i remeber you since you first started your doing good bro, hope this life goes good 

This is amazing... I feel like I can have this playing in the back ground, while driving on a road to no where, trying to find a escape from reality. Hope you get all the recognition￼you deserve one day!!!

so youre just not gonna credit goblin boy for the beat?

I would love to see this on spotify, 100% one of my favorite songs 

suck my hehehehaw sneekopke balls with ballhair

MUSIC VID: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulH4VjXXYoM

this song was made for a certain person in mind. i dont know if you really listen to my music at all but i hope you get to hear this. stay strong my friend :')

thank you @hatedyl for producing this

thank you MBTeddyGram for the female spoken word 
www.fiverr.com/mbteddygram

male spoken word + robot vocals are done by me 
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take time making sure that ur fine but i know
nother day, numbin more pain with the bottle
wanna run, always in ya home but ur not home
givin up, feel like givin up u dont want help

we all wanna die at some point but i 
know the pain dont last long cause i
know that u can be strong inside
day by day i know youll survive

ive been thinkin bout u all day 
sittin by my fone should i call u?
but i kno u wouldnt pick it up 
tell me all ur problems 
sittin there in silence
knowin that youll never let me give u my love

love doesnt make sense any more
yet i still try to find a solution 
that will eventually fill the void
in the empty hole humans like to call 
their heart

i will never understand this world (single)

i will never understand this world (prod. dyl)**MV OUT NOW LINK IN DESC**

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I got demons in my head telling me to kill myself
Demons in my head telling me to kill myself
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Always on my own
No i never had home
No I Never been in love cause im always lookin up 
But im always feelin down walking around the lonely town
Feel so damn heavy cause im stuck on the ground
Wish I could fly
Wish I could die
Wish everyone could be happy and I 
Get the demons out my head
Oh My oh my
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Never had time to love anybody 
When im looking in the mirror yeah i think its kinda funny
Looking so sad, looking so bad, demons screaming in my head making me mad
Where can I go if I don’t have anything 
Except my room and my brain
Yeah im goin insane 
I cant be tamed but im a little scared cause im goin insane

demons in my head

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demons in my head - 💖 @jinnwilliam 💖 (On Spotify)

(I do not own any of this)

Credit : 
* SleepyBoyHomeless
* LilDeath
* Trash Gang

SleepyBoyHomeless - Coping Mechanisms | Naruto Beginning

I Dont Want To Feel So I Go Numb

its not very much. but i have more stuff just as bad coming soon
also yes I used bandlabs to use it. get over it

I Tried Calling, But You Never Answer

Falling Into Love.mp3

ONE NIGHT

One Night

prod. @enluv // khail // @kibishii // @jeikuh

part 1: orange skies

i’ve never seen a sky so orange, but it’s gorgeous
euphoric, must regain my focus
i can sense you staring, you think i’m slipping, i just call it drifting 

as a child, once was gifted, now i’m giving 
everything you’re missing, cuz i ain’t the one who’s been sipping
i express my world cuz my planets missing
just like the points you’re missing 
everytime i share my mission, listen 

if you heard my stomach grumble, just trust that i was subtle 
no bullets left the muzzle, paint the walls in bloody oil 
i lay amongst the soil, as the voices mumble 
i stand up as i bursh my shoulders clean of all this rubble 

i ask myself the question what’s important 
i never meant to leave them but i’m the only who flys, why am i soaring?
they call my name, voices echo “jordan”
i’m not distant, i just never seen a sky so orange

part 2: blind

to your face, never wanna desensitized 
to this place, never wanna be resentment tied 
serving serpents, hurting curtained purpose 
it all comes at certain times
i’m a writer, i live in a sentence fuck i’m serving time 

bleeding passion, you arrived at a perfect time 
my heart was beaten it once resembled a perfect size 
my soul’s figure was misshaped when i displaced 
fantasize your absence but you’re something i can’t replace 

truly remarkable how i embody a hopeless soul
everybody reflecting their inner honest code
everything around me is a mystery, search for pot of gold
sweater weather, i’ve already gone and fought the cold 

walk through snow, i don’t know your movement, you shot my soul
you wrote my story, but stop, i don’t wanna play that role 
it’s 3:11, supposed to be awake at 7, won’t meet heaven 
too much tension, you threaten with lethal weapons
i guess that means i won’t leave my bed then 

my sight has been forsaken, i’m living blinded 
my sense of peace, you have taken 
unconditional ain’t permissible 
sometimes the untraditional, living within a fictional 
world cuz it’s medicinal 

this system is too predictable and i’m moving like an endermen 
no time for sentiment, i’m a detriment 
to the life that you envision, was once a benefit 
now i’m sinking like the sediment, and i’m stepping where i’ve never been 

playing games to ease the pains, of a life centric of change 
all it does is remind me of happiness i’ll never reclaim 
back when music was my only dedication, and i enjoyed it
now passion is leaking from my wounds, and destroying 

the creation within me, i cant prosper in your world so simply 
we both know we’ll fall, so i ease it by tripping 
i exit the building, dripping, sipping my blood and limping 
i call for help and exclaim my pain, screaming, are you listening?

