a project that was unfinished, I wanted many more songs. unfortunately my mind isn't vast enough to hold that many thoughts.

don't wait for me at the pearly gates

Lust pt.2

prod. greyrock1
cover: Kuriyai

lyrics:

let go, let it all go through don’t question don’t overthink cus if you do your on the verge of going insane
one second take a breath
let me breathe 
one second take a breath 
let me breathe
losing me cus of some kind of poison 
i cant see where this leads hoping this is the end i don’t know where this leads 
hoping this is the end 
so i can rest never breathe again 
maybe i’ll be free again

let me rest
let me be free
then you won’t hear my screams
anymore
anymore

i gotta let it go 
or maybe i’ll drown every single day i swear to god i let you down
i let you down and i hate it 
i’ll rip out my guts i take out my teeth 
then i noticed that i just fucked up
for the 15th time in a day i hope you understand that i’m never ok
i don’t want help just i just wanna let go, i just wanna fall, cus i swear i don’t care anymore

the taste of poison

(the things which used to distress you will become inconsequential)

[lyrics]
do i have a meaning like you say?
or do you give me false hope ever day?
just give it to me straight 
i wanna bloom someday
and be beautiful like everyone else
but its too late im gushing blood out of my stomach
i took the cowards way out
no one will ever forgive me :(
for doing this to my self
mom walks through the door sees my body on the ground 
oh what did you do to your self?
didn't care how it would effect everybody else
i made a selfish decision 
the first one in a while
keeping all my secrets hidden cus
if anybody knew who i used to be
they would look at me with disgust 
leave me behind leave me in the dust 
without a care, without, without, without a care

(be careful how you use the skill of a expert)

blood gushing out of my tummy

prod miercoles
lyrics, mix and master by me

ill close the curtains for you
ill make sure you're comfortable 
when your laying in bed
as long as you do the same for me
look out for me
look out for me 
oh please love me like no other
no other
I wanna be your #1
I wanna feel like no other
treat me like I'm so very special to you
look out for me
look out for me ill look out for you
look out for me ill look out for you

look out for me (oh please)

prod. everestdidthis
lyrics, mix and master by me

don't wait for me at the pearly gates
cus I wont be showing up
I tried to get a invitation
but they ripped it up
they know I'm not a good fit
they know all the things i did
this is my long term consequence
I'm gonna stay in hell
cus I can not redeem my self
I wronged so many people
it makes sense why
no one has empathy for me
c'mon give me a break I'm human
haven't you made mistakes before
or am I really
or am I really
or am I really

that fucking imperfect
I'm doing my best and you don't care
so just lay me to rest
don't believe in god
but I do when I pray for him to take my life
don't give me a second chance
I don't want it
if I was so great then I would've never
done all the things I did before
oh how unfortunate it is
for me to be born into this rancid body
I got my hands real dirty and I can not clean them up
oh what a shame I am to my family tree
oh what a shame I am to everyone that ever knew who i was

prod neverforever
lyrics, mix and master by me

fear of what I've become 
a monster behind my skin
one you couldn't get rid of by carving
its getting bad again
I feel abnormal 
I don't feel whole anymore
how can somebody live this way
so paranormal
how can somebody live this way
I'm so insufferable
unpleasant to be around
the cuts I gave my self are in my brain
I'm the only one to blame

paranormal skin

I am not sure who prod this if you know dm me or comment I gotchu, I apologize for no credit as of now
lyrics, mix and master by me

I see my self getting bitter
I see the blood getting fucking thicker
take one hard look at me
tell me now do I really seem like I'm really worth saving
am I really worth saving at all
cus I don't hold any value at all
I don't remember the last time I was told I was worth anything at all
I don't remember the last time I was told I was worth loving at all
so why should I even have a care in the world
why should should I care about what's going on in the world
why should I care about what anybody has to say at all 
cus I don't remember the last time I was told that my mom was proud of me
I just wanna be congratulated for doing things I thought I never could be
is it really that hard?

growing to be simply bitter

everything produced and engineered by me
live guitar recorded by yours truly
im really goated yessssssirrrrrrrr

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball?
still the 4peat start just to show my respect
oh this my favorite part, new patek on my shit ahhhh

you get the sediment and we can make a settlement
i say it's vetements, im fresher than what the reverends in
i paid the settlement pardoned for all the debt im in
new rich embezzlement seeing life just for what it is
she got me stuttering speaking with speech impediments
just passing judgement will never make you benevolent
im smoking good weed im knowing this shit is prevalent
i keep on questioning character for my betterment

