when i walked outside with you right by my side
i talked too much and you started to cry 
and now i wish i lied i lied i lied 
but nothing changes even if i tried

did you put on your makeup?
then i will too
i didn’t say you could wake up
but i will too 
didn't believe me for a second
but i understand
what can i do to make you recognize 
my hands
i try, you try to make me feel better
you're right, your eyes are making me redder

but i tell a lie that brings you home
and you fell at night when you were alone
i hate myself, like i’m still so conceited 
but at least i know

when i walked outside with you right by my side
i talked too much and you started to cry 
and now i wish i lied i lied i lied 
but nothing changes even if i tried
when i walked outside with you right by my side
i talked too much and you started to cry 
and now i wish i lied i lied i lied 
but nothing changes even if i tried

Rowan

merit-7

Merit minus seven

frou frou frou frou frou frou x4 artifact

a new kind of love(imperf/art1fact)

@redhxrse

these stones in me they build
replace the breaths that i take now my lungs are filled
i see but i don't see
separation of senses everything is surreal
was playing games of catch up
now I'm horrifyingly ahead
it was alright to be alive
but-
(don't you fucking finish that line)

ooh
it's a jolly good day to see the reindeers go by
ooh
it's so much more I’d like to see you try

these stones in me they're sharp
nerves are struck, every thought is coated with mental tar
whole worlds keeping me down
lazybones got lazier, what’s up with the frown
you know me us men of few words
never popped up first but out the seams i burst
it’s better with me on a 1 to 1
hate multitasking shit ain't no fun
paid my dues but it fall on deaf ears
tear ducts are dry ain't cried for ten years
always wonder how i even get here
cos the real fear of failures never not near

ooh
it’s a jolly good day to see the reindeers go by
ooh
it's so much more I’d like to see you try

reindeers

mix @audiachain

will you come back? i miss your lies
a heart attack won't fix my heart eyes
i take a breath...and you fake your death
i gave my best, but how you dress just makes me stressed 

i fall on your side
i know you're not mine
i'm crossing the line
just give me some time
i fail to be right
i hope you don't mind
but just know i'll be fine

if you come back i'll stop my whining
i'll get back on track, the star's aligning

won't you pick a part?
teach me how to starve
imma fall apart
you're a work of art

i can take your side...but it's just not right
for you to feel alive...is for me to be deprived 

i fall on your side
i know you're not mine
i'm crossing the line
just give me some time
i fail to be right
i hope you don't mind
but just know i'll be fine
i made a mess
now you second guess
but i can't confess, the way you dress
the way you dress

HQ Download: https://lyrestill.bandcamp.com/track/lazarus-after-two-years
May 14 Mix: https://on.soundcloud.com/mcCikuPNW7jKiNWH6
Acoustic: https://on.soundcloud.com/yJAJR

Lazarus after two years

01 Lazarus after two years

@1spoder
prod roku
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/bruise

lyrics -
open up the fuckin door hun
is this everything you wanted?
tell me did you really wanna
tell me did you really wanna
pop another bottle up
tell me is it lust is it really love
pop another bottle up
is it really lust is it really love
can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

are you amused?
go tie up that noose (it's all my fault)
acting like you nuanced and shit
alright love then burn off that bridge
tell me love how I'm supposed to live
kick yo feet up
wanna be us
she want more not enough
is it all you dream of
all you need love
fall in now I'm stuck
will you pull through?
I don't like you no more

can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

spoder - bruise

angel cover

its all my fault

spotify

//Lyrics
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind
You're like a shell of your former self bae
You just wont tell off nobody else, yet

Well you know too well
that it cant be helped
take, one look at your body and im falling down
through the depths of hell
Where i wont be found
Im a mess and you can tell cus its just part of your spell

Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind

candlelight [p. sai]

no, we cant fall
guess i dont know
but, you're damn wrong
i try to focus on everyone
just not you
just not you
i guess the serotonin answers to my veins
i guess it all depends on what you wanna claim
i saw a vision of our life the other day
i want it so bad, so bad
i shut off
i shut up
i need attention to be with my girl
told you to listen, a step in my world
never been out here, on my own
dance on the roof with the city lights
hands all on you if the feelings right
can i talk to you girl im terrified
without you
without you
you live a lie
at war with yourself baby watch it go by
ive been on both sides
pick up the time
no amount of help could make you switch all your tides
now its all goodbye
i wish you well
wont call and get you help but
ive been through hell, so i might need it myself
i wish you well
wont call and get you help but
ive been through hell, just thinking to myself
i guess the serotonin answers to my veins
i guess it all depends on what you wanna claim
i saw a vision of our life the other day
i want it so bad, so bad
i shut off
i shut up
i need attention to be with my girl
told you to listen, a step in my world
never been out here, on my own
dance on the roof with the city lights
hands all on you if the feelings right
can i talk to you girl im terrified
without you
without you

no, we cant fall
but you're damn wrong
i cant just focus on anyone
thats not you
thats not you

wish you well

wish you well [p. sai & adrien]

produced by chromecue (n me a little)

cover art drawn by my brother & edited by ilxrrrr

//lyrics 

you been keeping my eyes wide open
you been leading a life im hopin
i can have a part in i chose it
dont know where we started
well, i forgot it but
oh well
dont tell nobody else
i need you to myself, oh
been waiting on a call all week
ill take it like its all on me
just give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
aint been getting much sleep, lately
around 3 terrified of that dream
i swear to god if i dont get sleep, ill
have you running back to me
my tears have only grown old
right here you saw me stone cold
my fears, ive never once shown
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

like im in a coma
wrapped 'round me like a cobra
dont talk like i aint been in this so long
i got some memories that i could pull up
speaking of
i just wanna talk to you, baby
one stop till it all goes, crazy
dont drop what we all know
I, get a call when its autumn
it says you right there, (f*ck it)
it says you right there
we aint talk in so long
its like i dont even know ya
i dont care cause we're so in
scared and we know it
and i dont wanna give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
you dont act surprised its by design
tell me everything
it alligns i treat it like your medicine
like a crutch telling me it hasnt been, over
we gotta cut it off while we're still young
we'll grow old
its just fun, till your part of my soul now i need to grow up
we've grown cold
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

01 Lazarus after two years

caleblrt