I didn’t grow up with a lot of shit.
Mixed drugs just to find friends.
If I could make my parents sober again.
I’d do my best to forgive them.
Wish I could get my brothers out of that environment.
You made me terrified that I could turn out violent.
You know, you scar a kid like that, he might go crazy.
But this cycle ends here, you’ll never break me.
Wish I could call and say I love you every Mother’s Day.
Wish my father would’ve showed me how to be a man.
Instead drove 20 hours north of Carolina, just to guarantee I’d never turn out like you.

PA, NC, MN, to NC.
MN just change my life this time please.
I’m starting to hate the things around me.
I act, I don’t think.
Excuse the mood swings.

I hope I can raise my kids right and give them everything that I couldn’t have.
And I know that one day it’ll be fine, but for now I’m losing my mind.

Head off, unscrewed, mentally can’t seem to move.
I’ve been frozen, give me sunshine and something kinda new.
Shit wait, take a break, I think I’m getting outta hand.

Can’t control myself, on and off the rails.
Better save yourself, see you all in hell.
bye bye.
Let me apologize in advance, if I cause you any harm or fright.

I just hope I can get some help.
I feel like I’m killing myself.
I know sometimes that I’m scary to see when everything means nothing to me.

“It was the most amazing thing ever. 
It was my best friend, my world, I had somebody that would love me unconditionally. I knew would never leave me, I knew I’d never leave him, ya know?
There would always be a great connection.
Versus what I was going through with my parents, ya know?”

D I S Ø R D E R / the apple rots far from the tree

“The Phone Recordings” ￼InTraffic￼ is about the modern day The 2020s as a whole. This is featuring Eyeday & Michael Watson￼. Coordinated￼ by HAZPAIN.  

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“Acoustic guitar live phone recording”

“This is a phone recorded album”

“Cover Art by HAZPAIN”

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This song is based on the movie Fault In Our Stars

Shattered Stars ft Clara B

This tune is from the 1996 Musical "Whistle Down The Wind" and was popularised by Ronan Keating when he was in the Irish Boyband "Boyzone" in 1998. Performed here by me on my Yamaha PSR-SX900 arranger keyboard.

Can you "Name That Tune"? I have a website that contains my complete collection of tunes with their titles revealed at: www.harveytwyman.com

Name That Tune #570 by Ronan Keating

money on money thug voice

“Hood Symphony” blends raw street energy with dramatic orchestral elements to create a powerful and emotional soundscape. With haunting strings, deep 808s, and heavy drums, this beat

Hood Symphony

Sample from Jay Cactus - Ignition Loop Kit 
150 bpm 
B Minor

[Free] Drill Type Beat „Story“

Goldenchild

For every single person out there in the world struggling depression or pain I pray you all find happiness and love,

D I S Ø R D E R / the apple rots far from the tree

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