soundcloud vibes 2

prod. @airavata

It’s my state of mind 
smokin getting high 
yeah I do it all the time 
roll a backwoods
put your lighters to the sky 
sippin on some truly 
always trynna catch a vibe 
steady rollin all my dice
blame it on my state of mind 

Staying high cause I be living unpredictably
writing all these songs steady working on my ability 
hate me but I’ll still love you so much it’s unconditionally 
lock my heart away yeah it’s still in your captivity 

drink my fuckin pain away 
And wash it down so brilliantly 
you think that I am sick and that I’ve lost all of my dignity 
paint a picture paint me black and paint me with some imagery 
missing you all the all the time it’s got me feeling so miserably 

getting right 
in my mind 
I never said a fuckin lie 
I’m jumping jacks across the map 
I did too many fuckin times 
driving coast to coast 
In search of nothing 
cause I let it die 
wasting all my time and thinking that I’ll never be alright 

wasting life away 
feed on me like prey 
Take me to the bay 
What’d you even say 
if you saw me in my grave 
throw up some mayday parade  
That’s always been our fuckin favorite play 
A lesson in romantics 
Is a lesson that I’ve yet to learn

watching the sunset off key Biscayne 
and wishing that we could ignite this flame 
staying hopeful cause one day things’ll be okay 
one day, things will be okay

State of Mind (prod. Airavata)

prod. @sorrowbringer

lyrics:

take 2 more to my nose
idk why the fuck i let you go
im so self destructive 
just cant help it
allergic to ppl just like they're shellfish
its not fair, to call me selfish
might need some help to dispel this
woah, oah

yeah i need some intervention
or maybe an invention
to cure me of this tension
i feel it creepin' over me
and if its all just chemicals
and if we're all just particles
what does it really matter 
if the pull the trigger
and my head goes splatter

da da da da x4

i think that youre all crazy
well then what does that make me?
guess im a little bit fucked up
yeah maybe, yeah maybe?
and i see visions in my dreams
that maybe i should not see
woah oh, woah oh

shellfish

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lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

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@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

guitar by: ryini beats

dedicated to everyone i love ❤️

home

First track fully recorded out of the hospital. Just another one about a girl playing with my feelings I am getting back to normal now!

I Hate This

sorry for re-upload file was bad at the end and didn't realize 

Cry at Night
2021
CxldKid
_____________

Lyrics 


Breaking pictures
Just cant stand them on the shelf
Only when I was with yah
But all good things to turn to hell
I still miss yah
You said you were seing help
All this time you been away
You lied to your therapist about your health 

And its hard to feel ok
When you say ill be fine
And I'm trying to breath 
But im still breaking inside

I'll tell my friends that I'm ok
Even though I breaking open
I shed a tear only hoping
That ill find a way copen 
I always fall at the wrong time
Loose friends that were too nice
My eyes are raw from how many 
Times I cry at night 

Take a breath
Take what you need 
Hate to see you frustrated 
Please don't be mad at me
Making mistakes 
It gets hard to see
Down another bottle
Why you always in my dreams
Like
Taking it in
Trying to move 
But I'm feeling to sick
Anxiety from olsers are all up in my ribs
Trying to sleep
But I feel like shit

I'll tell my friends that I'm ok
Even though I breaking open
I shed a tear only hoping
That ill find a way copen 
I always fall at the wrong time
Loose friends that were too nice
My eyes are raw from how many 
Times I cry at night 

Cry At Night

Stream Paperface Album
https://album.link/9v0tjbkpvqnb7

Cassettes

3rd track of the EP
Lyrics---

verse 1:
i wanna crash my car
where nobody will find me 
i wanna blow my brains out
and burn it on a CD
i need space i can’t be around anyone 
cause i’m fucked and my brain is always stressing me out
so imma drive until i can’t because i’m sick of being here anymore 

chorus 1:
tell me why
i saw u at his house that night 
when you said that you’re with your friend 
i rlly thought thought that you hated him
i still see his face in my pillow 
and when i see it i let it hurt
i still have ur art in my closet 
and if i see it i’ll wish it burned 

verse 2:
we were in love so much that 
we could’ve got race car style bunk beds 
i told you that i’m paranoid 
and i’m so scared 
of falling in love again 
we could collapse in the sunset 
at the place we met before we knew each other
just catching the stars shooting over heads,
and again i’m wishing that you’d tell me why

pre-chorus:
i saw u at his house that night ,
when you said that you’re with your friends
i rlly thought thought that you hated him

chorus 2:
tell me why
i saw u at his house that night 
when you said that you’re with your friends
i rlly thought that you hated him
i still see his face in my pillow 
and when i see it i let it hurt
i still have ur art in my closet 
and if i see it i’ll wish it burned

outro/verse 1:
i wanna crash my car
where nobody will find me 
i wanna blow my brains out
and burn it on a CD
i need space i can’t be around anyone 
cause i’m fucked and my brain is always stressing me out
so imma drive until i can’t because i’m sick of being here anymore

Spotify <3

tell me why (prod. grayskies)

live in hell everyday (prod thislandis)

I just wanted to cover one of my favourite songs by my favourite artist @guccihighwaters

Do U Wanna Be Mine Cover (beat remade by Haru)

hate to see u cry like this...

