since ur last message - one take

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

i can make something out of everything i see...
prod. @jolst & @sainttomorrow
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
love u all, album next week
from the bottom of my heart, i hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i need help
could u lend me a hand?
cuz the foam on the waves
just threw me into the sand

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

to take, to give, to love
living is hard enough
im so used to the brace before the impact
that when i sleep i just wake before the contact

and now i wander
and i wonder
if its over, dead and gone
if my memory takes too long
are u someone i can rely on?

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

i think i waited too long 
i know the damage is done
im moving mountains just to solve
all of the problems i’ve caused
i’d rather take it all in
than try to fix what i broke
cuz every time i step a foot in
i just slip and then choke
i think im losing whats in front of me
and whats in front of me
is the ocean and some company
but what is company
when im all alone
i’ll try to cope 
but i dont wanna know
what’s really gone now

the weight is heavy on me
and i’ve been falling backwards
i cant stay steady i just
pray for better days when i think i need you
more than i’d admit
i wanna cry and fucking quit
my stomach pulls and shakes and twists
take me back to those i miss

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

VII. mountain mover [jolst x saint tomorrow]

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

what you'd do

had another dream last night
that i was runnin' away from a monster
and that monster was me
it had my cold dead corpse 
hangin' from its teeth
when finally i met the reaper beggin on my knees

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

cuz i dont really give af about myself
in fact im always wishin that i could just be someone else
think id be better off locked up in a cell
i think id rather that
than being trapped in this hell

they used to tell me its a phase
but i still hate my own face...

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

i dont wanna try
ive never been alright
i dont wanna try
ive never been alright!!!

take me away rn! [+gaxillic]

scrap from learning to lose
+ alternate art i did not end up using
prod. @wisssery
much love, enjoy <3

i wrote the lyrics in a notebook so i will not be putting them here my bad guys hope u can understand

middle ground [wisssery]

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

Listen on Spotify!

Dad Hat (Prod. Pekarot & Extra Large Holiday Card)

Pon tus ojos en Jesús.mp3

This album is my intimate descent into the fractured landscapes of identity, love, and spiritual collapse — and the difficult ascent that follows. It is my attempt to map the inner night: the moment when my sense of self breaks open, when love disintegrates, when the world betrays what is most fragile in me, and when my mind reveals its many hidden faces. Through each track, I trace a raw psychological journey, moving from ruin to revelation with unflinching emotional honesty.

Feel free to tell me what you think of my songs, I'd love to chat with you, and leave me a little red heart.❤️

since ur last message - one take

byefloret (kii)