season after season

szn after szn

being mysterious Lol

my mother told my father she wished i was dead

beat & vocals done by me

mixed by @menthol100s aka the new dj bonecrusher

i wanna slit his throat
and laugh my way home
i wanted you to know this
wanted you to notice
that i drew a heart with mine and his blood
can u tell the difference in the two
mine is filled with more love

laughing my way home

https://open.spotify.com/track/6D6fwXa6WxylpiiI0yrD48?si=6d24661134b54b4e

beat & vocals done by me and @octoberlies
october:

i hate the way you're looking at me
with those eyes say ur unhappy
with the way you started snapping
everything that fuckin happened


me:
wake up feelin depressed
thinkin abt all the shit that u said
wonder when youll get outta my head
ur still there so ill try again

you're still here

ft. six days after christmas
mixed by @blurxy

pumpkin party

mixed by @six-days-after-christmas
llisten to ur heart
isten to ur heart 
i know u hate me 
simply replace me 
i just more love 
i just want more love

listen to your heart

our graves under the mistletoe

i cant resort
u fucking whore
look what u've done x2
cuts on me and i cant breathe
let off a little more steam thrn forget me
why would u want me i couldnt imagine
a world without you is one to die in

resort

ur still all i need

https://open.spotify.com/track/1XPo3H9F3Et3jy1FjfQSLp?si=80dc108b45c94024

vocals & beat made by myself

i could probably think of better things to do
instead im gonna waste away inside my room
tell me to hold your hand and walk right through
instead i held ur hand and fell right through the floor

season after season

waste away in my room

@menthol100s cover

just ten toes can't avert my obsession
you are my one and only possession
fill the void in my chest that you left since
all i have is a hole in my heaven

living in ur shadow

w/ @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
ya

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
im looking at her 
i told her im ok
i told her im ok 
but im really not 
im taking it slow 
im thinking about those days
im thinking bout those days 
where everything was 
the same and boring 
the raining was pouring down
on my roof 
the stars wouldnt shine as bright as u

me
all i saw
was you at the table
i asked if you're abl
to talk to me again
you said im busy
and to leave u alone
i left feeling sickly
with nobody on my phone

those days

concept sorry if its shit

i cant write my thoughts
everythings not pretty enough for you to hear
i wish this wasnt so severe
how did u take the fall
did it evne affect u at all
now im sounding obsessed 
and of all
i cant jhust send u a text cant give u a call
 
she sold my high
to some dumb guy
still dread that night
where u said its fine
\

i wish this wasnt so severe

@menthol100s

im tired of skin to skin
i cant let the right one in
your call is all i need to sin
let another one go im all in 
everythings been at my expense
i saw you leave when you found somebodys bliss
i cant write for you it never makes sense
wasting so much time on you again

shut my eyes and count to ten
wanna wake up in your skin
you only see her in your dreams and all you wants to sleep again
and the next time that i see i hope its you 
i hope its you
if not ill gouge these eyes out and i swear its true
i swear its true

let the right one in w/ skeleton

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod both of us as always

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later: 
slow down 
shut up 
take a picture of us 
watch her driving away
leaving nothing but dust

i know 
you dont 
really like to pretend 

you love me so let me go
??

me: 
im sorry
you know me
you expect way too much, again

you're going
still coping
i cant live my life without u in

so she'll go
on her own
and find someone else to make her smile

it makes me sick when i think of what we said
so many words i regret, but cant forget

pictures of us

@ wissery

i stay alone while you go out at night
i tried to understand why you said ur alright
give me one more day to leave out your sight
you never explained why we both gonna die

let me fix you
im stuck within you
our lives werent meant to
spend our time in this fucked up, rotting place

till we spent our time rotting together

if u fw the old version of the song More im sorry That shit had some tts Wit my ex name so i jus cut it out and extended this to a minute

STREAM ON SPOTIFY INSTEDA BRO
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Jqcaa6uhspHNEVw9cEg1y?si=yC4DSd_IRH-oyhIoE6W8mQ

prod mac demarco
lyrics:
im sorry to my mom and dad u raised a fucking failure
now i bloody up my wrist and i feel like a fucking hater
think its time to kms ill kms see all u l8r
its a joke i thought she liked me now i mf hate her
now im fucked up takin pills and ion think im gettin better
i hope u fucking kys i hope u jump into a river
blood carved in my wrist its a mf s
now im lookin at that shit wishing i was fucking dead
im so tired im so stupid ion think i wanna do this shit
i hate the way i look my nose is big i need a facelift
i dont know how to think or who i even wanna be with
i fucking miss my ex i love her ass up on some rs

(SPOTIFY) u did this 2 me :/ @sadderthanabitch on ig

prod @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

1,000 words, 1,000 days
not enough to explain all the times you were fake
locked away and now im floating in space
close my eyes and all i see is your face

i walked away from your love
all because you didnt give a fuck
you were proof that i ran out of my luck
disappear from my life cause you fucking suck

1,000 days later and i still cant forget you

thanks jacko for the beat and verse @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

nope your too late i died w/ jacko

prod me mixed by @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

pay no mind cause i know you'll come around
and i don't wanna let you down

two hours until i get up
i heard what you said didn't think about it much
pay no mind cause i know you'll come around
and i don't wanna let you down

two hours until i get up
i'm alright this happens a lot
no point in sleeping now
i might as well stay up

i know you'll come around

prod me

why is she blocking the hallway?
guess i will never know
thought we could both go our own way
but it seems that you just
keep showing interest
stalking my pinterest
like all my photos after you said we were finished
whats wrong?
baby whats wrong?

why is she blocking the hallway

prod me

surfs uppppp
woaahhoho (x4)


i really tried to actually make you fucking happy
but this shitty feeling always tends make me trashy
and i realize everyone and you are just the same
so ill waterboard ur ass into a hydroplane

so

surfs uppppp
woaahhoho (x4)

surfs up

prod me

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded

nobody loves you like i do
you suck at life but i do too

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded

nobody hates you like i do
you suck at life but i do too

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded (x2)

kill yourself stupid

prod me

you suck
and ill never stop saying it
cause you never wanna cough it up
you suck
i know one day your gonna OD on those drugs
you suck
you're a junkie bitch
but still somehow i suck
more than you
worse than you
more than you

i dont feel like anyone else
not even myself
i hate this feeling that comes by
every other week
i feel so damn week
is this whats its like to be you all the time

take your life
but let me take mine
i wanna persuade you
better than the thoughts inside your head

you suck
and ill never stop saying it
cause you never wanna cough it up
you suck
i know one day your gonna OD on those drugs
you suck
you're a junkie bitch
but still somehow i suck
more than you
worse than you
more than you

god you fucking suck

can i extend my stay  
the clock ticks and you count my days
why can't you convey
all that you want to say

don't act so surprised
i know look that in your eyes
you wasted my time
tonight the night's all mine

tonight's mine

you're such a bore and i'm not patient anymore
and i'd adore my fucking body as a corpse
i don't care anymore and now my pride is on the floor
can't go back to before sit in silence and ignore

surfs up

i wanna be mesmerizing to you