Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/sakuradoves 
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Cover Art By https://soundcloud.com/vendilmz
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(akiradoves)
you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

so tell me why you stabbed me in my back 
you're acting like a little bitch don't know why
you ripped my heart i think i'm just a waste
i think it's about time that you let me go

(sakuradoves)
darling let me go im falling in the snow
i wonder if you know
how much i need you sleeping with me 
baby im so empty maybe they gon envy
when im going up with you now

yeah yeah yeah up with you now
come bring me out 
stuck in this crowd of the memories
from the past living 
fast have fun killing me

(akiradoves) 
i should of known that you'd leave me for him
oh i apologies for the things i did
i fumbled my words way too much 
i wanna be together forever

you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

mistake w/ sakuradoves (nevrfall)

since ur last message - one take

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

what you'd do

had another dream last night
that i was runnin' away from a monster
and that monster was me
it had my cold dead corpse 
hangin' from its teeth
when finally i met the reaper beggin on my knees

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

cuz i dont really give af about myself
in fact im always wishin that i could just be someone else
think id be better off locked up in a cell
i think id rather that
than being trapped in this hell

they used to tell me its a phase
but i still hate my own face...

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

i dont wanna try
ive never been alright
i dont wanna try
ive never been alright!!!

take me away rn! [+gaxillic]

Featuring @sideviewdriveca, @neondion & @decksmusic
Produced by @pekarot_161
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
(Carlby)
Ain't got a dollar to my name but I'm so wealthy
And when I feel out of place my friends tell me
That I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm afraid to open up
Don't get too close to me

No doubt
Wouldn't be here without you
Shout out to the homies
It's about you
I'm slowly finding my way
I'm hoping you do the same
Because we've got a lot to celebrate

Listen on Spotify!

Wealthy Pt. 2 w/ Sideview Drive, Neon Dion & decks (Prod. Pekarot)

scrap from learning to lose
+ alternate art i did not end up using
prod. @wisssery
much love, enjoy <3

i wrote the lyrics in a notebook so i will not be putting them here my bad guys hope u can understand

middle ground [wisssery]

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

Dad Hat (Prod. Pekarot & Extra Large Holiday Card)

prod. wisssery

i think im dying
i dont want violence
i wont sleep, wont close my eyelids
smiling thru pain and dont like it
i did what i could to bite it

u saw the same thing i did
cant lie, i still miss ur lips
my blood seeped thru ur dress
and i think this aint depression
and i think i learned my lesson
oo-
cram it in first,
dont grab ur purse
yeah..
oo!

if i cant lie
then i cant try,
yeah
if i cant smile
then i can lie </3
o - o 
i couldnt care much more than i do,
breaking down my boundaries to make it up to u


( who said im not depressed? )
( im fucked up by thursday next )

who said im not the best?
i know ive been depressed
im in over my head
talking always kills me..

this ain't depression

Luke 15:29

The Father's Field
Written by Aaron Gibson

I’ve been working in the field all day
Hands to the plow while the world fades away
But where’s my feast where’s my crown
I gave it all but no joy comes down

I’ve stayed so near yet felt so far
Am I unseen beneath this star

Oh Father your love runs deeper still
More than my work more than my will
You call me child not by what I’ve done
Your grace flows freely through your Son

I thought the field would earn me your heart
Sweat and tears were my humble art
But you were waiting arms open wide
Your love was never something I had to buy

I was lost in the work of my own two hands
But you gave me a home where your mercy stands
No feast I earn no gift I bring
Just your love overflowing in everything

Oh Father your love runs deeper still
More than my work more than my will
You call me child not by what I’ve done
Your grace flows freely through your Son
(2x)

Daily Musical Devotion - October

The Father's Field

Oct 27 - The Father's Field

“She Always Knows” is a heartfelt country pop ballad about the quiet, unspoken bond between two people who truly understand each other. It tells the story of a woman whose intuition, love, and grace guide the man through life’s ups and downs — she doesn’t need words to sense his heart. With tender verses, a soaring chorus, and a timeless melody, this song captures the beauty of connection and the power of love that never needs explaining.

https://music.youtube.com/search?q=boxeybob+music

since ur last message - one take

byefloret (kii)