slimy oozing bubbling stuff erupting

touching all my clean white t shirts

dont ask me where ive been or ill have to lie

floating

in reference to my weekend

asleep behind the wheel 

havent eaten

feels good

try to keep it real

my body armor is so camoflaughed, bitch!

its got invisible rocket launchers right on it

holding on to way too much

watching my hair grow 

fucked up    

broken bones 

i notice those hurt the most when you wake up and remember how they happened



time for altered vision 

betrayed

i know you feel that way 

while im indifferent

betrayed 



who do i need to hurt?

to make shame a motivator that will work 

and after that sustain an outlook 

without constantly reminding me of how long it took

i know it wont be like before



i never believed that 

i know we both see that i need to do more 

i said i agree that 

this shit wont stop driving a wedge in the floor     



exceptions 

satisfaction is guaranteed

except when i dont land on my feet 

exceptions

i love them

just please love me  



and im a beast when 

my anger reaches my dome 

its just a circle

but it is all ive ever known

Bad Boy Cat Toy

Probably my favorite song on this album.
The "main loop" is from a rehearsal recording of my math-rock type band, Ultra Death Men, sped up and cut up.
The song is about a lot of things, as always, but was most heavily inspired by my first trip to San Diego. It was a pretty strange, negative, and intense part of my life, but the experiences I had there had profound effects on my outlook.
The first line of the lyrics references one night Bradlea and I were driving through the desert and the entire dusk sky was literally a full rainbow.
The reiteration of that part of the song the second time is about how I'd wake up every morning to a collection of four cats sleeping on me and they'd all scramble away from me when they realized I was awake, as if to hide the fact that they'd been sleeping on me.

Loud Noise In My Room

Seventh track on Bad Happy.

A bit of an "anthem" for those of you who have a propensity to compromise yourself and overlook unfair mistreatment by your friends and other loved ones for the sake of keeping the relationships intact... I'm quite prone to this.

Even after years of being hurt by people I know who have cheated on me, belittled my accomplishments and talent, ditched me, ignored my calls and emails, forgot to do important things they said they would for, broken promises, violated my trust, and whatever else, for the sake of nothing but themselves, I've still generally stayed un-confrontational about betrayal, essentially making it okay to betray me.
I wanted to approach this topic in a constructive manner, as often I do, but not be too subtle about the message.

If you're in a position where you are compromising your own happiness to keep your life less dramatic and your friends groups without schism; relationships without quarrel: don't keep doing it. Try to find common ground.
If they remain obstinate, they aren't worth your time.

/Life lesson

Betrayal is okay.

There are US tour dates coming in August and November which you can see more abt on my instagram as the story develops. Special thanks to nora who suggested adding some piano
https://www.instagram.com/dei_genetrix/


"It's perfectly alright to step outside the law, because the law itself is aberrated" 
-L. Ron Hubbard

Darkness, We live in some
Darling, please give me up
Sometimes, it seemed like hope
Promise, you didn't-
Don't
Assume there's something here for you
I thought it thru.
Every single chance we ever got we only fucked it up
I think its wrong to lead me on
Don't assume 
It's just us two
Me and you
We're having fun
But I cannot live with myself and 
I'm still so scared of touch

Really
Don't fuck with me nowhere
But then, it's just not what I need
Say that we're put here for something, that's something that I can't believe
Think that I'm living my life, I think I'm a mistake 
Thought that we're reaching for something did worse than just get in your way
It's not a test
We play for keeps
We make a mess  
Who'll clean up me?

Clean up me?

The 2nd last single leading up to the release of "I'm It!'
Art source Color_LES's Mage & Demon Queen
www.webtoons.com/en/comedy/mage-and-demon-queen/list?title_no=1438

"When I was a kid that was a soccer field, and it's already a recycling center"

I live thru wrong decisions
I built my world around them
Lets play the cards we're given
Let’s break the rules around how it goes
How it goes
If you watch you can kinda still see how it goes

Lets try harder in the future maybe we could do better
Put in a little effort, are we only living if they let us?
Lets break the spell around it, lets spell it out in shining letters
Theres living fountains spouting
Theres resounding laughter when they see us

Let me get inside it I can prove that this is worth the price-uh--
I tried to make it right and all my options s*******l
I tried to speak my mind but it came out so all one-sided
If I only stayed behind there might be things to keep an eye on
Let it get inside me I can prove I'm worth the price-uh-
You're why so serious and acting like it's do or dire
I feel a bit stressed out but then I think that I really like it
I can't stand anything bout my life but then I'm really lying

What I had to in the moment
I did what I had to in the moment
Guess our lives are made up of little moments
You could make the wrong choice on every single one of them

Lets try harder in the future maybe we could do better
Put in a little effort, are we only living if they let us?
Lets break the spell around it, lets spell it out in shining letters
Theres crimson fountains spouting, just resounding laughter when they see it

They're looking at me and I'm looking their way
I know you're hungry, look you're licking your plate
NAZ✓ng nothing so I step off the stage
Not saying nothing kinda crazy these days
They're looking at me like I'm pulling a face
I'm not authentic yea we all make mistakes
We're sending signals like we're playing charades
I'm looking at you and you're looking my way

I guess I’ll let it happen
I think I’d keep my head down
Think I’ll let it happen

They're Looking At Me

Damage Cap

Where machines learn how to love through rhythm.

ELON-VEN-0979 - Incomplete Kiss

imdeath4

from "f***ing sucks!"
the band is dead so there is sadly no way to support them
song obviously not mine, uploading it here for listening purposes
discography dl: archive.org/details/babygiraffesdiscography

baby giraffes - giraffe party

ACROBAT OVER A VAT OF ACID CRAP

Blood Soup

REJECT IRONY
EMBRACE DISCOMFORT
LOVING BLISS AT LIGHTSPEED

SPAZZPOP FOREVER
(2005 - FOREVER)

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Icon by fudo_monsuta on twitter

Loud Noise In My Room

Bubblegum Octopus