prod by xona<3 this beat sucks im sorry(,:

thank you to all the ppl that help me make this ily (all in order)
@reesoo
@heylog
@hovis
@moodyriley
@quannnic
-comet
@1vil
@uglysneaker
@valerii

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avoid w/ reesoo, heylog, hovis, moodyriley, comet, vil, uglysneaker & valerii

eos (ft. heylog)

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

cover of 'all he touched is dead' by corbin
reproduced by logan

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go stay aside with hurt
in a place we went down through
faced lied to taste my ground
invaded our kind world
praise came with doubtfulness
which gave way sound of cruel word

don't hold me
too close now
you trust your weakness
don't hold me
too close now
i'll cut you down
down

all he touched is dead cover (corbin smidzik)

cover of the song "fraulein" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
far across the deep blue water
lives an old germans daughter
by the banks of the old river rhine
where i loved her and left her
now i can't forget her
i miss my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night, as them stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein

when my memories wander
away over yonder
to the sweetheart that i left behind
in a moment of glory 
her faces comes before me
the face of my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night as the stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein
you are my pretty fraulein

fraulein cover (tyler childers)

original song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_Rc33SgCTs


lyrics:

we were lookin at the sky
i hope u know u been in my mind
i wanna tell u but it dont feel right
im sorry but atleast i try

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the hole inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

ive told you a thousand times that Im sorry
its cause my head been hurt and damaged lately
its just another cycle
i dont know where my mind goes
its just another cycle
everyday i feel my mind go

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
my brain is feeling good and my fingers keep on shakin
ringing in my ears and the voices always haunt me
dirt between my teeth from the face plant happened last week

the freckles on her face match the heart inside her chest
no hope for a repair with my love and all the rest

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the holes inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

i dont wanna leave but i got to
before i hit the road she say i love you
its just another cycle
im just another pyscho

walking to your door
i catch myself staring at ur face
i need ur love
can u set the pace
u called me im mean
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster

i tuck
my neck
its cut
you did this

just breathe
but i cant
youll be okay
grab my hands
dont fall off
dont want u slipping
u need to calm down
what are u doing

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
she said u always haunt me
how do u keep coming back to me
ur so frighting

heylog - hope ur doin good

All Platforms - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/vil13/existentialist-feat-heylog-2
Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog) [nora evelyne]

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

Spotify

BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

very underrated song

i said that u were looking hopeless
everytime ive been around you
i cant get u to even focus
cause theres demons all around you

nice new car is it a civic?
she said bye cos its not worth it
in the front seat i hope u really tell me
that u didnt do it cos i dont want a hurting

this ice bath threw myself into shock
when i heard u were addicted to the pot
i was hoping youd get caught
i dont ever talk
but when i do
no one listens
its kinda rude

but wheres all my friends man i really dont get it
im trying so hard but i dont get the credit
i face plant in the ground i guess ill eat the dirt then
ur boyfriends a twat no surprise youd end up w that
UR BOYFRIENDS A TWAT IM NOT SURPRISED U LIKE THAAAT
IM NOT SURPRISED U LIKE THAAAAT
I WONT BE SURPRISED IF YOU DIE WITH HIIIIIIM
he fits you real good cause ur both alcoholics
and time passes by if u party all the night
i think youre the devil is that who you worship
i knew u were evil my minds been corrupted
AND IM HOPING THAT U FORGET
WHAT I DID TO YOU THAT WAS MY PLAN
I WAS THINKING YOU DESERVED IT
U HAD TO RUN YOUR MOUTH
IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING
WE COULDNT MAKE IT
IT WASNT MY FAULT U WERE SUCH BITCH

heylog - Face Plant

3AM at the Club

produced by heylog
main guitar played by SADisfying

lyrics:
if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels takin my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

i wish youd stay home permanently
i cant sleep alone if ur in my dreams
i cant let u go this cant be happening
but ur bad for me
but ur bad for me
i still love u even if u hate me
i still want u even if u despite me
i still care for u even if u dont care for me
u were good to me
u were great for me

i never understood 
how u could put up with me
cause i barely showed love 
im still surprised u didnt leave me
now as i look back
i shouldve cherished what i had with you
call me "heyregret" 
thats how i feel with everything
i havent touched food all day
too busy making music 
she asked me if im aokay
"i listen to ur lyrics"
i dont know how to love
i show zero emotion
only in my songs
my tears could flood the ocean

if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels taking my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed