THE SHIP IS SINKING! & I HAVE PASSED THE EVENT HORIZON.

lyrics: https://genius.com/Jordanisdead-may-we-see-peace-before-eternal-rest-lyrics

may we see peace before eternal rest

(the first single off 'THE CORRIDORS')

i seen you once before, dancing in the moonlight
i glanced in your direction, blinded, you were too bright
bliss is just oblivion, arose to new heights
if i land and crash, can my wings resume flight?

our paths were always meant to cross, innocence was lost
when we first had met you were insolent and harsh
2017 was magic, i prayed for it for years and it took that car crash to realize that i had it
i been unfocused and confused, misusing all my gifts
letting my sinful burdens, choosing how i live
you saw my wounds and lent a hand, while others ran
bonded travelers, i’m hoping air is richer where we land
a mind is clouded by attachment, passion is distracting
though i believe we were meant to happen
our love story a tragedy
because it’s either me or everything you’re meant to be
you’re destined for greatness, but that greatness isn’t me
fragile limbs, without you i’d be lost
i knew your wings could shatter, but i never thought i’d be the cause
i’m empowered in your arms, the bliss is pure
but in my arms, you’re never be free because you’re

trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you are so divine (divine)
and you are so confined
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind
you can not be mine (not mine)
should be free, but you are trapped

suffocated rose that needs room to blossom
i wept tears to hydrate your roots that are at the bottom
i’m the hand that chose to neglect the thorns on your stem
i’m the hand that held you so tight that your leaves had fell and bent
i’m the hand that bled, because he can’t refuse your scent
i’m the hand that placed you in the sun, removed you from the trench
i’m the hand that neglected to see if soil suitable
i’m the hand that placed you in my garden just to make it beautiful
you deserve to spread your wings, not clipped within a hangar
i lived my life so safe, you’re what i needed, you’re my danger
2017 was magic, released me from the static
i exploit your beauty and it became a habit
i been half of what i should, a misuse of my gift
a fraction of what i could, abusive of the bliss
the dagger stops the blood, i’m walking stabbed
i musta realized i can never be alone, if you’re trapped

you look for me in mirrors
but you’ll never find me there
i’ll be next to you
cuz you’re the one that’s rare
i’m not in your mirror
a reflection we don’t share
cuz you stay next to me
even when you’re scared

trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you are so divine (divine)
and you are so confined
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you cannot be mine (not mine)
should be free, but you are (not mine)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you are so divine (divine)
and you are so confined
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you cannot be mine (not mine)
should be free, but you are (not mine)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you are so divine (divine)
and you are so confined
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
trapped inside my mind (my mind)
you cannot be mine (not mine)
should be free, but you are (not mine)
trapped

TRAPPED

the first single from my new album, 'between:THRESHOLDS'
drops dec. 10th
thank you for being here <3

verse 1:

you don’t fear this throne
my god
and may i promise you
you will

say that you’ll come down 
now 
but you don’t hold that crown
it holds you 

so say that you’ll let go
you won’t 

in this throne, you see power 
but it’s a prison

verse 2:

try to keep it straight 
i done stayed inside for days
trapped inside these 808’s
tryna not to fade away
i cannot go back that way
oh and by the way

they just see through a peephole
a leader bleed for his people
what it do mean to be peaceful 
don’t know a steeple is lethal
because it’s equal to needles 
i been needing my people
im used to being the needed 
because cathedral’s deceitful, woah

what do you do they be asking you the plan and 
you don’t got one
you don’t got one
what do you do when they be blaming you because you are the one holding
the shotgun
and you ain’t caught none

and now i’m fucked up, and the love’s up
if you don’t come through once then i no longer trust ya
bitch that’s fucked up, they want me fucked up 
they expecting bloodlust, and power’s not my friend 

bridge: 

powers not my friend
powers not my friend

verse 4:

born with nature of a vagabond 
with the duties of a prince and a path that’s drawn
was my fate predetermined?
or forged by a serpent, leading me to purge like vermin

im not searching for no fortune, just the tools to living freely 
once i’m at the helm, i know my family fucking needs me
my bully’s scars reborn onto my skin, it burned again
i been on mend, tryna refuse meds and it’s because of him

scared to spend the money that my uncle left me
scared of sickness fucking since my uncle left me 
my uncle’s ghost reflects my fathers taller shadow
i was lost and found him when he grabbed me from a battle

i was frightened of his visage as he pulled me to the side 
with a gleam inside eyes you swore couldn’t tell a lie
he pulled me close, a grip that begged me, “listen”
my ears were open, with my body language fucking mincing

he said, “my rule was far from being perfect”
as he spoke, i lost his eyes while i was searching 
he said, “my rule was even further from the absolute”
so i asked the truth because it is a habit to

