it angers me how this doesnt have 1 million plays already

painful song about mother (bond. x dez x swazy*)

@vaeo-music 
@176s

lyrics:

vaeo:

take just a single moment
reflect on what you’ve done
and i
cant forgive you yet
cause the pains only just begun

havent seen the mountains in a minute
i like to start things but i don’t know how to finish it all
honeydew and cigarettes are on my breath
wonder if there’s something more to living

the days keep disappearing faster and faster
im scared of being left behind
and the pain is such a familiar feeling
it happens all the time

joss:

i don’t wanna see you go back home
cause i’m bad at being alone when it’s dark outside
i know it may feel like i’m using you
but i cannot tell the truth with what i get into

and i’d do it all again if i had the chance
saw the wrinkles on the bed and i thought you were there this time
but i never ever cared that’s why

stood outside thinking how could you believe me
when you never could believe in me
but i can say that i tried
even if it was late this time

i didn’t feel like staying
but i don’t feel like leaving you behind
i didn’t feel like staying
but i don’t feel like leaving you behind

i didn’t feel like staying
but i don’t feel like leaving you behind
i didn’t feel like staying
but i don’t feel like leaving you behind

feel like staying w vaeo (waifu)

Produced by @delto & Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
You’re the best sculptor I’ve ever known
And sometimes I wish for an alternate ending where we were still close
In this abyss where a million things could’ve happened
I’m not sure why it went how it did and I can’t help but look back
I can’t find a way, I can’t find a way
To stop that

I got new people in my life and I’m tryna rearrange them
To fill the space you left but I know it isn’t working
I told myself it wasn’t meant to be I’m lying
But I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

I got new people in my life and I’m tryna rearrange them
To fill the space you left but I know it isn’t working
I told myself it wasn’t meant to be I’m lying
But I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

And I’ve tried giving it time
It feels like you’ll always be a part of my life
But for some reason we had to say goodbye
Maybe I’ll find you in another lifetime
And I’ve tried to distract myself
Think about something else
But my head keeps on taking me back to you this is hell
I’m tryna figure out how to live my life without you
And I still don’t know how to
Cause nothing stops the hurt

You’re the best sculptor I’ve ever known
And I’ll always wish for an alternate ending where we were still close
In this abyss where a million things could’ve happened
I’m not sure why it went how it did and I can’t help but look back
I can’t find a way, I can’t find a way
To stop that

I got new people in my life and I’m tryna rearrange them
To fill the space you left but I know it isn’t working
I told myself it wasn’t meant to be I’m lying
But I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying yeah I’ll just keep on trying yeah
Just keep on trying yeah I’ll just keep on trying 
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying yeah I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

Sculptor (coprod. Delto)

vocals by me + https://soundcloud.com/nxrthstarr + https://soundcloud.com/scrufff + https://soundcloud.com/blxty

prod me :3

honey <3 ++nxrthstar, scruff, blxty (sai)

made with my bestie @lolydkm
guitar by joelious, prod me, master by ydkm
inspired by @yoshi

(morg)
every saturday
you’d come over to my place
and i’d always be so happy
cause both my fuckin eyes they were buried in your face

and
i would never trade the time
that i would spend with you
but nothing lasts forever
and when our time is up then what are we supposed to do

i always mess it up cause i’m fucked in the head
and thoughts of our future they fill me with dread
but it feels so good when my head’s on your chest
everywhere i wish i could be with you instead

i loved you
i loved you
i loved you so much baby

(ydkm)
do you wanna fly with me to outer space?
and watch how your dreams await
and watch how your dreams await
take a step back
and open up your eyes
cause i dont wanna glorify
what you meant to me
no i dont wanna fall into your deepest memory

(morg & ydkm)
if we live our lives together
we gon be alright

(morg)
cause when i remember
a pain lingers in my chest
you’ve forgotten me
but i still wish you the best

saturday w/ ydkm

Luh bday song love u all <333 *OUT ON ALL PLATS*
https://open.spotify.com/track/47w7k6Oxk3w5KWliB5xrHH?si=fe0118308db642c6

im so tired

(lyrics)
You see me trying but you say its not enough
Ive been broken my hearts bleedin girl I hate it when we fight

But on my death bed
Ill be staring at the stars 
Ive been tryna make a wish
Cause youre the only girl I want

But it aint right anymore
Cause what we had fell apart
You know im smoking a lot 
Girl you left me in the dark