part 3: time's arrow

i’m not doing self reflecting, just detecting, our deception 
we be lying to ourselves, directing time for conception 
but i won’t make it that far, you neglecting the heartbreak i’ve been left in 

can i breathe? i just need a second 
digging ditches loss of riches, ive been treading, this infection 
i been decaying, nothing to be saying, strangle me with pillow i’m laying what’s the price i’m paying, what you saying 

nothing.

i’m not who they think i am
i’m a better man, or a lesser man 
i’m not better than, what they’ll say i am 
they tell me to live to see my children, i don’t think i can 
i don’t think i can 

i hear laughing in the hallways 
i’m wearing masks i wear it always 

my actions ain’t malicious
i’m not enough for anyone, ammunition  
i always play the role of the man behind the gun
wish i was in front of it
fighting the covenant 

i hear laughing in these hallways 
i’m wearing masks i wear it always 

i’m so sorry
i’m so sorry
why you not sorry?

(part 4 in comments)

orange skies and abstract tombstones

prod. BROWN DAD (@user-995795810)

part 1:

verse 1:

in the burden of your absence 
i speak your name in past tense
you’re a shadow of my portrait 
i cant afford this distortion 

fortify what i find gorgeous 
seeing souls escape from corpses
i see them interact remorseless 
no one left to go to war with 

now the virus has gone viral
were in a crisis, no survival, lifeless, in a cycle
spending every night alone facing endless screens
they serve as a bridge between me and sacred dreams 

all and my favorite scenes, think what i created means 
i am almost free, i say i am almost free
sunrise in the distance is something i couldn’t see 
four walls that surround me, fading as i lay amongst the trees

verse 2:

i am my truest reflection in the absence of
anyone, even those i trust, that’s the irony of love 
my tongue tastes freedom in the midnight winds 
as the morning rises, is another day i fight again 

my rose has yet to blossom, my cape remains in gotham 
where i belong until i can say "i win," without "i fought him"
my soul is rotten, my deeds forgotten
amongst the carnage i’ve left is where i have fallen

don’t know where i go from here
but i know contemplation and complacency is what i fear 
so everyday i’m keeping pace
before my memory is vanished and erased 

i been in this cave for too long
the allegory is personified in song 
why am i overthinking my self portrait 
vulnerability is killing me, i can’t see through my own distortion

interlude:

i hope
we'll make
it through
the story
tonight

part 2:

verse 1:

in the burden of your absence 
i speak your name in past tense
you’re a shadow of my portrait 
i cant afford this distortion 

fortify what i find gorgeous 
seeing souls escape from corpses
i see them interact remorseless 
no one left to go to war with 

i guess it ain’t occurred to me, in the burden of eternity 
it’s burning me internally 
days the same breathe monotonous oxygen 
scattered thoughts leave my thoughtless conscious gone again

i cant seem to get a grip 
i press playback and i question who is this?
my bones feeling dense and weak, drifting the week
consumed by grief, don’t know nothing, who is me?

verse 2:

the tears scarring my face as i dig through ashes 
nothing left to scavenge, what happens after forever passes?
i recite my passage, they all seem so passive 
everyday seem more difficult to escape my mattress

what’s the point? i guess that i don’t have a choice 
i push them away, there’s loneliness i can’t avoid 
cuz i must sustain what the prophets prophesied 
engulfed in corporate corpses, the purging left me traumatized 

can’t tell if you’re changing or if
this is how you was before we met, and if it is 
when can i admit, i don’t bear the strength to forgive 
maybe at the point when i don’t bear the strength to live

nothing left to say
a soul you cannot save 
won’t recognize my face 
5 years
5 years
my tears

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burden of your absence

richy santo - dance with me (prod. fatheryelvy) *available on all platforms*

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Youtube version: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d8FayP9Y9Zo

Im In Seattle Dreaming

im just a moment in time
// call me jordan

[ 砕けた肺 ]

orange skies and abstract tombstones

jordanisdead

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