“what if i can’t do it?” the question i’ve asked obsessively 
he said, “your duty is not to fulfill my legacy”
“your duty’s not only to serve your kin and start a home”
“you must to take these tools of my legacy and go carve you own”

so i carve my own
just to burn it down
burn it down

outro:

do you know now why i can’t go back now?
do you know now why i can’t go back now?

my fort is crumbling

THRONE

STEADY YOUR HANDS

i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in
i don’t believe in (god)
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
GOD!

the moment i realized my wings were dependent on feathers was when the quill ran out of ink 
that’s when i looked around and realized everyone sailing while i am just trying not to sink 
tossing buckets overboard while my friends lap me again (lap me, they lap me)
im asking you now, in your draft, will i be happy again? (happy, again and again)
they say that the journey is never a race 
sounds like that they ain’t have to chase 
to not be left behind, my life exists between the lines, i can see the signs 
of abandonment, my narrative is at a standstill (standstill)
you’re not gonna finish my story? just throw me into a landfill?

forget about me?
preserve me in the ice 
forget about me?
25 to life 

feel like i’m frozen in time, preserved in the ice, serving my life
eternally yearning for burning the burden of learning im trife 
im so indecisive, it’s a crisis if left to my own devices, man im spineless 
and i cannot go anywhere without the grace of your wrist 
i pray it makes calligraphy not a fist

forget about me?
preserve me in the ice 
forget about me?
25 to life 

promise, i wanna be great
promise i’m ready to purge all the pills that i chase 
promise, to let go, forgive them for cracking my ribs, when i’m breathless inside their embrace 
promise i’m ready to listen 
promise i’ll choose the right fight, and prevent their collision 
promise i’m ready to accept the grief and the guilt cuz when needed im slipping or missing 
infection infested my message, possessed and arrested 
i know they can tell when my chest itch
body a wreckage, purge me of feathers im blessed with
the weight of my temporal tenets  
tempted to sever my limbs of their power 
shrouded in shrapnel, the shape of a coward 
my tongue is frigid, but my eyes are vicious
i’ll never know death till the moment you’ve lived it 
how could you leave me like this?
don’t recognize they own kid? 
oblivion belittles this 
rob me of power to quit 
i knew that you wasn’t real
i knew that you couldn’t feel
what’d i do to deserve this?
cut the wrong corners and friends? 
everyone needs me when in my tower 
barely have the motivation to shower 
i been a menace to all of these cowards
my mushroom cloud is shaped more like a flower
warden is powerless without a puppet
i am not free unless i’m being hunted 
free me of freezing by making the choice 
will i die without poise or just die without noise?

forget about me?
preserve me in the ice 
forget about me?
25 to life 

promise, i wanna be great
promise i’m ready to purge all the pills that i chase 
promise, to let go, forgive them for cracking my ribs, when i’m breathless inside their embrace 
promise i’m ready to listen 
promise i’ll choose the right fight, and prevent their collision 
promise i’m ready to accept the grief and the guilt cuz when needed im slipping or missing 

i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me
i don’t believe in god, he don’t believe in me

GOD!

FUSAKO WRITING TO YUKIO MISHIMA

100 DAYS

FAUCET

MY UNCLE GIVES U MONEY

CLEVER HABITS

GAVE MY ALL

BESOTTED EYES 

hook 1:

don’t talk to me, cuz your eyes are besotted now
im out
i want to talk to you 
talk to you 
but i’m walking through 
the shadow of your ghost is me 

verse 1:

glance at me, rancidly my defenses culled 
sanding down my jocular edges until i’m dull 
standing now on callous knees while battling
calumny and fallacies fabricated to simply to imbalance me 

your talons deep, lack of malice stings 
you lacking self awareness 
i know you grown enough to recognize unfairness 
working for us, but feels like i’m moving backwards
wish i could carry us both till my back hurts

but i overindulgent, neglectful of vigils
her hand is shaking, i don’t got the strength hold it 
cuz im running home the moment im hearing whistles 
the arrow of time has pieced and sheared my dimples

hook 1:

don’t talk to me, cuz your eyes are besotted now
im out
i want to talk to you 
talk to you 
but i’m walking through 
the shadow of your ghost is me 

don’t talk to me, cuz your eyes are besotted now
im out
i want to talk to you 
talk to you 
but i’m walking through 
the shadow of your ghost is me

