no god i dont like that, high as fuck off gas

fucking love you guys🗝️🖤 love this so much

@dercept & @prodmichael
I wanna see ppl throw hands 2 this song live


Left behind for the vultures you know this hurts
Limb by limb i'll disappear it's over
Morality is lost the cost of closure
Throwing cheap blows i'll return them ten-fold

Hands up, broken jaw sucker punch
Bitch let's dance, don't get cut
Got glass shards up on my tongue, kiss of death she makes me numb
Broken promise oh my god
If I'm happy what's the cost?

Living in constant pain, watching you rot away
The quicker I start to cave, watching your flesh decay
Yea I really loved you, could you ever even say the same?

Pulling teeth everytime we speak
Scattered thoughts are frequent, never think
Lost a part of me, noose been on the tree
Leaves are falling green
Wonder if you'd still fall for me?
Fall for me

Yea you always said that it would all be me
Barbed wire around your neck hear the blood gurgle through the screams
Say you been down bitch i'll show you what true pain means

Hands up, broken jaw sucker punch
Bitch let's dance, don't get cut
Got glass shards up on my tongue, kiss of death she makes me numb
Broken promise oh my god
If I'm happy what's the cost?

Living in constant pain, watching you rot away
The quicker I start to cave, watching your flesh decay
Yea I really loved you, could you ever even say the same?
Say the same

spotify link<3

fleshh (dercept x michaelwarren)

prod by xona<3 this beat sucks im sorry(,:

thank you to all the ppl that help me make this ily (all in order)
@reesoo
@heylog
@hovis
@moodyriley
@quannnic
-comet
@1vil
@uglysneaker
@valerii

avoid

spotify

avoid w/ reesoo, heylog, hovis, moodyriley, comet, vil, uglysneaker & valerii

Cold breath running down my neck
Life been constant stress
Know that I'm a mess
No more tears are left now
Thought we had a chance
Said its for the best
Still I know that you'll be coming back around, coming back around
Still faded, been playing myself for too long
Narcissistic prick only listen to my own songs
Always bullshittin' swear that you would never do me wrong
Always lies, know I really wish that you would prove me wrong

Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off
Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off

I don't trust your boy know he lying every word
If any girl come near me, there's no option but to curve
Always laying low, only talking to myself
I'm starting to realize that this ain't good for my health
Lonely, met a new one
Is it too soon to say that I'm in love?
Hold me, physical touch
Surprised I got you, guess it was luck

Don't show my face oh please don't record
Don't let him in, promise me you'll ignore
Drowning my voice, don't care if it distorts
I want your love I need more I need more
You need to quit
Alcoholic
She hauling two beers and that's not attractive
But your so pretty on the outside
Hurting inside
Stay with me if you wanna walk a straight line

lostcause w/ heylog (31sentinel)

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by xona

new insta since my last one got falsely terminated:
https://www.instagram.com/uvxona

-lyrics-
when you’re in my head
got your words into threads
“I don’t think you’ll ever find yourself”
now I feel like shit
still in my bed
where I am I just need your help
thinking what I’d done
my mind spirals a ton
it gets worse when I’m all alone
I got the blade of it all
I’m still holding your arms
whenever you wanna come and talk

time slips off my hands now
I can’t stand my own ground
got chains that hug me around
yet, you got me all the way down

down (x4)

chained to the bottom, got me under suffocating 
you put me on the side, nothing felt nothing changing
got too many things going on, too many faces
nothing i could switch, yet I’m always tryna chase it

whatever you said
I know it’s filled with some red
your voice is what I always miss
but why I do care?
you’ve been stalking for years
now that I made this myself
it was stupid at first
I knew the end of the verse
where we both knew we’d get hurt
it’s taking a truth
rip apart and then chewed 
I got nothing left for you…
 
for you (x4)

chained to the bottom, got me under suffocating 
you put me on the side, nothing felt nothing changing
got too many things going on, too many faces
nothing i could switch, yet I’m always tryna chase it

walls

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

Spotify

BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

over distorted waste of time
prod heylog

lyrics:
you feel the pain?
what you trying
what you sayin?
bitch say my name
go on, do it
say it loud
let them know we're not the

same
we're not the same

i'm on my own
all i do is move in silence
i don't need to talk
i advance while bein quiet
so
in my head nothing but violence
pray to God he'll bring me peace
and show me lightness yeah

pray God for my peace
pray for enemies

i wanna be dead
so i can hear the angels cry
why am i seeing red
shut up, now is not the time
help me to relax
cause right now i could kill someone
i got a list of rats
and i do not need a gun
i wanna be dead
so God's standing before my eyes
i'm sorry for my sins
i can't control myself sometimes
me? could not forgive
the list of people i would kill
why think like this
the fight to keep my mental still

i feel awake
why you cryin
why you shakin
those follows fake?
WE'RE NOT THE-
heard you barking like a bitch
make them sit
we're not the

same
we're not the same

Immer mach ich irgendwas
Immer zu spät zur Party
Immer fragen alle: "Was macht er denn?"
Was mach ich denn da?
Hm
Ja
Da
Hm
Ich komm hier an
Fang dann an
Dann fing ich an
Dann blieb ich dran

(Dann Nasenballern) Immer
Immer nasenballern
Aller-
Aller-
Allermeisten nasenballern (immer)
Nasenballern
Nasenballern
Ja
Immer nasenballern (nasenballern)
Aller-
Aller-
Allermeisten nasenballern

Immer irgendwie schon da
Immer angekommen und
Immer fragen alle: "Was geht denn?"
Wie geht es hier noch ab? (Geht's hier noch ab?)
Ja
Da
Komm
Zieh
Komm hier an
Zeig dir das
Dann mach ich was
Das fing ich an

(Dann Nasenballern) Immer
Immer nasenballern (immer, immer)
Aller-
Aller-
Allermeisten nasenballern (immer)
Nasenballern
Nasenballern
Ja
Immer nasenballern (nasenballern)
Aller-
Aller-
Allermeisten nasenballern (ja)

Guck nach links und nach rechts
Und nach oben und unten
Dann dreh ich mich schnell
Immer mehr
Hör nicht auf
So in meiner Mitte fühl ich mich so frei und fühl mich so wohl
Immer mehr
Noch so viel
So von außen betrachtet werd ich gar nicht mehr anschaubar sein
Ich dreh mich immer mehr

(Dann Nasenballern) Immer
Immer nasenballern (immer, immer)
Aller-
Aller-
Allermeisten nasenballern (immer)
Nasenballern
Nasenballern
Ja
Immer nasenballern (nasenballern)
Aller-
Aller-
Allermeisten nasenballern

Immer irgendwie dazwischen
Nie richtig ankommen und
Immer fragen alle: "Wann kommst du denn mal an?
An was bleibst du denn mal dran?"

avoid w/ reesoo, heylog, hovis, moodyriley, comet, vil, uglysneaker & valerii

xona

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