broken wishes (bttrflyknfe)

‘putting on paint’ W/ WakeUpCoy

prod lord135

lyrics - 

u people can talk down but im on my way 
too drunk to respond I think what to say 
god I love lullaby’s n telling u to wait 
my mind is so divided my mind is filled w violence 
aye

my number 1, got no one beside u 
I’ll show u better things 
no one else want us 
baby a goner 
I live inside your brain 
u in my crib wondering 
if I’m just a stunta 
trust in the songs I sing

or not 
I’ve been fighting the feeling that’s been itching in both eyes 
I been tryna get together I missing u no lie 
tell my mama that I’m good by myself 
I got 4 lives 
speeding off out the block, I’m just living the lifestyle like damn
learn the lifestyle and cameras
it’s raining outside I’m high though
missis so damn nasty 
stack some cash n drive home

home in no time
It’s ur time to never find me 
forest don’t switch sides jus sit in silence 
finally find peace 
not a mission I can’t finished when the ghost stand by to crucify me
this that push yo foot against the peddle 
high speed n a blunt beside me

I try just to be the best man 
I know it’s all for nothing better save my self 
calls echo through yo bedroom 
I wonder if ur feeling what im feeling for u

nights like this inside of my head 
I find it hard to digest 
I found out people too damn selfish 
I quit 
I put my gun on silence
so u can’t hear me crying 
I felt this way in my bed
yes I did 

I wish I lived my moments 
I hope I’m not ur moment 
I know u see me Growing 
wait till summer I’ll be flying 
im not heroic but pretty stoic 
I’ve been feeling all this pain w no emotion 
she’s a witch but I’ve been looking for her potions 
I ain’t missing nothing baby come n show it

PARIS - HOME (PROD. LORD135)

+++LYRICS+++
You told me no one ever makes you feel 
the way i do.
Guess I was lied to.
I never told you when I cut myself, 
or did my drugs,
to keep your heart intact.
Crawling on me like a insect.
I sacrifice for you.
Tired of being nice to you. 
we're at war. we're at war. [Are You Crying?]

-and you told me no one ever makes you feel 
the way i do.
Guess I was lied to.
-and I never told you when I cut myself, 
or did my drugs 

to keep your heart intact.
Miss you crawling on me like a insect.
I sacrifice for you.
I'm sick and tired of acting nice for you, 
we're at war. 
I wish I didn't ever try for you.

*+Bleeed to Death, Bleeed to Death+*
Thinking too much, 
I wish I could go back. 
Whenever I die 
I'ma go to my hell;
2019, 
I could hear myself
lose my mind for you. 

I wish I didn't ever fall for you. 
I wrote so many fucking songs for you. 
You don't listen,
and then you tell me how I never listen, 
then talk shit and screw him.

*+Bleeed to Death, Bleeed to Death+*
Hope I die soon, 
I wish I could go back.
2019, 
I could hear your lies.
Tell me not to worry about him; 
What the fuck is wrong with you?

-and I told you I would never break your heart,
but that's the past, right? 
So we can act like
we never even meant a word that we ever said. 
Like I trust you, or I love you.

Insect
drinking my blood? 
I want to kill you,
but I need you here. 
I know you're never gonna listen to me,
but it's fine. 
I wish I cared as much as you give me credit for.

*+Bleeed to Death, Bleeed to Death+* 
I'ma die soon, 
I wish I could go back. 
When my heart got lost,
and I cut so deep 
I could see my own feet 
covered up in fucking hatred for you. 

(I'm in awe)
I wish I couldn't fucking think of you. 
(I stay high) 
-so I don't ever have to feel for you.

*+Bleeed to Death, Bleeed to Death+* 
I wish I didn't stop cutting that night. 
(It would've been the best night-)
*+Bleeed to Death, Bleeed to Death+* 
Look at my grave. 
I hope I'm a fucking traumatize you. 
fuck you, 
and everything you ever said. 
I really loved you,
but now I wish we end up dead. 

How lovely. 
I wish i didn't have a heart to-
-when i'm lied to.
And you told me you would never break my heart...

[Conclusion]
It's me spilling guts out, desperately giving my perspective in the fallout of the long-term highschool relationship had. 
every single thing i say relays something real that happened.

there is hate in my voice
i'm no good with words

+++THANK YOU+++

*+Bleeed+* BLEEED2DEATH [3/...] +++LYRICS IN DESC+++

a passion project i made late 2020
produced, recorded, and engineered by yours truly. 
Everything will be okay, keep going.

I been good [RARE 2020]

show some love yall our times soon.
prod. nekogod

lyrics - 

 yea it started w the head trauma 
feel their words turn to dead omens
they’ll be dead for it
keep what’s special in your bed 
we been creepin through the night (‘what are y’all gone do x2)
Only feeding for themselves moving solo in this cell (what am I gone do x2)

yea I think about it every night 
All the these burdens but I swear to Christ 
think of the grifts n then I think it twice 
laying in the lake of your ideas lemme take control for a minute 
evil w a blade never find me lose me in a crowd in the city

I said I’ll arm the whole city make a whole mass taskforce 
climb the branch it’s all the same 
a vet to u casuals 
Manage what’s intangible 
Fantasy to cannibals 
telling u that ur foolish 
even tho ur bold
crush tree under roofs that no one has to know
bloody teeth w smoke 
sharper when were close 
I can’t hide your taste when I’m looking at a rose 

(dance through the course of our end x2)