I called you on tuesday jaded and alone
I gave you my time and you gave me your home
I tried to do better 
Tried to do as you’d say 
But you still got angry
You’d rage either way
I'll beat a dead horse as you beat me down
Too weak to form words I couldn’t make a sound
A new cut a new bruise 
A new chance a new day 
I thought I knew better 
I thought I knew better 
And I 
I still pray
One day we’ll met up and you’re not the same 
Deathbed confessions and Moral gray
I called you on wednesday, you're exactly the same 
exactly the same 
exactly the same 
I called you on wednesday, you're exactly the same 
exactly the same 
exactly the same 
I called you on wednesday, your exactly the same 

bleh

better - demo

Ill post the lyrics and stuff in the morning im tired

Okay this is it 

Again 
Of course it’d happen again 
You messed up 
And then you lost al; your friends 
A sorry end 
You figure, you’ll have time for me 
And you do 
But you spend it on 
Your writings and muses 
Your games and your blues its
Just not right at all 
But i'm here through it all 

Who told you? 
You couldn't do better
You’ve faced harsher weather 
Out the wreckage you crawled 
They don't know you 
The things that you’ve been through 
But i see the real you 
And he’s better off without the whining and moaning 
The complaints and groaning 
There’d had been no end 
If there’d been no end
When will you realize through those salty tears that
I will be your friend 
Beginning to end


To bed 
school then straight to bed a sorry end 
You try 
But no one understands 
And so you resign yourself 
To your Planning 
Bed rotting and honesty 
Think statements on loyalty 
Indignant but part me 
Your “friends” 
Your want to feel wanted 
Beat down but applauded 
And lauded 

Who told you? 
You couldn't do better
You’ve faced harsher weather 
Out the wreckage you crawled 
They don't know you 
The things that you’ve been through 
But i see the real you 
And he’s better off without the whining and moaning 
The complaints and groaning 
There’d had been no end 
If there’d been no end
When will you realize through those salty tears that
I will be your friend 
Beginning to end


I'll give everything to you 
I'll live until i see it through 
I heard what i heard 
I did what i did 
And i'm proud of it 
I relish in it 
I know you 
And i love you 

Who told you? 
You couldn't do better
You’ve faced harsher weather 
Out the wreckage you crawled 
They don't know you 
The things that you’ve been through 
But i see the real you 
And he’s better off without the whining and moaning 
The complaints and groaning 
There’d had been no end 
I see you 
And i love you

It still sounds bad of course bc I dont really know how to use garage band this is only my 2nd time doing this but I think its improved I dont really know who im talking to since no one listens to these lol but here it is world do as you wish

beginning to end - demo

Hello here are the lyrics def some mistakes but no ones reading this anyway

I live where I know it is safe
I live inside, in my room because I know that place
Not really my room, more like my designated free living space
They come and go as they please so it is not really safe 
Dang, sometimes I wish I was in the grave
Not really to die, but just to be somewhere I know it is safe
My wooden prison six feet under where no one can hurt me
Free from the living really  the ones I know will definitely hurt me

Once also to avoid the sun
I despised its constant glare 
On the glass and everywhere 
Until the day I woke up before the morning begun 
I sat on the ledge 
And above the hedge 

I saw the summer haze (haze~)
The suns come out and its dried the rain
I enjoy overcast skies
I don’t know why 
But the fogs painted by sun rays 
In a summer haze ( haze~)
These things have hurt and they last so long
Even by this song
They’ve hardle begun
So im taking this chance to stay 
In the summer haze

I cared so much about this family
I gave all my time, all my weekends and put down my phone screen 
To live in the moments that i knew would shortly be gone 
When she’d go to college yeah i knew you guys would quickly move 
but , now im just the rotten black sheep 
I opened my ribs so many times and you guys only hurt me
Now im just the guy who lays in his room rotting on his phone screen
The problem child, the waste of time
Yeah you guys only hurt me

