@lil4c

solitude, i got used to it
its nothing new to me 
im stuck in this place on my own 

i wonder if i did something wrong 
that lead me here, im clueless
cuz i dont think i deserve it

2x
tell me how does it feel 
to be truly happy
im asking cuz i dont know how 
to save myself

i had a dream 
i was with you 
you held me close 
like lovers do 

i had a dream 
i was with you 
and we were watching the stars 
til i fell asleep in your arms

to feel your touch, i miss it so
it never stops, im all alone 

i know its bad for me, i do it anyway
it helps to ease the pain just for another day

save myself「lilac」

Music by me
Art by @yugata404 (twit)

Thx <3

Lyrics
No I never meant to hurt you
But you’re the one that I do the worst to
I tried to hide you from my issues
But I forgot they are yours too
This relation-shit ain’t easy
Nor is this pain that you’ve been feelin
I just don’t wanna hurt ur feelins
These past months I’ve been the villain

But I never wanna leave u <3
And I heard u say the same too
Come on baby, please tell me it’s true
I don’t know what I would do with out u <//3

I messed it all up
Got feels in my cup
“I don’t get who 2 trust”
I get that you must
I tried to hide lust
But it wasn’t enough
(No wasn’t enough)

Without You

prod me and @delto
ft @mental

[lyrics]
it depends,,, didnt do it right but thats okay ill try again.. i dont rlly wanna fall asleep, ill lay in bed,,,,.,.., guess ill lay awake and think about my life instead. i cant run away cuz ur just stuck inside my head

i dont get the point cuz everyone will all be dead,, dont think ill forget about everything that u said,,,,,,,every week i get myself into another mess.. but its all the same, loss and gain, more or less

you cant fool me twice, i control it!ice frozen, idk ur motive,, i got shit to do but i cant focus. idk him so hes getting ghosted....talk, talk, talk, do u ever stop posting? you have no thoughts of ur own stop posing.. you must think i like you, i was joking,, i cant stop idk where im going,,

spotify ^w^

hollow +mental prod. emorave & delto

NOW ON ALL PLATFORMS!

1. Bad timing (prod. recyclebin)
2. lock & key (prod. recyclebin x garasu) mv coming soon
3. medicine (prod. BSoD)

me an toxin be makin hits fr

kainebot and toxinbrewer present: another synthetic EP :D (FULL STREAM)

ft @swagtastic666 @xxsyris
prod me

[swag]
bring the drugs in the club lemme chop it
off a xan im a zombie like richtofen
ive been smokin way too loud you hear me coughin
and i've been hangin out with emo so we locked in

and i've been hangin out with scene girls, mean girls, the meanest
i can't tell you how it feels but i know that i need it
shordy snortin way too much her nose just started bleeding
shordy snortin way too much while perkies double teamin

she said wow i like your eyeliner, thank you very much
i get shy around them pretty girls, you see it when i blush
got them thighs on with stripes on, give a little touch
give a side eye, i like him, but i think too much

yeah i'm thinkin way too
yeah i'm thinkin way too
yeah i'm thinkin way too
much 

[emorave]
can u kiss my lips again so i know im still alive
at the club with swag and katie yea we do this every night
u wont get my preset cuz i mix it different every time
pull up to the rave with like 6 guys yea its just my life

im on haight st with wastey
famous like im eighty
u think im a clone yea idc like lazy
get another check i stack it up it doesnt phase me
nothing matters in the end cuz all they do is praise me

yea they praise me
yea they love me
look up in the sky and what always sits above me
all i see is nothing
please just give me something
dont know what to do im so scared of what is coming

ill be fine, if ur always mine
dont look at the time, just stare into my eyes
breath in all the light, take away my life
never leave my side, i dont wanna die

[syris]
take a fuckin knife, slit my throat
i dont wanna be here
plz dont tell me that you lied
you already know my fears
yah they can watch us
but they cant get near
this love so replacable
i drop a tearr
hahaha tell me is it true now:/
blahblahblahblah wat u wanna do now
i dont care about this shit aymore
take my gun nd ill fukcin meet u at the door
bby im just playing maybe im not tho
i know that you hate me
but ur still my wife ho
takin over blowin up i get so emotional
i know i said id take you but you gotta go

fuck this +swag & syris

a girl made of moonlight and teeth

@pearlblade + sympathy

the incisions
dopamine 
n the kill is
always clean

bend ur body
damp n lean
fire licking 
gasoline

a hacksaw n a staple gun
a piece of her is missing
she birthed u like an egg from inside 
ur slow n she isn’t

motion sick n coughing blood
her syrup in ur throat
ur lover on the pavement
with the last drop of ur hope

pls ignore the knives on the wall
its a hive mind n a heart murmur
incorrect flow of blood
into the oil burner

a girl made of moonlight n teeth
her face will bleed n moisten 
inaccuracies of the mind
its so much worse in person

there is a rifle 
pressed into my skull
the corpse of my angel
sockets n cold bones  
i checked my watch so
everybody would know
the time that my head split 
im sorry i’ve grown cold

loverzz on the pavement (+pearlblade +ami)

Full of fear w/ Stress (death)

The maidcafe cypher >:3

Lyrics:

BVRDEN.CR

baby you wanna die 
but i cant let you go yet
the way things are going
we're gonna be up next
everytime you text me I fucking love it
we were meant baby please don't go yet
imma party til i die of a fucking heart attack
and i know that you don't like me 
but atleast call me back
and I know this shit ain't goin nowhere
but I keep releasing tracks
you say I gotta go
but i don't know about that
all my homies really sad
and it makes feel bad
I wish i could change that
all my homies really sad
makes feel bad
I wish i could change that
have alot shit in my past I can't get past
and i wanna relapse
Don't want you to see that
at the top i wanna be there
do you love me do you mean it
say it to me now
do you mean it
----
@saysumn