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball?
oh this my favorite part, i been sayin we the best
brand new whip push start, margiela on my chest

my ass is spent, smoked a whole gram that's .0022
im at the peak of my emotions don't know what to do
im swallowed up by the envy i need to change my view
god what the fck is wrong with me im only 22
i think i had my midlife crisis i was 19
my life's a battle with my ego i'm still fighting
and the music is my therapy
feel like before the music wasnt meaning anything

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball ball ball

my FavoritePart (1sloan)

with my brother https://soundcloud.com/convofornoreson
i dont have prod name on the beat i apologize, 
if u made this lmk i do not own this beat my self

shit ass laptop is lagging while i make this song

ON DEMAND! (prod.traplikekardy)

Do I keep you up

relapse

follow me everywhere ong -.-
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prod https://soundcloud.com/891dyrem/tracks

Lyrics:
quit playin bitch you know i got it on me 
niggas know im top 1 man its crazy how they talking 
you aint ever done shit tryna mock me 
up it on a nigga got him askin god to stop me 

grippin on the .45 
point the iron at his body bullets howlin through the sky 
yuh feelin like im hali nigga watch the way a drive
clutch time bitch i aint goin for a tie 

thats yo shawty why she always tryna hit my fuckin line 
niggas playin with me i could really end your fucking life 
i cant fuck with a nigga who be swinging to the right 
fuck donald j trump yea nigga fuck ice 

crazy times niggas really tryna take away our rights
aint no consequences for the hate that they incite 
splitting up communities they tryna make us fight 
bitch i always stand on business stand for what i think is right 

yous a pussy if u really scared to say whats on yo mind 
from the river to the sea nigga free palestine
niggas always stayin quiet swear these niggas got no spine 
ay shout trans rights nigga shout out gay pride

spread love not hate (prod dyrem)

prod. laytonsto

i feel my nails dig deep into my skin 
take that look off your face
you know i hate the way it is

you know i hate the way it is take that grin off of your face
how fast do i gotta walk just to make sure you get space
2x

i know your looking around jus tryna find me
cus ever since you left ive always been on go
i gave you some space 
it seems like it might've been too much
but whats with the rage
your making me go insane

you know i hate the way it is
take that grin off of your face
how fast do i gotta walk just to make sure you get space
im staying silent i stay blank
cus if you dont wanna talk 
then im getting out yo way im 
getting out yo way

(bloodborne peakborne yesborne)

gotta say.. its fantastic

@elseen
@hdbn2


@raaynen:
I'm sorry but you're too late
I don't know what I'm thinking
But you we're supposed to be here yesterday
They try to tell me that I'm two faced
It's showing tails on the coin that decides your fate
Now tell me baby is it over
I picked the petals off a four leaf clover
I shut my eyes, I've been waiting for the closer
I'm hungover, looking for my closure

I feel my life is getting sadder
I don't matter
I feel like an actor
And maybe making music is a factor
I tell the people be themselves, but being Raynen's what I'm after
I hear the laughter
Feels like I'm hanging from the rafters
A knee slapper
Cause I'm a paid actor
I'm not a rapper
I'm just a cog in the machine of everything that matters

But don't tell me what I can't do
I do it better
The sky is gray and pouring rain
I hate the summer weather
I like the cold better
It reminds me of a time when I was someone better
When I was a beginner
When my eyes didn't feel fraudulent
And it was pouring at the movies in your cardigan
You wanna change the whole world?
Tell me what's your favorite part of it
If I had to guess your answer, it's exactly what you started with

Tell me am I a fool
For even believing in you
I gotta be something new
I can't keep counting on you
I can't keep counting on you
I can't keep counting on you
I can't keep counting on you
I found myself how about you?

I'm sorry but you're too late
I don't know what I'm thinking
But you we're supposed to be here yesterday
They try to tell me that I'm two faced
It's showing tails on the coin that decides your fate
Now tell me baby is it over
I picked the petals off a four leaf clover
I shut my eyes, I've been waiting for the closer
I'm hungover, looking for my closure

I feel my life is getting sadder
I don't matter
I feel like an actor
And maybe making music is a factor
I tell the people be themselves, but being Raynen's what I'm after
I hear the laughter
Feels like I'm hanging from the rafters
A knee slapper
Cause I'm a paid actor
I'm not a rapper
I'm just a cog in the machine of everything that matters

But don't tell me what I can't do
I do it better
The sky is gray and pouring rain
I hate the summer weather
I like the cold better
It reminds me of a time when I was someone better
When I was a beginner
When my eyes didn't feel fraudulent
And it was pouring at the movies in your cardigan
You wanna change the whole world?
Tell me what's your favorite part of it
If I had to guess your answer, it's exactly what you started with

paid actor (elseen + takecare04)

i scream and sing into a microphone during the day

bleedingcomputer is my discord
bleedingcomputer is my instagram
bleedingcomputer is name

paranormal skin

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