w/ @i9bonsai
prod @mkne + @kiryano + @1opgloryboyz

why r u always so harsh? words cut thru just like a knife
trying 2 tell me what is, but u do not know what its like
2 be alone, all by urself
all on ur own, without no help
the challenges that i must face
all the time, evryday
i do not know what i do but i do everything that i can
i dont know what i should do cuz u could never understand
just how it feels 2 live my life
im never well, nevermind
it dont matter, dont waste ur time
leave me alone, ill waste my life
i thought u were real, it turns out ur not
u are so fake, yeah emotional fraud
you tied me up, like i was a knot
got pain like its racks, and i got a lot
runnin ur mouth yeah u need 2 stop
got something to say then say it 2 god
dnt care what u tell me ya im turnin off
u robbed my heart now i need a lock

you freezin up like a blue screen
actin like u fukkin knew me
u are so odd, u are so wack
get out my life bitch ya u need 2 pack
CCTV, bitch watch how you act
not an ATM, don't take none of that

[i9bonsai]:
(???), is that a question?
plz dont talk (???) mentions
oh no, what's this essence?
i can see, u havnt learned ur lesson
ive felt awful all the time
(???)

[chorus]

nevrmind w/i9bonsai [prod. maknae + kiryano + 1opgloryboyz]

owl 梟꧂꧁❦❀

i’ve been doing these drugs way too much all i ever fucking dream about is your touch
had my ex bitch leave for a new crush said im not fine but it’s all love

baby im a demon but i still got my halo im not fine but it’s fine i got you though
crazy bout this feeling i can see you with my eyes closed
i just wanna feel you but im hollow

we could turn this room into a palace me and you drinking blood from a chalice 
and im taking all these pills as an outlet asking me if i will ever stop like no i doubt it

life was such a nightmare then you saved me new girl bad but she fragile like a daisy
no one else can compare you’re amazing oh you got me down bad fucking drive me crazy
i try so hard give and take i’ve felt love but now it’s hate 
i’ve been bad that’s the past your love will never last

not as lonely as i used to be three gram blunt come talk to me
don’t tell me please don’t ask me why i put my life here on the line

i wont lie baby yeah you got me feeling like theres magic
romeo and juliet but we’re not ending tragic
you just took my breath away im feeling asthmatic 
now i rot away inside my room like it’s a casket

nightmare (shinju x garasu)

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

Full of fear w/ Stress (death)

I made the instrumental of this song back in Febuary of 2022, and the original plan was to release it as part of a 3 part ep on halloween. Obviously that did not end up happening, so I decided to just finish it up and drop it as a single on my birthday. I am still planning on creating an ep eventually, but I think I will be going in a bit of a different direction with it. 

cover art by @lostteeth on ig

bandcamp

NEBULA

@pearlblade

sry bt i didnt ask u
hop3 dat theyll b back soon
im doin wat i hav2
watta sham3 u could b right here
watta shame u couldnt b right…
c tht ones for tha 2 time <3
littup under pink ski3zz

if u want it u gottit
this life bout tha risk
jus is wutt it is
u say tht ur the king of the darkness
but ill bring the light
aint no way 2 stop it
so y do u try

throw my hndz up
2_da night sky
been so long
i forget wat it feelz like
in my heart i got dis feelin
itz not wat it seems .
all my 50s steady bleedin
lou bouton my feet

@teedreamz

tell me did u need me
i jus need a rzn
evrytime u c me
im fallin into pieces

yu_yu (ﾒ` ﾛ ´)︻デ═一 {+teedreamz}(pr. pearlblade)

senses - keep going (kojo + emorave)

>lyrix<

it was already perfect
yet i think i'll destroy it
nothing evr has a purpose
i still let myself enjoy it

rowing 
downstream
she's glowing
without me
life's fleeting
don't get 2 attaached
i dream
of things i'll nvr have

rain
watch u go away
ur a cloud another day
in the end i'm glad u came
x2

it was already perfect
yet i think i'll destroy it
nothing evr has a purpose
i still let myself enjoy it

living my life
counting $$ up
now i have enough
so i buy it
now it's 2 much
douse the stuff
n i ignite it
now i'm in luvv
now i'm here crying
give it all up
while the sun rises

rowing 
downstream
she's glowing
without me

*chops*

rain
watch u go away
ur a cloud another day
in the end i'm glad u came
x3

☁️clouds2rain🌧️ [dgtl]

@sif666
@bleedteam

she said : give me a taste of what life could have been without u
nobody relate
maybe i need to recover soon
its so cliché
iv been on my own way
u talk to me about it
u frown all about it

u said it right ?
u said it twice ?
u said it 2 me all over
and its over
aaah

might b that one time
uv been on my mind
loud as ever
i cant recover

taste (sif)

bleakboi4ev@gmail.com 

@bleaky2
@55depths
@bleedteam

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