I wrote this song because I wanted to capture the feeling of slowly drifting away from who you used to be, especially after going through something that changes you deep inside. It’s about the quiet, creeping darkness that settles in when you stop fighting your inner demons and start living with them. The moth symbolizes fragility and transformation—when it dies, it marks the end of something soft and vulnerable. This song is my way of expressing that shift, not with fear, but with acceptance.

When the Moth Dies

[Verse 1]
I never figured it out
dont know if i ever will
but every time i think about it
it gives me fucking chills

[Verse 2]
Like some kind of déjà vu
You ever feel that too
Like you've been here before
But you just don't know what to do

Don't wanna be alone tonight

[chorus]
I‘ve never figured it out 
Don’t think I ever will
I don't know how it's gonna go
But I'm thinkin' 'bout it still
And when the thought occurs I feel like running for the hills
because every time i think about it, baby, it gives me fucking chills

[Verse 3]
I don't know how it's gonna go
But I'm thinkin' 'bout it still
I'm never gonna figure it out
But I'm never gonna stop until

[Verse 4]
I try to figure it out
Can't shake the feelin' still
And when I try to talk about it
I never know what is real

Don't wanna be alone tonight

[chorus]
I‘ve never figured it out 
Don’t think I ever will
I don't know how it's gonna go
But I'm thinkin' 'bout it still
And when the thought occurs I feel like running for the hills
because every time i think about it, baby, it gives me fucking chills

[Instrumental]

[Bridge]
I can never shut my mouth
And now I'm talkin' out my ass
But you can turn me upside down
I just want it to last
and it gives me chills baby…
yeah it gives me chills…

[Final Chorus]
I‘ve never figured it out 
And I know I never will
And I know how it’s going to go
That’s why I'm thinkin' 'bout it still
And when the thought occurs I feel like running for the hills
because every time i think about it, baby, it gives me fucking chills
Don't wanna be alone tonight it gives me fucking chills

Upside Down (feat. All Wick No Wax)

Inspired by  revolutionary scientific paper on embracing bias as a fundamental physical quantity

The Observer's Debt

Text:
[Intro – whispered, with echo]
He bit the bat, he broke the night,
He walked through hell and held the mic
Now silence falls… but not for long
The Prince still howls — inside this song

[Verse 1]
Born in smoke, raised by flame
He carved his throne with no shame
Brummie son with a devil’s grin
Fell, rose, and fell again

The world called him mad, called him done
But Ozzy laughed and cursed the sun
He sang of war, of blood and pain
He made the broken scream again

[Chorus]
Prince of Darkness, ride the storm
Through power chords and uniform
You never died, you just went deep
Where shadows play and angels sleep
You're not gone, you're not dust
You're every scream, you're every trust
Ozzy, howl through amps and steel
You're the madness we still feel

(Guitar-Solo)

[Verse 2]
He bled through decades, torn and loud
A haunted king beneath the shroud
The drugs, the fame, the shattered breath
He danced with every kind of death

Yet somehow lived, and loved, and stayed
A broken god we all obeyed
He showed us fear, he gave us grace
With every riff, with every face

[Bridge – Spoken Word/Whispered]
He never asked to be a saint
Just louder than the world’s complaint
He took the pain, made it a spell
He showed us life… inside of hell

(Guitar-Solo)

[Final Chorus – Huge, like thunder]
Prince of Darkness, raise your hand
One last bow for the damned and the grand
We'll turn it up, we won’t forget
You lit the stage, it’s burning yet
You're the howl beneath our skin
The storm outside, the war within
Ozzy, forever in the sound…
Our Prince still walks the underground

[Outro – quiet, then roaring one last time]
“All aboard…”
Crazy train… still runs…

Prince of Darkness (Still Howls)

Psalms 18, Part 1

- Listen to the Full Playlist soundcloud.com/chilloutify/sets/acoustic-and-electric-grunge

Cracked Mirror (EP)

Still Trading Shiny Rocks

Summer Anthem

Ocean

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Ashes And Steel

Gravel Veins

Hunger

(Verse 1)
Grey sky bleeding on the TV glow,
Coffee’s gone cold but I can’t let go.
Your ghost lives in my cigarette,
Every drag’s a memory I can’t forget.

