https://colorsquadrecords.bandcamp.com/album/c-o-l-o-r-s-q-u-a-d-0-1-2

I made this track a couple of years ago. I remember seeing a couple of girls on Sauchiehall street and being really attracted to them. I had the sensation that due to my low self esteem I would be literally incapable of approaching anyone I was that attracted to. It was a strange moment. I went home and made this track. I was spending a lot of time in bed and rushing essays at the time; Sleeping through all my classes.

I'm not in a very good place in my life at the moment. I've recently started working for a gardening company in Edinburgh after coming home from getting cheated on in North Carolina in Febuary. I'm stressed and keep fucking up at work. I'm in a band also, which doesn't give me enough time to work on my own music the way I'd like. Everything in my life feels rushed and fleeting, some mad scramble. I get depressed often and wish I could cry but I never can. 

All I want to do is create great music and share it with the world the way my idols have in the past, that's all i've ever wanted. But sometimes I doubt my ability to follow in their footsteps, even though I know I'm capable. It often feels there's just an endless sea of musicians these days; infinite competition. Everyone is trying to get their head above the surface to breathe in the air of success and recognition, even if only for a moment before someone else pulls them back down and replaces them. 

I don't want to work some pointless job I don't care about for the rest of my life. I'm already drained. I'm not very smart, or confident. My ultimate nightmare is giving up. If I stopped making music I'd be nothing. Sometimes I think it would be better just to make music alone and not share it, but the act of sharing art and making a connection with the wider world is really the point of the act. I want to belong, but I don't want to be something unnatural.

I want to release ID#2 soon. I think I'm going to put a few hundred pounds behind getting it promoted. I don't really know how to do any of that stuff though. I'm tired.

Glasgow G.

Some raw acid tracks for your synaptic enjoyment

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Lfo Tricks

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a fluteytune+grey

mechft3

5201 0072

retake on track called Feel It .changed heavily. 7 2023 originally composed. cmn!

Feel That [Free]

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https://p1nkf1re.bandcamp.com/album/p1nkf1re-pt-1

p1nkf1re pt.1

funeral funk 127

EODS

[A] 909_VISIONS1

Up4176

A digital release on Superpang Label: https://superpang.bandcamp.com/album/groups-articulations-of-the-real

The work derives from a study of the group theory and sonification model of physical objects interacting with each other according to various forces such as attraction, repulsion and gravity. In the context of music composition, the group theory was developed by Iannis Xenakis as a method organizing musical objects into so-called “sound complexes” (Xenakis prominently used the method in Nomos Alpha (1965) for solo cello). “Sound complexes” are highly structured musical objects which - alike Gestalten in perception theory - can be easily recognized from a perceptual point of view.

Fundamental for the emergence of ‘Groups: Articulations of the Real’ was a computer simulation of physical force fields. A force field is a mathematical expression describing the dependence of the energy of a system on the coordinates of its particles. It consists of an analytical form of the interatomic potential energy and a set of parameters entering into this form. The parameters are obtained by fitting to experimental data.

The iterative form of the composition moves from a global perspective of objects gradually attracting each other, oscillating, merging and colliding with its elastic boundaries, towards a close-up view of a rupture. In a way, the work attempts to articulate the real physical processes through computer-generated sound.

SP34|Marcin Pietruszewski - Groups: Articulations of the Real

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synths/etc:
Random 4 channel mixer
KORG Monologue (Silver)
KORG Volca FM2
Zoom MRT-3 Drum Machine (2002)
Reverb pedal (shitty one tbh lol)
Distortion pedal (nice one)
Behringer TD-3 (TB-303 clone) with modified VCF.
Tascam DR-05X recorder
Vinyl turntable 
Technics RS-B555

headphones:
Grado SR-60 (1993-1994) (to be repaired)
Grado SR-60x 
Audio-Technica ATH-M50X (main)
FiiO Q1 Amplifier (and DAC) for my Amiga and ThinkPad.

software:
Renoise (main non-amiga tracker)
Midinous
CDP
Spek
VCV Rack
FT ][
ProTracker 2.3/3
OctaMED SS 1.03c + V4 (main amiga trackers)
DigiBooster (not so often)
DefleMask 
MilkyTracker
SunVox
PlayerPRO (not so often lately)
PureData
SuperCollider
Audacity
GarageBand
Schism Tracker
some custom Amiga stuff i made

hardware:
Amiga 1200 (PiStorm32/RPi3 emu68 with rtg, Indivision AGA Mk3 GOTEK, i also have a 68030 accel board which i dont use that often now)
Amiga 500 (Now i use pistorm emu68 with rtg and amigaos 3.9 + 3.1.4 kickstart)
Macbook Pro (2017, 2020)
ThinkPad T480 (i use it for my hardware setups sometimes aswell, but thats my main machine)
ThinkPad T440p (backup)
DAT / DDS streamer with some tapes
