performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

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after you feat blxty

cuz i 
i hope they watch over tonight
got tears huddling in your eye
for someone to say its alright
tonight
the stars watching over your life
but some things u have to decide 
i wait for you here on my side
my side

i dont understand my headspace
i dont know what i been doin
i been doin shit but not the first time
ur on the wrong side of my story
months gone and i cant let go
ever since u aint it make home
missing chances to let you know
that u dont have to feel alone

i look into the sky
and then i wonder why
the world took u so early
they always take them so early
always take them so early why

i dont even know what im still here for

cuz i 
i hope they watch over tonight
got tears huddling in your eye
for someone to say its alright
tonight
the stars watching over your life
but some things u have to decide 
i wait for you here on my side
my side

guardian (yandere + odel)

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kalopsia (n.)
The delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

lyrics:

(ev333)
you said it is too late
was it meant to fade away
and i dont want it all to change
i dont want it all to change

n i get caught inside ur web 
u make me feel like prey
n i cannot escape no no no no
i cannot take this pain
 no way to run away

im tired of pretending 
i know that i dont blend in
im tired wanna end it
i know that im not special

n all the tears im shedding
all the fights im battling
im tired wanna end it
i know that im not special

(minion)
i don evn thnk ab da shit tht i do :/
buh i been falln 4u
n i thnk dat is da truth
but,, u say its 2late.. wusnt meant 2fade away
i been falln awf,, ma problemz pilin up
swear i dun had enuf,, swear i dun had it all
ya i been faaalliiiiiinnn :P

kalopsia + minion (tenoji)

just 1 second
@1yugenn
@mkne
me

you'll hate me forever
can't sleep when u have me tethered
you'll have me forever
underwater holding all this pressure
ughhh i need time for me girl
said i love you but that is not me girl
got me crying feel like i'm gonna hurl
i rlly wish that you where not my world

i dont wanna feel right now
i dont wanna feel right now
i just wanna heal, i might drown
i just wanna heal,, i might drown
and i don't want you to go away from me rn
i don't want you to go away, go away, rn

let me pick you up
you help me pick my mood up
oh no,, i think i screwed up
u stuck to the past like grow up
yah i messed up so what
now ur in my dms so i know u peeped my glo up

forever (yugen x maknae)

whts that u said?
@176s

girl
u need somebody
someone that cares for you
i'm not somebody
i never really wanted to
i'm overseas
it never rlly gets to me
that ur alone
and im like

whats that u said
u got someone in my bed
smtn bout u seems so off
is it all up in my head
like grl it's already set to me
that ur the best for me 
i'd rather spend time on my own 
so just rest on me.

for you,
i'd do like anything
i'd buy you diamond rings
know you wont say a thing
i know i'm next up
no need to brag to all your friends
they'll get the msg in the end
ohh, is that so?
no one has 2 know
know.....>. 
like shhh

wht u said (sense)

credits:
@176s @kiryano @ogpichu
#us

lyric
look in the mirror see something i wouldnt be
its just funny cause whose standing there is me
i got lost but now im right back on my feet
can i find a better feeling guess well see

oh well, i guess i didnt again
i lost my only friend
it might be better for them
i hate myself till the end
my only goal is to blend
i lost interest again
u were my only friend (i was your only friend)

i never talked down to you
is there something left to prove
you didnt have to say that you were speaking the truth
i never talked down to you
is there something left to prove
i gotta to walk away cause i cant look at you

spotify

back on my feet (sense & kiryano)

pichu - left her (toshi x kuru x waifu)

hellooo light music

@mental

[blxty]
i can't remember last night
blinded by the black light 
we jus took a sharp left 
like baby i don't feel right
i just wanna see you 
hop onto the next flight
everything is okay
tell me that it's alright

and now it's over
i was thinking i should try but i don't owe her
and now i'm older
shoulda recognized you make me feel colder
take the weight and the pressure
off my shoulders

[mental]
its been a minute since i felt like i was in love
cant confess its too hard for me to speak up
hate me more than any one u think of
i dont wanna be me why they wanna be us

dont think that i bleed enough
for my mistakes
every single promise that u made
u love to break
ya im hurt but ima act okay
lay on the pavement
look at me i glance away
dont wanna face it

i can feel the tears i try not to cry
wasted all my time why do i even try
said that i was fine but rly its a lie
hate it when we fight
wish it was alright

im not even started but i feel like being done
and maybe its my fault that i end up feeling dumb
u got caught up in ur pride wish this wasnt how it was
i got lost inside my mind i just cant stop feeling numb

alright ft. mental (mental)

i want my shirt back +8485 (lilac + winter)

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best of me (sense)

@0rch_id
@mental
@mkne
@1vessel

[blxty]
i'm a nuisance
always crying in my room over some bullshit
how u feel bb i can see right thru it
how u want me even when i'm foolish
make me psycho i think imma lose it

[orchid]
make me syko i'm on my bloodpop bitch
clean the claws and i go back on some brute shit
looking at me copy on my newness
keep your head down looking like a student

step up out the maison in my margielas
i cant really blame u looking at me jealous
i just blew a tabi check on some ma+
i'm not cold anymore in my homme plus

[mental]
i wanna give up lots
i dont give enough thoughts
guess we'll have to pick up
wherever we left off
dont think i'll continue
look at everything u set off
whenever i'm with u
i can feel my heart stop

i dont have the patience for ur lies
goin thru a lot but i been tryin
i got memories back when u were mine
everything u say it reminds

forever (yugen x maknae)

blxty

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