How would you feel (prod Jammy beatz)

Wonderland 2003

Prod. tennis player
*Lyrics*

These shackles drag me down to the depths of the deepest water 

Can’t stand when you come around it just feels like I’m a bother

Everytime you’re close to me it just feels like we drift further

But it’s time to claim my crown I set sail for stormy waters 


Knee deep in the water like I’m baptized 

Hold my breath everytime that it’s a high tide

Hit hard by the waves when I’m chastised 

Can’t breath broke my shackles opened my eyes

Seems like you just always wanna keep me down

Like the moon I just wait for you to come around 

Fall for sirens smooth sounds make me sink and drown 

You lock me up hoping that I will not make a sound

Walking through the burning earth like it’s the rapture

Earth and sky split apart the world is fractured

Find the key to your mind and kill your master

Pretty demons want your soul don’t let em capture

Hold your head up do not cry it’s a bad look

Sometimes you gotta learn to be a closed book 

Fake smiles pretty lies how you get hooked

Even when the road is dark don’t change your outlook


These shackles drag me down to the depths of the deepest water 

Can’t stand when you come around it just feels like I’m a bother

Everytime you’re close to me it just feels like we drift further

But it’s time to claim my crown I set sail for stormy waters

Shackles

Mainframes (Prod. Blue Vein)


Lyrics: 

let me tell you how i feel, now
you had your turn, now it's my turn to take the wheel, now
yea,
i'm over eating every meal, now
stranded in the ocean,
*going through motions like a seal, now

and it feels, 
like i'm floating
*over the sharks
there beneath me while im sinking,
keeping secrets in the dark,
i peep my reason for cheating, 
i liked mistreating myself 
my heart got broken 
and i blamed me..
my health declined..
i'm ashamed of what i can't be

yea, 
and i hated breaking up, 
after all of our struggling, 
and hustling that made us grow

i felt stuck inside box,..
you took over control, 
i didn't realize me not speaking, up 
was hurting my soul

when i'm alone

*i go berserk, mode 
i'm in jerk mode,
i get deppessed
*i'm entering smirk, mode 
there's no need to smile,

for a while..
i would cry, myself to sleep
and i think, my over thinking's, the reason i'm feeling weak, 

aye 
yea,
i'm still waiting on my better, days 
i'm contemplating, what to say i wrote this letter, 
aye
i hide my pain,....
i feel drained..
even tho i don't, complain,
everyday 
*i'm overloaded with strain 


and,
i'm learning nothing is impossible, 
the probability, of me opening is horrible 
emotions deplorable, too expensive unaffordable 
i liked to stick around 
can't, live in the now,  

i get focused, on the past 
i started, keeping secrets i didn't think we would last
i hope, you find a man you feel safer, too submit to
*don't, think for moment i have days, i don't miss you
i used i dismissed you
that's, my biggest issue
didn't, want to kiss you
didn't, wanna talk 

using up the tissue with the water from your eyes
i try to walk to walk but lately i been, in disguise
but it's my fault that i 
put you on a pedestal 
i made mistakes and tried prove, that i'm respectable
i told you most 
i got ghosts, and they undetectable 
im not trying to boast and i see most of them in the edibles 


Drained

Demont