day before

https://open.spotify.com/track/2osiAqYqbnUp9oyXeXlvjk

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

broke my heart like 1000 times
been in so much pain dont even realize
i dont even think that this is real lifee
tryna find the courage will u be mine?

say whats up,
heavy hearted thats enough
i depend on hollow love
feel the weight and like a bug,
im crushed (x7)

i feel like im dying everyday
i dont wanna lie girl, im feeling scared
its not rly like me 2 be awake
every single night, when ur walking away
tell me everything that u want me to say
cause i could never say every word on my brain
i put my back in this art and my soul in ur heart
and u still wouldnt even do the same...
think i gtg :/

like a bug

produced by taylor morgan

[blxty]
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said

[mental]
i don’t wanna care, but I’m always bothered
i feel like I’m awkward, running out of options
everyday I wake up, feeling like I’m lost inside
and it hurts me every time I watch you cry
i don’t care though, I feel like this all the time
i don’t wanna run away I think I lost my (ugh)
i don’t wanna run away I think I lost my mind
i don’t wanna run away but I can’t watch us fight
tell me why you don’t care
when I openly stare, does it hurt?
‘cause you make me feel like I’m so much worse
you make me feel like it’s so much worse
and I don’t like it when we kiss
it’s like I’m floating off this bridge
it makes me vomit, makes me sick
i think you’re honestly my shit

[blxty]
i wish I was dead
i’m not better off alive
take it how you want
it just makes me cry
i can’t talk to you
i hate it when you’re fried
used to show me love
but now you tell me lies

it’s just I don’t wanna do it
everyday I’m talkin’ to you I just lose it
take some medicine but it all feels useless
(take some medicine but it all feels useless)

do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said

medicine +mental

produced by mental and tda

[lyrics]

yeah they want me to run, want me to break away from it
yeah it makes me hate the world but i'm okay with it

but is it okay if i'm just in some pain a bit
say it to my face i never learned to take a hint
looking at myself i starve until it makes me sick
and you hate my heart i love the things i make with it
looking out in the distance trying to see clear
your voice brings me back i know that you're not near
i wake up all alone i wish that you were here
but if you started blushing i would disappear
i would disappear

okay with this i'm not so sure bout that
i break away i run real far from all my past
and when i tell them how i feel they all just laugh
i never thought that it would be like all that bad
well have it your way, whatever makes you smile
i just got comfy so i'll be for a while
and please just do not text me baby
i'd rather you dial
i'd sing you a song if this would just last for a while
just last for a while

okay with it +blxty

its not what it seems w/ lyn

wait4me ft. kuru (meta)

@pray4solo
@ilyajay
@1xyrin
art by @nickmediasm

come home 
you know i love you and you're so cold
i'm trying hard and baby i know
that the sky is falling down
so do not make a sound and do not turn around
and bbygirl ur cold
and bbygirl i know
that the sky is falling down
so do not make a sound
and do not turn around i know
shit...
out of NY man i'm dippin'
she like me cus i am different
i make bands thats the difference
got the same friends from a distance
said i love you? i been trippin
said u want this gotta chip in
said u love me but you miss him
ugh fuck you
really got nothing to say to that
she wanan go ahead and take it back
but imma jus sit here and state the facts
ugh fuck you
imma do it by myself
hop in the whip im going to hell
burning heart u can tell my the smell
and we sending slugs these aint no snails
i'm off the rail girl how it feel
if you where falling catch u NFL
promise this aint a ship u wanna sail
i like ur hair i like ur eyes
im an icedancer like can u b nice?
all of my friends say that im a nice guy
but if u talk crazy put you in the sky
the sky is falling
the sun is falling
my love is falling
i don't- ugh
i don't care i want  you
and i don't care i need you


♪♪♪ i'm home.

sky is falling (solo, ajay, xyrin)

performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

Spotify

cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

ЛЮБИЛ ТЕБЯ

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

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bound w/skele & heylog

track 2 of 7 on my EP #me
@diegointhedark
@oiwassupp
@aeriiith

@terastic
my mask is peelingg
open up i cnt get rid of this feeling
fall apart cause i cant conceal it
talkn bout problems i got problems to the ceiling
i cant take a step i feel like im outta motion
i got done wrong thats why i cant show emotion
im so fuckin dazed so im feelin like im floating
divide ur boy up with the nine whats the quotient? (@myequalmind ref)
yea im not just whats on the surface
i tried my best, how u tell me that im worthless?
i remember times u would tell me that im #perfect
we had good times but we knew it wasnt workin
now i gotta cut u off cuz im hurting
all day stalkin my ig i see u lurkin
take a left take a right now we turnin 
burnin my heart like it was in a furnace

@diegointhedark
gillette n my palm ima squeeze it
heart on a floor made of tile 
i dnt need it
take my hand i cn fight off your demons 
all the xans tht we did 
i duno how we r breathing 

crush it up snort a line off an ipad 
watchN #everyone around #me 
thruu an eyeglass 
time Passes ion kno where we left off
Host Team Link <3
talk down , ,, take his head off

take my LiFE
find my hard drive n trash it 
tragic ,
ion wna work 
pay the $$$ 
made her bend the knee 
for the free 
if ure asking 
let me pockets bleed
blue n green beauty pageant

i stick to myself 
its a cruel world 
sacrificed your bag for an egirl
there’s no light in my world 
please dnt think so 
kpin in a sippy cup ,
let me breathe slow

@terastic again
take a flight to dubai with my passport 
i got too much money now idk what to ask for
makin songs i guess thats my fkin dad lore
spammin my texts dk what tf u mad for
yea im going up, now u mad, for what?
all this bad energy is bad for us
i cant get attached guess im bad for love
had to kick u out the backdoor uhhhh
yea im not just whats on the surface
i tried my best, how u tell me that im worthless?
i remember times u would tell me that im #perfect
we had good times but we knew it wasnt workin
now i gotta cut u off cuz im hurting
all day stalkin my ig i see u lurkin
take a left take a right now we turnin 
burnin my heart like it was in a furnace

#perfect w/ diegointhedark (oiwa & aerith)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

https://soundcloud.com/auburnleavesfall

lyrics:
go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones

go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, dont wanna die in vain

go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, dont wanna die in vain

vain

auburnleavesfall - vain

@ch2rms
@prodjayysoul
@pw4prez

[arid]
did it fall between my fingers
fall between my hands
I know my mind is getting real thinner
looking at my soles thinking what is my purpose
can u even tell me if its even worth it
(yeah its not worth it)
my mind is melting don't know if ill go far
tell me now don't wanna restart
u told me to come back I said we were done
left it all behind didn't wanna run

[ch2rms]
need her to show me what it takes 
i pop a perc i cant feel my taste 
my body hurts need a slower pace 
im not the best at leading the way 
cus i know that it hurts you 
i keep on trying hard just to deserve you
my secrets getting leaked i know that they hurt you
i cant deal with this no more no more no more no more 
i cant hear the fucking noise everything is too loud 
im at the party throwing up guts all over the floor 
if you got something to say im only miles away 
i got things to tell you soon i got trials in the way

sky is falling (solo, ajay, xyrin)

blxty

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