violet (violet)
You might see him in my eyes (from the sky)
Hopefully he could be an astronaut
We might look small from the sky (from the sky)
And i know if you could see through violet
You might see him in my eyes
(violet)

[bridge: jordanisdead]

I was aware of everything (found that i)
But i found that i (understood nothing)
Understood nothing
Maybe he'd look at me the same (same)
If i hadn't changed (hadn't changed)
To what i replaced

[hook: jordanisdead]

Hopefully he could be an astronaut (go)
We might look small from the sky
(From the sky, from the sky)
And i know if you could see through violet
You might see him in my eyes
Hopefully he could be an astronaut (go)
We might look small from the sky
(From the sky, from the sky)
And i know if you could see through violet
You might see him in my eyes

ASTRONAUT

insomniacs

IN THE STRUGGLE

the full beat-tape!

enjoy this lil tape inspired by a couple month old kitten named maple (she's very orange and red)
anyways, love yall, and enjoy the wind and orange leaves.

tracklist <3
0:00 - 1:29 // little flame
1:29-3:34 // maple town
3:34 - 6:18 // amber cave
6:18 - 7:47 // midnight valley
7:47 - 10:38 // celestial mountain
10:38 - 13:17 // sunset lake
13:17 - 17:30 // home [SoundCloud listener bonus!!] 
(sample is 'rosarrie - take me home')

from kaonashi, with love

Maple Town

the first single from my new album, 'between:THRESHOLDS'
drops dec. 10th
thank you for being here <3

verse 1:

you don’t fear this throne
my god
and may i promise you
you will

say that you’ll come down 
now 
but you don’t hold that crown
it holds you 

so say that you’ll let go
you won’t 

in this throne, you see power 
but it’s a prison

verse 2:

try to keep it straight 
i done stayed inside for days
trapped inside these 808’s
tryna not to fade away
i cannot go back that way
oh and by the way

they just see through a peephole
a leader bleed for his people
what it do mean to be peaceful 
don’t know a steeple is lethal
because it’s equal to needles 
i been needing my people
im used to being the needed 
because cathedral’s deceitful, woah

what do you do they be asking you the plan and 
you don’t got one
you don’t got one
what do you do when they be blaming you because you are the one holding
the shotgun
and you ain’t caught none

and now i’m fucked up, and the love’s up
if you don’t come through once then i no longer trust ya
bitch that’s fucked up, they want me fucked up 
they expecting bloodlust, and power’s not my friend 

bridge: 

powers not my friend
powers not my friend

verse 4:

born with nature of a vagabond 
with the duties of a prince and a path that’s drawn
was my fate predetermined?
or forged by a serpent, leading me to purge like vermin

im not searching for no fortune, just the tools to living freely 
once i’m at the helm, i know my family fucking needs me
my bully’s scars reborn onto my skin, it burned again
i been on mend, tryna refuse meds and it’s because of him

scared to spend the money that my uncle left me
scared of sickness fucking since my uncle left me 
my uncle’s ghost reflects my fathers taller shadow
i was lost and found him when he grabbed me from a battle

i was frightened of his visage as he pulled me to the side 
with a gleam inside eyes you swore couldn’t tell a lie
he pulled me close, a grip that begged me, “listen”
my ears were open, with my body language fucking mincing

he said, “my rule was far from being perfect”
as he spoke, i lost his eyes while i was searching 
he said, “my rule was even further from the absolute”
so i asked the truth because it is a habit to

“what if i can’t do it?” the question i’ve asked obsessively 
he said, “your duty is not to fulfill my legacy”
“your duty’s not only to serve your kin and start a home”
“you must to take these tools of my legacy and go carve you own”

so i carve my own
just to burn it down
burn it down

outro:

do you know now why i can’t go back now?
do you know now why i can’t go back now?

my fort is crumbling

THRONE

verse 1:

(jordan)
forging a fortress of armor to hide in
im blinded behind a shield, scared of the violence 
i promised you love, i can’t conquer this debt 
seek to retreat, is there honor in death?

off the harbor i leapt
to swim though ripples of memories you left 
i will swim to the depths

thread of silk, tightly twinned around my throat 
im laughing with friends even though mine are ghosts 
craft my own system, or enslave to others 
pessimistic like i been made to suffer

instead we build walls and draw lines in the sand 
holding and closing doors instead of hands
shriek of the hinges, reap with a vengeance 
weaponizing words, and keep screaming when i am dented 

i think of you in all of my songs that i will resent 
and i know you’re the only one who knows what that shit meant

hook:

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks 

bridge will break, i hope that you can swim 
i prayed to god, i’ll never do again 
and i don’t know if the current bends 
and i don’t know where the river ends 

post hook:

sinking in the sink
when i lost faith, i became afraid
i became the blade
i can’t swallow waves
and i lost my way 

hook 1:

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks 

bridge will break, i hope that you can swim 
i prayed to god, i’ll never do again 
and i don’t know if the current bends 
and i don’t know where the river ends 

verse 2:

if i don’t know where the river ends
then i’ll never find home again 
i don’t know if i can make amends 
i don’t know if we can make amends 

assembling fragments of crumbs, and what’s left of us
spew malice from tongues, as we become dust
i clung to nature of violence
preferred over solitude but now we divided 

so all that i’m left is aggression and silence 
and pride that i siphon 
i been made for fists and i been made for violence 
you say i don’t know rage, but i been trapped inside it  

you’ll identify my body when i wash ashore
the same beach, you and me had explored before
the shore we were mangled and mourned 
destined to die on the beach we were born 

hook:

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks 

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks 

bridge will break, i hope that you can swim 
i prayed to god, i’ll never do again 
and i don’t know if the current bends 
and i don’t know where the river ends 

post hook:

sinking in the sink
when i lost faith, i became afraid

outro:

if i don’t know where the river ends
then i’ll never find home again 
i don’t know if i can make amends 
i don’t know if we can make amends

RENDEZVOUS

redone

part 1: prod. @sqorb verse. @jordanisdead
part 2: prod. @cyrusiszuuded verse. @juannyog
part 3: prod. @kaonashibeats verse. @jordanisdead
part 4: prod. @allblueraps / @nobodymakesbeats verse. @allblueraps

posse cut

taikunlofi.bandcamp.com

"static" is a collection of beats that I made during the process of recording "Dusty". 

thanks for all the support// out on bandcamp feb 5th

stick around for some singing demos>>>

more this year <33

static

art collective from all over the u.s.

members include:

jordanisdead (@jordanisdead)
allblue (@allblueraps)
CYRUS. (@cyrusiszuuded)
JuannyOG (@juannyog)
s q o r b (@sqorb)
Rokaii (@nakhi-lankford)
kaonashi (@kaonashivibes)
nobody (@nobodymakesbeats)
mizu yūrei (@mizuyurei)
gUts (@deejayguts)
faceless (@entitynoidentity)

posse cut

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