HELP! I SEE YOUR BESOTTED EYES IN THE RIVER

SEPARATE ME

PHANTOM LIMB

prod. by @kaonashivibes for his album 'a ghost in training' - out sep. 12th

I HAVE 8 SONGS ON IT, INCLUDING THIS ONE. PEEP IT FOR A TON OF NEW JID SONGS. 

FUCK IT UP

hook 1:

came into this bitch u know i’m bout to fuck it up
i love this more than you, u better suck it up 
bitch u asked for kings so u stuck wit us
hate to tell you but ur bitch in love with us

verse 1:

kao, it’s okay
they know it’s road rage 
we been rapping everyday with mufuckin no gain
they say my all my lines bumping like they cocaine 
blowing up, u know we had to make our own lane 

moving with a purpose when the sun is down 
i was high on your list now im coming down 
used to run from beef now im running towns 
wanted you to love me but u nothing now 

bitch im professional
next door neighbors telling me to turn down the decibels 
i will run this shit til i’m congressional 

a pro writing prose wit a fire in my chest 
call that propane (ouch)
i wanted no i.d. but now my producer has no face 
rappers chasing ‘content’ fuck is up with that?
how many started singing, say they done with rap?

ra, ra
heard that before 
ra, ra 
my dick is sore 

ah, ah
please stop bouncing on it
ah, ah
bout to build some housing on it 

hook 1:

came into this bitch u know i’m bout to fuck it up
i love this more than you, u better suck it up 
bitch u asked for kings so u stuck wit us
hate to tell you but ur bitch in love with us

came into this bitch u know i’m bout to fuck it up
i love this more than you, u better suck it up 
bitch u asked for kings so u stuck wit us
hate to tell you but ur bitch in love with us

verse 2:

got a thousand pounds of rounds and im hounding em 
he spout em out, thousand mouses not surrounding him 
and now i gotta slam a grand cuz the batter up 
tired of chasing bands like groupies cuz i’ve had enough

if im knowing anything, jid gon fuck it up 
if i’m getting any ring, jid from ville gon call me up 
and lawyer up, i know he bound to sue me 
i’ll wave my hand and finally say hi to judge judy (hey! i’m a big fan)

in the court with sweats, not because im nervous or lost dude
its because i won’t even dress nice for my lawsuit 
im guilty, asking how much bail is brought due (im guilty your honor)
they tell me you don’t have half the streams that till cost you 

cuz nobody fucking with no abstract shit 
i been bored of everything except backpack shit 
so don’t ask me for favors no back scratch shit
i done did it all myself no handouts or no blackjack kits 
that’s that shit bitch!

i done did it all for no mufucking respect 
demons in your circle you best go and get your team checked 
beat all the odds beyond eons 
the odd beat god, biatch 

hook 1: 

came into this bitch u know i’m bout to fuck it up
i love this more than you, u better suck it up 
bitch u asked for kings so u stuck wit us
hate to tell you but ur bitch in love with us

came into this bitch u know i’m bout to fuck it up
i love this more than you, u better suck it up 
bitch u asked for kings so u stuck wit us
hate to tell you but ur bitch in love with us

FUCK IT UP (ft. kaonashi)

DNT/LOOK/DWN

THE DEVIL AT OUR HEELS (ft. JuannyOG)

AND THEN THE PEOPLE DANCED

BABY BLUE

ONE WAY OUT & THE TR!BES OF TATOOINE

WHEN I HEARD THE LEARN’D ASTRONOMER

(JUST KIDDING, YOU NEVER FORGET WHAT YOU DISLIKE. YOU ONLY GROW TO BE EITHER TOO LAZY OR TOO COMFORTABLE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT, AND YOU JUST "TOLERATE" IT, AND IT BECOMES AN ITCH YOU CAN'T SCRATCH FOR THE REMAINDER OF YOUR LIFE)

