soundcloud vibes 2

Interesting 01

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lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

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First track fully recorded out of the hospital. Just another one about a girl playing with my feelings I am getting back to normal now!

I Hate This

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i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

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カガミ

You can cry all you want
Its alright
I don't wanna hurt you too much
You shouldn't try to fight
I think that we could be forever
Sifting through my mind
Sometimes i wanna die but i put you first
And everyday i wakeup feeling like a ghost
But you said it doesn't matter when you hold me close

I wanna kiss you
And be forever
Holding your hand in hurricane weather
I wanna tell you
I can get better
Its not all depression and suicidal letters

You can cry all you want
Its alright
I don't wanna hurt you too much
You shouldn't try to fight
I think that we could be forever
Sifting through my mind
Sometimes i wanna die but i put you first
And everyday i wakeup feeling like a ghost
But you said it doesn't matter when you hold me close

I wanna kiss you
And be forever
Holding your hand in hurricane weather
I wanna tell you
I can get better
Its not all depression and suicidal letters

You can cry all you want
Its alright
I don't wanna hurt you too much
You shouldn't try to fight
I think that we could be forever
Sifting through my mind
Sometimes i wanna die but i put you first
And everyday i wakeup feeling like a ghost
But you said it doesn't matter when you hold me close

I wanna kiss you
And be forever
Holding your hand in hurricane weather
I wanna tell you
I can get better
Its not all depression and suicidal letters

힐링 (healing)

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mix + master - @kainebot

cover - @stainedgl4ss

lyrics: 

i’m running from myself right now and i can’t get away
sometimes i jus need help but don’t know what 2 say :/
i’m passing by on valium
lost myself don’t know what happened
broken on the floor i’m trying to pick up all the fragments

i blacked out and woke up in the maze in my mind
pacing in circles, tryna leave it all behind
a mask in disguise trying to mask my demise
pull back the curtain let me into the light

i’m running from myself right now and i can’t get away
sometimes i jus need help but don’t know what 2 say :/
i’m passing by on valium
lost myself don’t know what happened
broken on the floor i’m trying to pick up all the fragments

make me bleed
im not an angel
watch and see
I like it painful
begging the benzos to be careful with my heart
they whisper back “you know that we can’t be apart”
it’s so hard 
i been fucked up from the start
i close my eyes my world goes dark
this game of life i press restart x_x

i’m running from myself right now and i can’t get away
sometimes i jus need help but don’t know what 2 say :/
i’m passing by on valium
lost myself don’t know what happened
broken on the floor i’m trying to pick up all the fragments

make me bleed
im not an angel
watch and see
I like it painful

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