Discover:
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/0dcxj82dd…2ARwKhiBlAWVjJNQ
Twitter: twitter.com/thomasreidmusic
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic/

Lyrics:
are u okay?
are u alright?
so far away
don’t wanna hide like this

are you okay
are you alright
i could’ve stayed
hate to see u cry like this

never knew how to tell me
what you’re going through
it’s okay
it’s alright
yeah, it’s okay 
it’s alright

feels like you’re so far away now
laying in my room
tell me it’s okay
it’s alright
tell me it’s okay
are you alright?

i don’t know where to go now
got nobody there to pick me up
and if i could say i’m sorry
i don’t think you’d wanna hear me cause

i’ll give u some space
i’ll give it some time
hoping we can let go
maybe leave it behind
everything we needed me to be, love
that you needed me to be

wish i could be him
or i wish that i was gone
the one you really need
wish i wasn’t lead on
and everything you needed me to be, love
that you needed me to be

never knew how to tell me
what you’re going through
it’s okay
it’s alright
yeah, it’s okay 
it’s alright

feels like you’re so far away now
laying in my room
tell me it’s okay
it’s alright
tell me it’s okay
are you alright?

are u okay
are u alright
so far away
don’t wanna hide like this

are you okay?
are you alright?
i could’ve stayed
hate to see u cry like this

okay, alright

Spotify: https://ampl.ink/0vRvZ 
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oTeQEty-fz0

Artist:
@alexvalera

Lyrics:
when your laugh fades away
your touch i can't retain
i was free, now i'm missing us
when our path goes away
our dreams don't remain
i was free, now i'm missing us

when your laugh fades away
your touch i can't retain
i was free, now i'm missing us

when our path goes away
our dreams don't remain
i was free, now i'm missing us


now i'm missing us
now i'm missing us
now i'm missing us

when your laugh fades away
when your laugh fades away

when your laugh fades away
your touch i can't retain
i was free, now i'm missing us
when our path goes away
our dreams don't remain
i was free, now i'm missing us

when your laugh fades away
your touch i can't retain
i was free, now i'm missing us
when our path goes away
our dreams don't remain
i was free, now i'm missing us

valera - missing us

fire 
Prod. ANH
YT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYZUppI7X9c

stream

Billy Marchiafava & Shotgun Willy - Mardi Gras

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

Like Suicide - (Prod. TMH)

lyrics:

Lay me down I can take the pain
Beds of nails honestly I wait
Turn me on abuse me while I say
Baby I love u I would never stray
When hope is gone will will lead the way
Ive been fucked over and I pray
You dont take advantage of my state
When im gone ill protect u from the grave
Weekends I would spend stuck on you I regret
Still Id save for the death of me I feel u in my chest
Id give u my breath and
I would carry u on my back
But I settle for the worst fate yet
Alright
No matter my path I swear im alright
Right over my head she’s burning all ties
Thank me when im dead when I expire

Watch her Mutalate My open eyes
She Evisercates The last of us
Our human brains Could not comprehend the reasoning
But I await her reckoning
Request the help and ill spit in ur face
This does not feel how its suppose to feel
I feel lonely right now good time to break the seal
So I drink till im big numb
Its the only time I could say something with confidence
After that call I cant help but wonder how the morning went
Dont say sorry cause I know u’d cave and do it again
Id rather be alone than to make amends At this cross roads

Check the time Im sorry that im not sober tho
I put big bucks in this bottle so imma put that down my throat
Im tryna dodge this ash that’s falling I cant let it hit my clothes
Im not tryna fuck im just tryna get lit then go home
 I fell I left planet earth
I need to think with my feelings first
Part the crowd up cause I walk thru turnt
Take me on my word I cannot be burnt out right now
Cause I do not care if u were feeling me right now
Im in that zone u dont glue to me right now
Im thinking about the shit they put me thru before right now
Let me be the proof they will never choose for me right now

Watch her Mutalate My open eyes
She Evisercates The last of us
Our human brains Could not comprehend the reasoning
But I await her reckoning
Request the help and ill spit in ur face
This does not feel how its suppose to feel
I feel lonely right now good time to break the seal
So I drink till im big numb
Its the only time I could say something with confidence
After that call I cant help but wonder how the morning went
Dont say sorry cause I know u’d cave and do it again
Id rather be alone than to make amends At this cross roads

soundcloud vibes 2

Kuranashi-ya