I FELL IN LUV WITH THIS ONLY BECAUSE I FORGOT WHAT I DISLIKED ABOUT IT

prod. @cheyenne-zaini & @nuxemusic {ft. @victmolina} // @prodbylofish

part 1:

just give me a reason
to stop chasing
all that you will take

need to reinvsion innocence 
i can sense temptation in a kiss, i know your lips
yea, i wish you and i, could live our lives
as if we were kids

our destines fell unparalleled, destined to hell
wanna fall into the warmth of arms, you're arrested as well
our paths meet in the street, a gun that you weld,
blasted, i fell, my body lays next to the bullet's shell

wonder what had led, to the release of gunpowder, 
bleeding out, i'll be dead within an hour
recapturing lost power
manufacturing a galaxy of flowers

there's a feeling that i've never felt, but i tend to miss
imagining a set of lips, i pretend to kiss
ascending this message, please send assist
the world that i been dreaming just can not exist...fuck

just give me a reason
to stop chasing
all that you will take

part 2:

our hands are never letting go, though, they're bleeding out
our souls contain a planet, earthquake, and a drought
you see me falling, then why do you not stop me?
consumed by spider webs, its all that coulda caught me

theres a ocean in my tears, you bear dirt colored eyes
between us there's an earth, green lands and the purple skies
i can't bear to suffer in a lover's hug
i can't bear to suffer covered in my brother's blood

this kiss is venomous, instead of this, incentatives
tell me to leave, to be honest, i'm a reckless kid
fueled by inspiration, flag remains at half mast
soon this moment will only be lived as flashbacks

two nights ago i was tethered between
a life of struggled breathing or peace in forever dreams
i'm tormented and tortured, as you would be if i had left
so i stayed, though i'm broken, i'll take one more step

...i wish to be killed next time you release your grip from my hand
cuz since you've let loose of our hands, i've been eternally falling forever
when you should've just fucking killed me...

reason (prod. Zaini & Nuxe // lofish)

prod. @aishill // @enluv

(2 of my all time fav sc producers...crazy)

part 1: love

verse 1:

every soul that breathes, is another soul that bleeds 
spread my ashes amongst deeply rooted trees
pray we don’t collide, everytime we lane switch 
the world we share is bleeding, you and i will save it 

sacrificing finances, you can see right through me 
i pay for the promo, but i can’t take you to that movie 
don’t know if i’m ready to just leave my adolescence 
for the road that lays ahead, i’ll live forever in the present 

bonds that are familial, no longer familiar 
they looking at me, confused, can’t seem to configure your 
misguided motives and movements, my youth has just been ruined 
don’t apologize for being us, mutants don’t need improvements

even my friends left me stranded, in this shit alone 
i guess if i be myself, that’s a ticket to an empty home 
they’d fucking kill you, if they saw who you really was 
if no one does, i still got to be someone i truly love 

verse 2:

solitude’s seductive, escape everything exhausting
friends, family, the thoughts i find so haunting 
if they truly heard me, perhaps they would leave in peace 
instead blood continues to drip from the leaves of my tree

i’d rather die alone and die myself
than die surrounded by the people who just wished me to be someone else 
they don’t think they do, but i can feel it 
if i was what you wished, your life would be easy to live it

but i’m not who they say no more 
will they pray through war?
will i stay or soar?

part 2: under the stars

verse 1:

there’s so much resentment i have tied to your shadow 
battle scars, shackled arms, i never had those 
my limbs grown numb, you killed me as i sat froze 
space traveling time, we entering a black hole 

i’m not equipped to save your life, i’ll state it twice 
my skin ain’t tough enough to stop a bladed knife 
commencing in conflict, think about the life you’ll lose
when rifles shoot, i’ve wrote this song too many times, the titles new 

asking what’s inside of you; melodic melancholy 
demonically shot a body, then you start with atomic bombing 
watching myself die through a universal portal
i’m warping and absorbing my soul in attempts to live immortal

letting loose of morals, in order to lighten weight on my shoulders 
now my shoulders light, my poltergeist is killing all your soldiers 
i guess there’s a surplus of love between two people who self loathers 
offering my heart, nothing more than just an organ donor

and all the stars in the sky
they will die 
and all the scars in my life 
they will die 
la di da
la di da

spotify :)

love // under the stars

prod. cormac
vid. cred. kujira

verse 1:

my actions been malicious 
paranoia left me superstitious 
lose my stitches, succumb to premonitions 
living livid, vivid, visions, closer to the finish of your mission

