never thought that this song is also released during my birthday

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

kick the bucket w/ dolly & bixby #SILLYTEAM

verse @blackwinterwells
prod: @haveonlyonechance

hook:
girl im in your head now
baby calm your ass down 
got a check hit up saks
read a text and i pass out
dont wanna stand out
fall in love
make her laugh like its a stand up

wells verse :P
They never say shit 'til they see me counting commas
Now they got a problem, talking shit 'cause they don't wanna
Worry 'bout their own bag, so sad
How you gon' hate from outside the club? Oh yeah
Just like that
Fishing monkfish while I get them racks
Then I sit back, take a drink and laugh
Swear you'll never-ever-ever make me mad
Talk my talk, do my step in my black Vans
I'm so fresh while you look like a trashcan
Might bring '07 back with the huge pants, huge shirt, net worth
Curve your bitch, I don't like her, get the bread first
Got a smile on, I'm still cursed
Hands up 'til they put me in the Earth
My dick big, no David Burd

instagram

stand out w/ blackwinterwells (tenoji)

@prodgreentop
@k4rson

lyricz:

[arid]
they only know me from my title
we goin crazy like a vine w goin viral!
always wanna pull me back jus like a rifle
i aint doin nuthin else im not entitled
yea u say u want me back u call me up again
yea i always feel attacked the way u comin in
yea im always runnin laps around inside my head
takin everythin i had and tear it into shreds

always wastin all my time
i was way too blind
flippin thru tha pages but i never found tha sign
always stay in tha center
i could never do better
im too sad but i let her
always loosin my temper but im gettin this baaaaag
everywhere i hide im always keepin a staaaaack
ye im always lost i never know where im aaaaat
dont know wher im goin never makin it back
yeah im always taking damage always under attack

[k4rson]
they only know me for my title
hit your vitals 
bring a bible 
going viral 
this is final
i'm entitled 
keep a rifle 
it's a cycle 

and i'm burning all my bridges 
she say can i get yor digits 
what i do is not your buisness 

she asked if i wanna hit it?
i said quit it 
know i had to get my bag and then i flip it

title w/ karson (greentop)

ty for the bday wishes :)
@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
wake up~~ cant look at myself in the mirror
so done my reflection is never clear
there's noway! i can tell u why i'm shedding tears
there's noway! i can tell u that ur what i fear

[mental]
ohhh i dont wanna see whats next
whole life ive been a walking L
i dont think ur my friend
i was down i had to save myself
and u make me choose
cause u hate me too
not dead but im close to the option
no life easily forgotten

[blxty]
let the vines come consume you
you can't run from your fears
you can try to close your eyes
but that wont save you here

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

@blackwinterwells
@quannnic
@litothedon

[blxty]
off all night u tell me stories
at my brink jump off 10 stories
i'm so lost can call me dory 🐟
stab me in my chest omori v-v

i'm so obsessed
i fall asleep
yet somehow you still flawless me
i know i'll still have troubles in the next stage
stuck up in my headspace
wish that i could fly away,,
from you.... . .. .
i know it's hard 
but realize i need you
i know it's good for me
but not for you

[wells]
what am i to do
close my eyes im leaving you
in the dust we're done im through
though i wish it wasnt
true
i've had enough of you
i don't know what to do
still dreaming about you

no i dont need my heart back
yeah i know its all used up
im devoid of all my love
not that i ever had much
but i still miss your touch
you made me feel so loved
but now you fucked me up
and it hurts way too

lost ft. blackwinterwells (quannnic x lito)

awooooo light music club!!! awooooo!!!!!!!!!

@mental
@bugbu6
@beatsbykrave

[blx]
If I needed your help,
Would you come on my side?
I need your decision baby this is not a do or die
You ask me if I feel okay and honestly I feel alright
I walk past you out the door cus bby i don’t wanna fight

I don’t wanna fight with you right now 
I’m walking home
Had something to tell you on the tip of my tongue but it’s out my dome
If I were you and you were me you’d probably be alone
Maison Margiela's my toes 
I’m not a friend I’m a foe

[mental]
i feel like im trying way too hard
not to let you take away my heart
giving up feels like a dangerous part
to play it might make me break apart

it might make me fall down
i was floating like i wasnt even on ground
bad thoughts really need someone to break my walls down
mad lots i been getting pissed at all the small sounds
need ur love if i wanna calm down

foe ft. mental (lovbug x krave)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7MYtXgMHJxhyFiKTkmEMfx
YOU’VE BEEN ON MY MIND I CAN SAY THAT :::)
prod. wolfgang pander (i just added the kicks)
feat. @b2nny
mixed and shit by me 
epic freestyle (john style)
john

(epic shit we say in the song)
[neoprada]
you've been on my mind i can say that
when u call me back just to fuck wit me
you can stay there
cant tell me what to do now
im really fucking scared
wonder when my last day will be
in this fuckin' mess

you've been on my mind i can say that
when u call me back just to fuck wit me
you can stay there
cant tell me what to do now
im really fucking scared
wonder when my last day will be
in this fuckin' mess

[b2nny]
late nights i've been
thinkin' what we could be
all these thoughts in my mind
baby yes i said please
but im crushed down
yeah im lost in my head
(john)
ill be fine yeah
im just better off dead 

sorry baby i dont wanna be with you
i didnt know that i liked u but i wont feen for u
i wont dream for you
no i wont skeem for you
all these thoughts in my brain
no i wont lean towards you

uh, me and you, what a fuckin' mess
i tried to keep me and u together
 i tried my best
i said fuck the rest
i said fuck the rest
all these demons in my brain yeah they put me to text yeah

[neoprada]
you've been on my mind i can say that
when u call me back just to fuck wit me
you can stay there
cant tell me what to do now
im really fucking scared
wonder when my last day will be
in this fuckin' mess

you've been on my mind i can say that
when u call me back just to fuck wit me
you can stay there
cant tell me what to do now
im really fucking scared
wonder when my last day will be
in this fuckin' mess

u must believe that im so stressed out
i might need ur touch right now
i might need some neck now (lol)
you think that im playing with who?
you think imma talk now
you think that im stuck now
ask me to come down you know i cant now

no u can not ever see
what is wrong with me
no i can not ever be what i wanna be
im so stuck in this world
i cant go out anymore
i cant go out anymore

neoprada + b2nny + wolfgang pander - mess

@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
my head don't feel right 
i see u cry
i don't rlly blame u-
cus we're both having a bad time
they say they don't change
promise i'm not like the last guy
blacked out last night woke up w/ a blackeye

[mental]
i dont wanna talk but they driving me insane
next time we drift apart ima stay away
i dont wanna deal i cant deal with all this pain
fall apart every time u say my name

hope i mean a lot to u
cuz u mean a lot to me
and it seems we're falling thru
but i'll never let u be

said a lot of things
i didnt rly mean
i dont wanna feel
put a pill in my drink
i just want love
ill do like anything
do what u want
u pushed me to the brink

feel ur aura
girl i like it way too much
u make it colder
hope ur just another crush

bad time ft. mental (elias x mental)

@qqqu1ncy
yuppp ty for the support lately <3

she wont call me 😐😔 (qqqu1ncy)

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

blxty

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