Thought im right but im wrong
I keep fuckin it up
I dont know what I should tell you
Ive been feelin pretty numb

Tell me something why the fuck did I keep chasin ???
Ive been feelin pretty tired 40 hours spent awake

I wash the blood away
Thats drippin from my nose
And I could tell you that im fine 
but ive been dying on my own

And I know you wont call
Its killin me inside 
I tried to take some fluoxetine
But it aint set me right 

And I thought that you were the one in my fuckin life
That I could cherish girl you would help me sleep at night

But it aint right anymore
Cause what we had fell apart
You know im smoking a lot 
Girl you left me in the dark

Thought im right but im wrong
I keep fuckin it up
I dont know what I should tell you
Ive been feelin pretty numb

Tell me something why the fuck did I keep chasin ???
Ive been feelin pretty tired 40 hours spent awake

I wash the blood away
Thats drippin from my nose
And I could tell you that im fine 
but ive been dying on my own

walking in the fog (methboiswag)

half the people that i know don't even know me

prod me and @assperrr
this is only the start..

inspos for song:
brakence - nervosa2
rouri404, vaeo - driving with my eyes closed

[lyrics]
*hook*
there isn't time for this why do you wanna stop
wake up like everyday just so you feel more lost
we've gained a lot from this but was it worth the cost
don't leave it now in the end it is all you've got

*bridge*
like what's the bigger picture shit i'm folding
half the people that i know
don't even know me
the issue is inside but i am this close
from exploding
but i am not that worried
cuz i jus know where i'm going

*verse 2*
i'm going
i can't ever just decide shit
it's all good
i'm just taking all my time with
the silence
i'm fighting myself the violence
can never be defeated
I hide and think where the time went?

honestly i don't know why i keep on saying
that i needa slow down
mind is very scattered
issues pile up my flow now
i'm so fucking sick there's not a point to get out
all i've got is this take off my
headphones and there's no sound

where do i go now?
i just wanna get out
cause honestly i'm wasting my time
when will i find out?
the bigger picture i wanna drive towards the top
it feels like i am at the bottom
but wait for my next drop

*hook*
there isn't time for this why do you wanna stop
wake up like everyday just so you feel more lost
we've gained a lot from this but was it worth the cost
don't leave it now in the end it is all you've got

*bridge*
like what's the bigger picture shit i'm folding
half the people that i know
don't even know me
the issue is inside but i am this close
from exploding
but i am not that worried
cuz i jus know where i'm going

3/18/2022

spotfiy !

all you've got (jauntsen x asperr)

new mix 5/24

the water's damp
and there's so much to take
i let you down
but you left your _________ __ ___ ____
the fire started
but it's what i hate
i'm brokenhearted
but i'll have to wait

you cut your thighs
you want me blind
i wish i cried too
and lately i
pressing your time
shaking, i'm through

the water's damp
and there's so much to take
i let you down
but you left your _________ __ ___ ____
the fire started
but it's what i hate
i'm brokenhearted
but i'll have to wait

I chose you, so why won't you stay?

Rowan

briefcase at the lake

IBUPROFEN

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS

LYRICS:

Hit me with I told you so
But you’d never leave or ever listen
Pray to god on my knees
I’m in need of premonitions
Im finding my keys but I know I won’t find what I need

They said
You were toxic they’re right on
Makes sense
I’m only there when the lights off
I can’t
Get my stuff from your house
Cuz you
Stole my favorite sweatshirt tonight 

I make things up in my head
Yeah I’m sorry if I did
I project all of my fears
And end up with no friends
A new direction
I try deflecting

Thousands of tears
And all the blood that I’ve shed
Seems to go to waste
When I get back in bed
Because I haven’t done much
I’m almost out of luck
What did I do with all these years

I cower in silence
Cuz it’s so loud
Drown out my thoughts
With all this sound
If I died now
Would you text back
If I cried how
Would you react

They said
You were toxic they’re right on
Makes sense
I’m only there when the lights off
I can’t
Get my stuff from your house
Cuz you
Stole my favorite sweatshirt tonight 

Prod. drmabeats

Premonitions

i miss my grandma

when u said
that i'd see
you again
didn't think
that it'd be
this long
but i hope
you look down
on me
with a smile
you can see
just how much
ive grown

but i hope
that you're proud
of me
and you smile
once you've seen
just how much
i've grown

briefcase at the lake

caleblrt

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