everything comes with strings attached like guitars and violins
prison and love go together ripped hearts and violence 
i’m exhausted, everything is toxic
it’s all just statistics, i’m another number caught in 

equations, with variables and no savings 
just check in on me, when nothing is amazing, i just keep proclaiming 
i’m anxious and impatient 
a monster ain’t worth taming 
my life, people look at me, thinking, we should shame him

what am i besides dy’naesha and my music?
no quality define me besides the passion that i’m abusing 
i am not me, must take pride in something 
cuz if not, i’ll invite the reaper when i hear him coming

you're gonna carry that weight

prod. @enluv // khail // @kibishii // @jeikuh

part 1: orange skies

i’ve never seen a sky so orange, but it’s gorgeous
euphoric, must regain my focus
i can sense you staring, you think i’m slipping, i just call it drifting 

as a child, once was gifted, now i’m giving 
everything you’re missing, cuz i ain’t the one who’s been sipping
i express my world cuz my planets missing
just like the points you’re missing 
everytime i share my mission, listen 

if you heard my stomach grumble, just trust that i was subtle 
no bullets left the muzzle, paint the walls in bloody oil 
i lay amongst the soil, as the voices mumble 
i stand up as i bursh my shoulders clean of all this rubble 

i ask myself the question what’s important 
i never meant to leave them but i’m the only who flys, why am i soaring?
they call my name, voices echo “jordan”
i’m not distant, i just never seen a sky so orange

part 2: blind

to your face, never wanna desensitized 
to this place, never wanna be resentment tied 
serving serpents, hurting curtained purpose 
it all comes at certain times
i’m a writer, i live in a sentence fuck i’m serving time 

bleeding passion, you arrived at a perfect time 
my heart was beaten it once resembled a perfect size 
my soul’s figure was misshaped when i displaced 
fantasize your absence but you’re something i can’t replace 

truly remarkable how i embody a hopeless soul
everybody reflecting their inner honest code
everything around me is a mystery, search for pot of gold
sweater weather, i’ve already gone and fought the cold 

walk through snow, i don’t know your movement, you shot my soul
you wrote my story, but stop, i don’t wanna play that role 
it’s 3:11, supposed to be awake at 7, won’t meet heaven 
too much tension, you threaten with lethal weapons
i guess that means i won’t leave my bed then 

my sight has been forsaken, i’m living blinded 
my sense of peace, you have taken 
unconditional ain’t permissible 
sometimes the untraditional, living within a fictional 
world cuz it’s medicinal 

this system is too predictable and i’m moving like an endermen 
no time for sentiment, i’m a detriment 
to the life that you envision, was once a benefit 
now i’m sinking like the sediment, and i’m stepping where i’ve never been 

playing games to ease the pains, of a life centric of change 
all it does is remind me of happiness i’ll never reclaim 
back when music was my only dedication, and i enjoyed it
now passion is leaking from my wounds, and destroying 

the creation within me, i cant prosper in your world so simply 
we both know we’ll fall, so i ease it by tripping 
i exit the building, dripping, sipping my blood and limping 
i call for help and exclaim my pain, screaming, are you listening?

part 3: time's arrow

i’m not doing self reflecting, just detecting, our deception 
we be lying to ourselves, directing time for conception 
but i won’t make it that far, you neglecting the heartbreak i’ve been left in 

can i breathe? i just need a second 
digging ditches loss of riches, ive been treading, this infection 
i been decaying, nothing to be saying, strangle me with pillow i’m laying what’s the price i’m paying, what you saying 

nothing.

i’m not who they think i am
i’m a better man, or a lesser man 
i’m not better than, what they’ll say i am 
they tell me to live to see my children, i don’t think i can 
i don’t think i can 

i hear laughing in the hallways 
i’m wearing masks i wear it always 

my actions ain’t malicious
i’m not enough for anyone, ammunition  
i always play the role of the man behind the gun
wish i was in front of it
fighting the covenant 

i hear laughing in these hallways 
i’m wearing masks i wear it always 

i’m so sorry
i’m so sorry
why you not sorry?