(Pre-Chorus)
And I still wear your name like a stain,
I don’t feel much, just the echo and rain.

(Chorus)
When December calls, I don’t pick up,
Snow hits the ground like broken love.
Your shadow’s screaming down these halls,
And I cave in every time December calls.

(Verse 2)
Frostbite fingers on the windowpane,
Writing your name just to blur it again.
My cracked voice hums your favorite song,
Feels like forever’s been gone too long.

(Pre-Chorus)
You’re the whisper in the static hum,
The ache in the chord when the night goes numb.

(Chorus)
When December calls, I don’t pick up,
Snow hits the ground like broken love.
Your shadow’s screaming down these halls,
And I cave in every time December calls.

(Bridge)
The heater’s dying, I’m wide awake,
Drowning slow in my own mistakes.
You said I’d heal, but you lied so well—
Now I’m just fine in my private hell.

(Final Chorus)
When December calls, I don’t pick up,
The lines are dead, I’ve had enough.
But your echo’s hanging off these walls,
And I break down when December calls.

(Outro – distorted, fading scream)
Yeah… when December calls…
I still fall.
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when december calls

Somewhere somehow someone

Entropic Artist Biography

As an entropic artist, my creative journey explores the delicate balance between chaos and order, harnessing entropy as both medium and message. My work delves deeply into how systems—visual, conceptual, and sonic—transform as randomness and structure interact. 

Artistic Approach

- I draw inspiration from the concept of entropy, embracing chance and unpredictability as core components of my practice.
- Mirroring the scientific principle of entropy, my art investigates themes of transformation, impermanence, and the cyclical nature of creation and decay.
- This approach allows each project to become an evolving ecosystem, where the unexpected is not only welcomed but actively integrated into the aesthetic and conceptual outcome.

Exploration of Entropic Generative Music

My research and creative output are intrinsically linked to entropic generative music—a field that uses systemic methods to produce ever-changing and unique musical experiences.

Generative music refers to compositions created by systems that follow explicit rules to produce virtually endless variations, made popular by artists such as Brian Eno and Iannis Xenakis.

- Rather than composing note by note, I construct frameworks governed by mathematical rules. These frameworks define the potential behaviors, boundaries, and interactions of musical elements, letting the "music create itself" within those confines.
- Such music is neither fully improvised nor traditionally composed; it is an emergent property that evolves as part of a system shaped by constraints and laws, often mathematical, rather than direct artistic decisions[4].

Mathematical Rules and the Role of Entropy

Mathematical rules are at the heart of my sound-based art:

- I design rulesets inspired by principles such as entropy maximization and  constrained randomness.- Models like the Maximum Entropy Model capture statistical dependencies between musical notes, generating sequences that both mirror established musical styles and offer innovative departures—without copying any input directly.
- These models avoid overfitting by prioritizing pairwise interactions and allow user-defined constraints, steering the generative process within mathematical boundaries rather than artistic intuition or machine learning guesswork:
  - For example, the range of melodic intervals can be defined probabilistically, and entropy maximization ensures each sequence is as diverse as possible within these parameters.
  - The result is music that is mathematically entropic yet always controlled by clear structural rules.

Thematic and Conceptual Links

- My artistic process surrenders to the unknown, leveraging randomness (or entropy) not as a threat but as fertile ground for creativity.
- By building generative systems governed by mathematics, I ensure that every creation reflects both disorder and disciplined order—a dance of chaos and rules mirrored in the interplay between entropy and music.

My work stands at the crossroads of art, mathematics, and sound, continually exploring how mathematical rules and the inherent uncertainty of entropy can inspire not just new aesthetics, but new modes of experience and understanding.

The Observer's Debt

BTF Entropic Effect