produced by phixel
mixed/mastered by phixel
backing vocals by maeEXO
sample: https://soundcloud.com/snowblowerr/hillcore

notes: first song in two months! so very excited :D this is definitely one of my best songs, and its a long time in the making :) i started making this in june, and finished it around mid-august when i added maeEXOs vocals at the end of the song. some inspirations for this song include porter robinson, jane remover, blackwinterwells, and tons of others ^^ enjoy

lyrics:
i dont wanna die, i got so much to do
i promise i'll try, try out something new
don't wanna be scared of the whole wide world
scared to get my throat slit, scared to watch it unfold
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)

[maeEXO: there is no one]

i feel like that baby bird that you saw dying on the ground
trying to scream and trying to cry but i can't do it out loud
and your friends all lied and told you i'd be worse if you helped
'well, the maggots got to eat too" is what you told yourself

tell me what you were thinking
have you no empathy? not a drop, not an inkling
if you wanna seem nice don't act like you hate me
it's really not difficult to see things and say things (say things)
tell me honestly, did you even feel a bit of pity on me
when you looked down at the ground and you saw me
i was vulnerable and i was sobbing

(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)

[maeEXO: no one, there is no one, no one, there is no one here]

the maggots need to eat too - Single

the maggots need to eat too

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lets leave

my best friend

stream <3

it gets lonely

quick remake/cover of https://soundcloud.com/janeremover/be-back-soon

thanks for listening

jane remover - goldfish (thatcherblackwood cover)

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it was forever ago, but at the same time it's all i think about
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bare the night, i'll re-align 
the calling cries, that guard skies
i'm saying by and by, the colors lie awake
just close your eyes, pour the blacklight open

(wisp) i wanna hold rewind
please just get outta my face, you only waste my time
everything you say is hate, i do the same cant lie
but it's only cause you do, that stays the same for life
i feel useless, and it's always facts
every time i check the phone, i never text you back
instead of going through this pain, i'd have a heart attack
i hope it fades to black, i hope it fades to black

(me) so you've gotten all the gossamer, say you got a plan
but you just wanna copy her,  and i don't understand
swear i gave up and i'm fumbling for severance 
i guess i'll shut up gotta learn to accept it 
only got good luck for a couple of seconds
i'm staying tied up and i can't light the matches, yeah

blacklight ft. wisp

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

ann j gardner canyon park 2012

cover photo by @zzoos
samples works by @vaultofsecrets854
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(where are you, where are you)
oh i cant say i feel the same as you
what do you want
its irrational, a place not meant for two
what are you on

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

will you think of me?
oh, i hope not
i pull the petals off, loves me not

love me, love me not
i dont care when im in your thoughts
and as i watch you rot and decay, i feel invincible
oh its all that i want

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
please dont come back
lets make the most
before youre gone

ill die all over again

love me, love me not

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1JAV46oTdV7Z05cJZIF0ac?si=67e499cfa1f6436c

lyrics:
i know your starving in heaven 
i know your starving in heaven
are we all meant to die (die)
are we all meant to

stop!
are you a fan of a person you dont like
if you cant stand closing the curtains when its night 
and i cant tell if im doing this all right 
and i cant tell if you're doin alright 

(stop) i got 24 missed calls inside my inbox
too many gamma rays around me need to detox
you got me trapped inside your springlocks (springlocks)

(stop) cus im so constantly worried like "what do they think about me" "am i not interesting" 
its getting harder to sleep without you
you said its only me but why am i counting two

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
(bring me to life)
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

well what do you think 
why you so bad
you've done terrible things
you ain't the one to change cus you've never been

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)

bring me to life

produced by me
written/mixed/mastered by me
cover illustration by server (https://serverxyzz.carrd.co)
interpolates jishoumushoku by sasanomaly

[lyrics]
~verse 1~
i like to keep things close to the same
got personal problems adapting to change
i always plan things so far away
but when i get started its far too late
i like pretending i know what to do
like if i really feel at home then itll all come true
i like pretending ive made it on my own
when it could all end with a phone call home

~bridge~
god, its so hard
to juggle all the things that have been handed to me
but i cant stop
ive got to get back up

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

~verse 2~
i try to sleep well, but every night
i cant shake the feeling im wasting time
ive gotta sink before i can fly
but im still afloat and i dont know why
maybe its all gonna slow way down,
thats all i can hope for, but i still dont know
i roll with the punches, i live in the now
i take a step forward and i double back

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

Steps

prod. swazy* 
vocals and beat edits by button

oh, how i wish you would call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, you notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can-

call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate

(//tbh i know it's not best for me\\)
maybe it's for the best that it's not best for me-

call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can-

call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate

\//I //L//O//V//E//Y//O//U\\/

(call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories)

tlk2ul8ly

tlk2ul8ly (produced by swazy*)

mellow -- album in the works fr see u next year :)

tlk2ul8ly (produced by swazy*)

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