performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

verse @blackwinterwells
prod: @haveonlyonechance

hook:
girl im in your head now
baby calm your ass down 
got a check hit up saks
read a text and i pass out
dont wanna stand out
fall in love
make her laugh like its a stand up

wells verse :P
They never say shit 'til they see me counting commas
Now they got a problem, talking shit 'cause they don't wanna
Worry 'bout their own bag, so sad
How you gon' hate from outside the club? Oh yeah
Just like that
Fishing monkfish while I get them racks
Then I sit back, take a drink and laugh
Swear you'll never-ever-ever make me mad
Talk my talk, do my step in my black Vans
I'm so fresh while you look like a trashcan
Might bring '07 back with the huge pants, huge shirt, net worth
Curve your bitch, I don't like her, get the bread first
Got a smile on, I'm still cursed
Hands up 'til they put me in the Earth
My dick big, no David Burd

instagram

stand out ft. blackwinterwells (tenoji)

ty for the bday wishes :)
@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
wake up~~ cant look at myself in the mirror
so done my reflection is never clear
there's noway! i can tell u why i'm shedding tears
there's noway! i can tell u that ur what i fear

[mental]
ohhh i dont wanna see whats next
whole life ive been a walking L
i dont think ur my friend
i was down i had to save myself
and u make me choose
cause u hate me too
not dead but im close to the option
no life easily forgotten

[blxty]
let the vines come consume you
you can't run from your fears
you can try to close your eyes
but that wont save you here

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

@blackwinterwells
@quannnic
@litothedon

[blxty]
off all night u tell me stories
at my brink jump off 10 stories
i'm so lost can call me dory 🐟
stab me in my chest omori v-v

i'm so obsessed
i fall asleep
yet somehow you still flawless me
i know i'll still have troubles in the next stage
stuck up in my headspace
wish that i could fly away,,
from you.... . .. .
i know it's hard 
but realize i need you
i know it's good for me
but not for you

[wells]
what am i to do
close my eyes im leaving you
in the dust we're done im through
though i wish it wasnt
true
i've had enough of you
i don't know what to do
still dreaming about you

no i dont need my heart back
yeah i know its all used up
im devoid of all my love
not that i ever had much
but i still miss your touch
you made me feel so loved
but now you fucked me up
and it hurts way too

lost ft. blackwinterwells (quannnic x lito)

#us #wip
credits:
@haveonlyonechance
@ogpichu

intro from love is war 

[hook]
is it my fault
if u dont care anymore
shes making me blush
and i just stare at the floor
knew it was coming felt it in my core
asked u if u still like me u said not anymore
2x

[verse]
you said i would be hard to forget
you knew a different me, way back then
i cant take back things i said
but i still remember the day that we met
i put my life into you
it was all for nothing
i put my time into you
wish i got away with something

bridge from kaguya as well :P

hook repeat yup

spotify

my fault (tenoji)

luvlxckdown [https://soundcloud.com/luvlxckdown]
dolly [https://soundcloud.com/sanriorose]
luisisalreadydead [https://soundcloud.com/luisisalreadydead]

[sillyteam]

luvlxckdown, dolly & luisisalreadydead - take my life (elxnce, kurai & vinso)

@mental

see me, i might go see u out the door
bby tell me whats wrong n then tell me what this for
ahhh girl teach me how u do it
i swear u make me lose it
lights out watch your whole movement

yeah i know ur toxic i can deal with it
tell me are u feeling it
no no im not feeling it
yeah that boy a dog chase his tail in a circle
we not friends get out my circle
choppa turn that boy purple

no i'm not done
number nine jeans on me
wait,, hold on
i can sense something bads gonna happen
i got eyes on the back of my head
you aint ever gonna catch me lacking
and yo team be switchin n switchin its side
turn it to a fraction

what do u wanna do
it's never working out
last night i called you stupid
sorry i think out loud

i'm sorry girl i havent been the person i used to be
and honestly please just tell me what you see in me
i'll see what's in you too
just believe in me

feel your aura, girl i like it way TOO much
and i feel so warm when i feel ur touch
*and i feel so warm when i feel your t-*

and i will honestly do anything to make you smile
and i will honestly do anything just give me a while i-

out loud (mental)

https://open.spotify.com/album/2g7JsDPZZqEFC8teUw0cb8?si=EhVkH8k4RtuMlFe4WxZnIg

#LP
#DPK

@mental
@blxty
@h4zrd

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mental blxty h4zrd ღ listen to ur <3 (mental)

#LMAOOTHEYTRYNSHADOWBANMECUZTHEYKNOWTSGONBLOWIREUPLOADTILTHADAYIDIE munnyprodmarcymadeline[REUPLOAD]

@blxty
@15elias

[mental]
you broke my heart its bleeding out
i cry for help i scream and shout
i need ur love i need it now
u broke me all my walls torn down
rip me apart im shattered
make me think i never mattered
i cant deal with all this damage
burn me turn me into ashes

[blxty]
going back to my patterns
im falling in
if u told i mattered
would it b pretend
feel like dolly
tell her that she still miss me
she don't miss me she only miss blxty

lets see how far all these drugs will get me
2d only see the part where u leave
its crazy how everyone wanna be me now
covered up in blood feel like a hound

[mental]
they all wanna be me
i wish i was someone else
live my life on repeat
secrets i can never tell
everybody leaves me
i know that u will as well
i know u dont need me
moving onto someone else
look up at the stars
fall into ur arms im safe
broke into my heart
everything is falling into (place)

shattered feat blxty prod elias & mental

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head