(part 4 in comments)

orange skies and abstract tombstones

prod. @kaonashibeats

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

soulless soul
my shadow grows
they'll never know
they're letting go

i'm so alone
more than before
i cannot roam
i'm born at war

no matter all my efforts, i know it's not enough
i offer you my flesh cause our oath is wrote in blood
if you let go right now, perhaps i'll know freedom
before i'm down, killed by what's left of my love 

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

don't let go
don't let go
ghost
can't escape
don't let go

broken vr. 2

prod. tapei

shadows glitch and disappear 
my skin rips and lives in fear 
a program of encoding 
one code preventing me from floating

at the cost of my self loathing
in the kitchen were tip toeing
like children we’re reborn 
a hope arrives that wasn’t there before 

mom and dad had used to scorn 
wearing sleeves, our skin was torn
living in a narrative, we wrote
just to escape her loving ghost

just to breathe in light in this eclipse
build a sanctuary for our love to live 
a love we didn’t know, craft a broken home
we grew to be alone  

***

this was everything i ever wanted i can’t let it go
you were older, guess your departure was not preventable 
camps and fires and tree houses
childhood dreams we barely knew about this 

our innocence was ignorance, a prison left us hopeless
didn’t know what hope is, so we found it in an opus
we had yet to comprehend, a world we could pretend 
a world that existed beyond the words they may have meant 

the words they never said, just two kids they neglect 
weak and can’t defend, the demons in their bed 
a world of our creation, enhancement of enchantment
a phantom lives between us, i can feel it where i’m standing

you had left, i lost my breath
i ran away, and no attempts to reconnect 
but i’m here now, begging for your memory 
tell me it was the same for you as it had meant for me

please tell me you remember me?
do you remember me?
do you remember?
do you remember?
please don't forget
don't move on
i need you
tell me
do you remember?
do you remember?

memory

prod. enluv (@enluv)

check his spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5g8EUiiIZDqp2xd9eUUHin?si=FJr8Cws3S36sW-cHq1p7Rg

this goes for 'ms. what’s her name'
i know that there’s no differences between love and chains 
we said we wouldn’t grow apart but something’s changed 
this torture isn’t physical, it’s a bloodless pain 

try not to rupture things, and then the suffer came 
you can see it in my face, i cannot cover shame 
you got me looking like a fool, hoping you texting back 
i get frustrated, no stepping back, i’m on a reckless path 

fuck now i’m regretting that, wonder where your head is at 
all while knowing, that that fucking bed’s a trap
i’m upset, you sent a text, now that’s a dangerous road 
soon as those legs spread, your back bends, now my anger folds

feel like i’m betting against cards that a stranger holds 
adam can’t avoid the curve of sins that the nature chose 
and eve’s a sexy broad, i guess that’s all that matters
i claim i’m better off alone, but from a distance, wish i had her 

i wish i mattered, i wish your matter took a different shape 
demons try to body jump, they target those with pretty face 
young love quite peculiar, starts with white petunias
ends in in bloody broken hearts on my computer, my abuser 

starts with "forever," "i would sacrifice an artery"
then i win the lottery, and now "departing is a part of me" 
that’s the irony of love, you cannot believe it 
quicker that you love her is the quicker that’s she’s leaving 

that’s just how i perceive it, i’m alone and what’s the reason 
i don’t know, you don’t know, i’m barely breathing, fucking season 
every season
that biddie wasn’t lying when she said i was a demon 
i’ll just pretend that i’m not bleeding 

i ain’t seeing blood stains bleeding through my shirt 
so i’ll keep vibing even though it hurts 
i ain’t seeing blood stains bleeding through my shirt 
so i’ll keep vibing even though it hurts

emotionless thoughts

prod. BROWN DAD (@user-995795810)

part 1:

verse 1:

in the burden of your absence 
i speak your name in past tense
you’re a shadow of my portrait 
i cant afford this distortion 

fortify what i find gorgeous 
seeing souls escape from corpses
i see them interact remorseless 
no one left to go to war with 

now the virus has gone viral
were in a crisis, no survival, lifeless, in a cycle
spending every night alone facing endless screens
they serve as a bridge between me and sacred dreams 

all and my favorite scenes, think what i created means 
i am almost free, i say i am almost free
sunrise in the distance is something i couldn’t see 
four walls that surround me, fading as i lay amongst the trees

verse 2:

i am my truest reflection in the absence of
anyone, even those i trust, that’s the irony of love 
my tongue tastes freedom in the midnight winds 
as the morning rises, is another day i fight again 

my rose has yet to blossom, my cape remains in gotham 
where i belong until i can say "i win," without "i fought him"
my soul is rotten, my deeds forgotten
amongst the carnage i’ve left is where i have fallen