Though All i really wanted was you 
Open hearts and open hands
You rejected my advance 
And now im left with 
My open wounds watching the view 
Too sad to be used 
To kind to be cruel 

In the summer haze (haze~)
The suns come out and its dried the rain
I enjoy overcast skies
I don’t know why 
But the fogs painted by sun rays
In a summer haze ( haze~)
These things have hurt and they last so long
Even by this song
Theyve hardly begun
So im taking this chance to stay 
In the summer haze

Recently I got groceries 
Mom’s been sick she hasn’t gone in a while 
Remember when she used to get us groceries?
How we’d run to get them pile by pile? 
But when I got our groceries 
you just said to put away my food
Usually im used to this 
But this time i really found it rude 
I said fine then if they’re mine alone
Then none of you touch my food 
I ran to my room slammed my door before I realized
That was, rude (sigh)
I don’t think that im better
Im far from being the perfect sibling 
But I tried to do things together
you guys never cared I was missing 
This is a pattern thats happened over and over again
Where I say how ive been feeling if i say it with my pen
So I wrote this song about the time you weren’t awake
Before the sun rose
And all that pain 

In the summer haze (haze~)
The suns come out and its dried the rain
I enjoy overcast skies
I don’t know why 
But the fogs painted by sun rays
In a summer haze ( haze~)
These things have hurt and they last so long
Even by this song
So im taking this chance to stay 
In the summer haze

I originally wrote the chorus a while ago to a topic not rlly about this but I just came out of a writing like block writers block yes but I read my bible and my creative juices are replenished and yeah here it is idk how I feel its ok I guess kinda long didn't expect it to be this sad sounding im just gonna call it ambient anyway yes ok adios pals

summer haze - demo

Warm but on edge 
I’m inside in the cold
And you’re in your home
Calmly watching the snow 
And as the flakes fall
I see a glow 
And im sure its the same one 
I’ve seen hundreds of times before 
I hang up my wit 
Bring my accountability 
and leave snow tracks As i 
hunt down what i see 
There's a sick pleasure In
leaving the warm 
I knew that now
And all the other times before 
But i still call you
When i'm freezing and alone 
And you run down
Leaving your home 
Bring me some tea, we split the accountability
And I wonder why 
You would do this all 
For me 

What would I do 
Without you 
The heart of my lies
The center of my truth 
Old ways have stayed broken 
But i just keep hoping 
That its always you
Yeah its always you
And you got your own life 
And i do too 
And sorry if my words, turns your life askew
But can we add both of our world?
And we’ll both live the average?
Cause its always you
Yes its always you 

And i swore I’d never 
I swore never again 
But I did 
I did it again 
And so my sanctimonious
Rebuking of my sin 
Then served only 
To deceive myself 
Again
But how?
How did I let this happen again

What would I do 
Without you 
The heart of my lies
The center of my truth 
Old ways have stayed broken 
But i just keep hoping 
That its always you
Yeah its always you
And you got your own life 
And i do too 
And sorry if my words, turns your life askew
But can we add both of our worlds?
And we’ll both live the average?
I’ve exhausted my options 
You’re the only one again 

Again and again (again and again)
Again and again (again and again)
Again and again
(again and again and again)
Again and again (again and again)
Again and again (again and again)
Again and again 
(again and again and again)
Again and again (again and again) 
I’m a recipe for more heartache (again and again)
I scribble on every blank page (again and again)
And I’ll do it again (and again and again)
What's choice? what are options? (again and again)
I don’t get to decide this (again and again)
It's just who i am 

Oh tell me what, would I do 
Without you 
The love of my life
The cure to my blues
My old ways are still broken 
So i just keep hoping 
That its always you
Please let it be you 
And you got your own life 
And i do too 
And sorry if my words, turns your life askew
But can we add both of our worlds?
And we’ll both live the average?
Cause its always you
Yes its always you

beginning to end - demo

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