Looking in your eyes wonder what you’re thinking,
Anxiety inside of me have trouble breathin,
It ain’t for fun, I get high for a reason,
It’s to numb all the pain that I’m feeling,
Blacked out woke up on your floor, you’re mad at me don’t know what for, 
AHHHH everything is a blur 
AHHHH everything it hurts 
Hate I how I feel in this moment but I can’t control it,
Sometimes everything thing feels pointless,
She can see right through me clairvoyance,
Think she know me better than I know myself,
Please don’t leave this a cry for help,
I don’t wanna cry all by myself,
Pockets full heart broke as hell,
I’m all alone and I’m overwhelmed
----
@squidy

sometimes i wanna lose it all
forget you and just move on
will you miss me when im gone?
well you know its really not my problem ;3

i got everything i need right here
fun songs good friends to wipe my tears
you took a lot from me but im not about to let you take more!

then i get sad and i want it like it was before
have you replaced me yet?
something that i cant ignore...

hide my face behind a @veil2k
so i don't have to watch it fail
i dont want to know.
----
@breakupbreakdown

I dont have a clue
Its just me and you
I dont rlly ride w the coup

Ohh
Im so excited
Riding with my bros
Now we all on this cypher

Ohh
Staying up in the nighttime
When im up late 
yeah
Thats when my light shine bright

Raving
Now im up shaking
Ohhh
Its not weird I stay in

Straight to my head
Like im letting u down
Feet on the floor
And my head in the clouds
----
@veil2k
okay lets go!
baby i think abt u everyday it kills me
makin music wit my bros das my boy squidy
if we got a problem we can mix it up like a smoothie
no i really dont think u ready

yeah ok!
ok!
yeah!
yeah!
lets go!
OKAY LETS GO!

i can have all da money in da world but ill never change
all ma bros kno dat ill stay da same
im not even sure if i even really want da fame
if he talkin down on ma bros ima point n take aim
i remember back in da day my name was disclaim
yeah i jus hit rogue you kno its ma game
nowadays everyone b clones yeah yall so lame
me n my boys should go in da hyperpop hall of fame

Hyperpop Hall of Fame (feat. saysumn, squidy, breakupbreakdown, & veil)(prod. yusha)

prod @pearlblade

uh uh, i'm wasted, uh uh, i'm wasted
uh uh, i'm wasted, uh uh, i'm wasted

uh, i'm wasted,
i got nothing left to give!! nahh
uh, now i'm faded
only got so much left to live, no!
and my biggest regret is you (i regret you)
you tried hard and it worked too (yeah it worked too)
had to get away from you (had to get away)
hope I won't remember you (yeah)

bring me, down, told me, we're done
I'm weak, so weak, can't breathe, so numb

just get away from me, just get away
don't waste my energy, don't let it waste away

said you can't trust me, i don't believe it
you love to insult me, i know, I seek it
uh, nowhere to go
soon my heart will drop below
i try but don't
such a mess, I-I-I-I know

so get away from me, just get away
don't waste my energy, don't let it waste away

w-w-Wasted, wasted, wasted, w-w-wasted
w-w-Wasted, wasted, wasted, w-w-w-w-wasted

nothing left to give

stream on spotify

nothing left to give (pearlblade)

for sun: u tend with a dryad’s expertise

prod me @stellathepixie + @nihil2free

nurse, spiderweb girl 
weave me a new world
paint me a kiss, puppy
we can take turns 

lipstick 
on a letter, and my cheek
forfeit
i will blush, u could just blink
take this
as a veil over ur eyes
or a blessing in disguise 
either way ik u’ll smile

u tend
with a dryad’s expertise 
n i’ve heard
u will dwell among the trees
take this
as a forest 2 reside 
or a sea slug floatin by
either way ik you’ll smile

lift my shirt 
like nails in dirt
u lick my cuts
baby can i go first 
body heat
u wear the sheetz
laugh coz u look like a ghost :)
baby don’t stop

lick the sun 
off of me
orange juice 
n make believe
i still remember
halloween 
n how u taste
n how relieved i was

nurse, spiderweb girl
i think its our turn
if we could hold hands
i think we’d end worlds 
those bones in ur skin
second 2 nothing 
i want ur inmost
tie us with red string

nurse (pixie & nihil)

@pincode8485
@medusa9

art by @fooyepont

why you’re staring at me 
Make me feel like somethings wrong with me 
Don’t know what to believe 
Plastic bag - vacuum sealed, on my head 
oh no, system crash, system crash 
I lost all my memories 
Can’t remember anything 
Take me back 

2x
Teach me the language your heart speaks 
You said you don’t want me and how you’re so sorry 
tell me why it always ends like this 
I don’t remember the last time I felt bliss

(are you still there?)
tell me if you're with me
i've been losing, losing my human sensitivities
and i cant hold on if this is all youre giving me
sick of inactivity
listen, this is killing me
cause i don't know why, but it feels like i'm dying
when you're not by my side, girl it gets so hard driving
and i get super tired of the same superhighway
just let me know how i make it right, what do i say?

Hyperpop Hall of Fame (feat. saysumn, squidy, breakupbreakdown, & veil)(prod. yusha)

Bvrden.CR

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