don’t know where i go from here
but i know contemplation and complacency is what i fear 
so everyday i’m keeping pace
before my memory is vanished and erased 

i been in this cave for too long
the allegory is personified in song 
why am i overthinking my self portrait 
vulnerability is killing me, i can’t see through my own distortion

interlude:

i hope
we'll make
it through
the story
tonight

part 2:

verse 1:

in the burden of your absence 
i speak your name in past tense
you’re a shadow of my portrait 
i cant afford this distortion 

fortify what i find gorgeous 
seeing souls escape from corpses
i see them interact remorseless 
no one left to go to war with 

i guess it ain’t occurred to me, in the burden of eternity 
it’s burning me internally 
days the same breathe monotonous oxygen 
scattered thoughts leave my thoughtless conscious gone again

i cant seem to get a grip 
i press playback and i question who is this?
my bones feeling dense and weak, drifting the week
consumed by grief, don’t know nothing, who is me?

verse 2:

the tears scarring my face as i dig through ashes 
nothing left to scavenge, what happens after forever passes?
i recite my passage, they all seem so passive 
everyday seem more difficult to escape my mattress

what’s the point? i guess that i don’t have a choice 
i push them away, there’s loneliness i can’t avoid 
cuz i must sustain what the prophets prophesied 
engulfed in corporate corpses, the purging left me traumatized 

can’t tell if you’re changing or if
this is how you was before we met, and if it is 
when can i admit, i don’t bear the strength to forgive 
maybe at the point when i don’t bear the strength to live

nothing left to say
a soul you cannot save 
won’t recognize my face 
5 years
5 years
my tears

burden of your absence

soundcloud / youtube exclusive 

prod. Hevi (@hevibeats)

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hook 1:

all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive 

verse 1:

theres a bridge deep in the woods
a ghost guards where it stood
you say to me just sleep, i know i should
but maybe we should go, there’s blood beneath my foot

we met amongst this bridge, back when we were kids
we’ve grown way too much trapped in this house that we live 
i know you know this, hope you notice, what i want to resurrect 
we fantasized as kids, but there’s more we could perfect 

we’ve left behind a planet, that’s a product of our age
we fell in love and rose above the magic, we no longer play
that’s what we say, but we really let go of happiness 
and now we look around what we thought was freedom but we trapped in this 

you ask why my why i sing this song
i cant tell you what is wrong
you say, well i’ll tell just what’s wrong
you don’t gotta prove you’re strong, by always holding on 

just let go

hook 1:

all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive 

verse 2:

but how could you forget, the world beyond the bridge 
the colors, the creatures, the reflections on our skin
the flowers that had bloomed our love? 
the river that consumed our blood

and healed our wounds, next to the fairy’s tomb
where the cherry’s bloom, under the scary moon, we were free very soon
you say we don’t belong, we must prove we’re strong
not by holding on

by letting go, pretend to grow, desperately i ask
why must we end it so, they lent a soul, on that narrow path
that led us home, and now they’re all alone 
so beautiful, so kind, their spirits must be etched in stone

so our children will protect them, in the same way they did us 
please join me, as i step across the bridge
i’ll leave this house for now, i hope you understand
you nod your head, stand up, and grab my hand 

let’s go


hook 1:

all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive

all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
all that i can say, i pray it’s not today 
it’s not the last day, i’ll ever see your face 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive 
stay alive, stay alive, you and i, we will survive

stay alive

prod. diebonsai  / @diebonsai

they don't want to say goodbye
they don't want to say goodbye
they don't want to say goodbye
you're feeling hopeless, so do i
holding hands until sunrise
they kill us if we open, our eyes 
so goodnight, and goodbye no

i say
where were you? when i tear in two
when i stare at you?
yea
shared souls’ on the neuse, this ain’t me, and this ain’t you

ripping pictures, i got blisters
where my lips were, and my wrist hurts
in the burden of your absence 
speak my name in past tense

perhaps every syllable is haunting when it echos
your memory won’t let go
in the same way that i won’t 
you look away but i don’t

you called me a friend before i ever had those
how could i be lonely, surrounded by these shadows
fighting all these battles

one man infantry versus a whole covenant 
do you blame me if i motherfucking run from it 
i’m recovering from suffering, i’ve fucking had enough of it 
your blade desires life, and i don’t have more blood to give
shit

jordanisdead

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