🖤✨ The Miracle Syndicate - "Practiced on Me"

She said I looked tired, but smiled when I spoke —
The kind of smile you offer a patient.
My coffee was cold before I noticed
That her chair had never been taken.

I tried to remember what we talked about —
But my mouth held no shape.
I wiped her lipstick off my glass,
But it was never there in the first place.

I wrote down half of a name
In the steam on the window,
But it bled down the glass
Like it didn’t want to be known.
She may have loved me —
Or just practiced it on me
In case it ever counted.

The restaurant closed and I kept sitting,
Listening for footsteps that never walked away.
A waiter asked if I was alright,
And I said I was just waiting for a mistake.

He smiled like I was joking,
The way you smile at someone you pity.
I left a tip for the absence,
Then walked home through a city
That didn’t blink when I crossed the street.

I said her name out loud —
But it wasn’t mine to say.
It sounded like someone I almost was
But lost somewhere halfway.
She may have loved me —
Or was just testing the weight
Of what a goodbye might weigh.

There are conversations we never had
That I still apologize for.
She might’ve been real,
But I kept building her
Each time she vanished more.

In the end, I forgot her face
But not the silence she taught me to hear.
And sometimes, when I pass the place —
I swear, I see her disappear.

Practiced on Me

The wound is where the light enters.  —Rumí

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Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Published by Painful Records Ltd.

Nayeli Astra Xóchitl: Vox, Guitar @nayeliastra
Elena Morgenstern: Vox, Keys, Guitar, Synths & Sequencers @elenamorgenstern
Brad Astra: Operator, Programming, Percussion, Guitar, Soundscapes @bradastra



What is not yours cannot be lost.

Love isn’t real 

I don’t have a wife so don’t take my name seriously for people who are sensitive asf

Ich bin’s 

50% Feck & Ellie @feckundellie
33.3% The Miracle Syndicate @bradastra
100% Ellie @elenamorgenstern

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