🖤✨ The Miracle Syndicate - "Practiced on Me"

She said I looked tired, but smiled when I spoke —
The kind of smile you offer a patient.
My coffee was cold before I noticed
That her chair had never been taken.

I tried to remember what we talked about —
But my mouth held no shape.
I wiped her lipstick off my glass,
But it was never there in the first place.

I wrote down half of a name
In the steam on the window,
But it bled down the glass
Like it didn’t want to be known.
She may have loved me —
Or just practiced it on me
In case it ever counted.

The restaurant closed and I kept sitting,
Listening for footsteps that never walked away.
A waiter asked if I was alright,
And I said I was just waiting for a mistake.

He smiled like I was joking,
The way you smile at someone you pity.
I left a tip for the absence,
Then walked home through a city
That didn’t blink when I crossed the street.

I said her name out loud —
But it wasn’t mine to say.
It sounded like someone I almost was
But lost somewhere halfway.
She may have loved me —
Or was just testing the weight
Of what a goodbye might weigh.

There are conversations we never had
That I still apologize for.
She might’ve been real,
But I kept building her
Each time she vanished more.

In the end, I forgot her face
But not the silence she taught me to hear.
And sometimes, when I pass the place —
I swear, I see her disappear.

Practiced on Me

Daydreaming

Lyrics,Produced, Music, All instruments by Nakita Demir.Vocal Arrangements,Vocals,
Mixing,Mastering,Engineering,Recorded, etc 
Powered By Nb Nakita for Nb Nakita Productions

LYRICS

Without you face
Written By Nb Nakita

I haven’t slept a while now
That your on I’m screaming now
Thinking of nothing but your eyes
Closed my eyes to see
Breath in I need it out
Find I need something to shout
Looking at tv its not the same
Closed my eyes to see

I don’t sleep 
Without your face


Im alone
Got up tonight
Breeding such a cruel sight
Your touch is all I want to feel
Lust for you
I’ve got to shout you out my mind
Ive got to leave it all behind
Summon to take this right away
Closed my eyes to see


I don’t sleep 
Without your face

Nb Nakita  “WITHOUT YOUR FACE"

There Is No Cure for a Nightmare

keep putting myself last for you
and I know you're gonna hate what i have to say

ive been practicing walking away 
but the passion tends to bubble up 
all the same

a memory 
a memory 
you're teasing me
forget it
i forgot how cute you could be

tremble when the tremble hits my brain
and i could feel you bady sway this way

a memory 
a memory 
your teasing me 
forget it
I forgot how cute you could be

been gone so long i cant recall your name
pretty sure this heart could hurt the way you say it

a memory 
a memory 
youre teasing me
forget it x3

i forgot how cute you could be x2

Memoria

worth it

I tried to speak but the air just shook,
Every word I had was one you took. 
The silence hums, but it stays too long
Im not awake.
A thousand faces I can’t mistake.
If love is gone then what am i.
A shadow falling through the sky.
Every word i had, was one you took.
If love is gone then what am i?
It fades too fast but it stays too long.

bardo

Lyrics:

 
there's a forest
with a cave
hidden deep
within my dreams
where I hide
my secrets
safe to keep
because
I don't believe in fate
just memories made
and a safe place to keep them
that I don't have to share
that's not a burden 
dreams were made to bare
your soul
is weight
in the canopy haze
of the state
where you
put all your faith
and pray

slow dark and steady
this body is ready
but my heart 
is only willing to lie
slow dark and steady
this feeling is heavy
and my heart
still don't do sharing right
slow dark and thready
maybe I'm not ready
this heart
ain't healthy enough to bare
fast hot and heavy
where you wanna levee my pain
to say we're closer because
we've both been scared

It's hell-dark
It's so cold
It's almost the end times
that's what it feels like
to choke
when you ask what's broke
It's not far
the dying light
It's almost
painting the sky
that's what I see 
when I squint just right
when you ask if I've got a light
 
And I say no, I'm
slow dark and steady
this body is ready
but my heart 
is only willing to lie
slow dark and steady
this feeling is heavy
and my heart
still don't do sharing right
slow dark and thready
maybe I'm not ready
this heart
ain't healthy enough to bare
fast hot and heavy
where you wanna levee my pain
to say we're closer because
we've both been scared

It's hell-dark
It's so cold
It's almost the end times
that's what it feels like
to choke
when you ask me 
what's broke

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slow,dark

🖤 It’s In My Nature
by The Miracle Syndicate

He said he wouldn’t hurt me —
Said it clear, said it twice.
He smiled when he promised,
Didn’t blink when he lied.
We stood at the river.
He asked if I could swim.
I said I could carry him —
And sing out a sailor’s hymn.

He didn’t thank me.
He didn’t ask.
He just climbed on
Like I was built
To last.

“It’s in my nature,”
That’s all he said.
While the water closed over
What could’ve been instead.
It’s in my nature —
No plea, no shame.
He left me sinking
With his name in my throat.

He told me he was different.
He told me he was cold.
He said it like a warning
But wrapped it in gold.
He was quiet halfway through,
Held on just right —
Then leaned to my ear
And killed us both that night.

He didn’t flinch.
He didn’t pause.
He just let go
Without ever
Letting on.

“It’s in my nature,”
That’s what he said.
No hint of regret,
No tilt of his head.
It’s in my nature —
No fear, no plea.
He left me sinking
With his name in me.

The current was slower
Than I thought it would be.
He watched the sky
As he dragged me beneath.

Now when I meet someone kind,
I squint at their hands.
Not because they’ll hurt me —
But because I still understand.

It’s in my nature —
To carry what hurts.
To take the weight,
Even when it gets worse.
It’s in my nature —
To float when I should leave.
To believe something soft
In someone built to deceive.

It's in my nature.

It's In My Nature

bridges

Prettier Tonight!

The wound is where the light enters.  —Rumí

 🖤✨

Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Published by Painful Records Ltd.

Nayeli Astra Xóchitl: Vox, Guitar @nayeliastra
Elena Morgenstern: Vox, Keys, Guitar, Synths & Sequencers @elenamorgenstern
Brad Astra: Operator, Programming, Percussion, Guitar, Soundscapes @bradastra



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