lyrics:
this is the state of my mind
this the state of my mental
this is the place where it went wrong
look at the way that they die
why is it lookin so peaceful
why am i lookin so see thru
finally finding my tribe

i do not fuck with this state of reality
everyone fake and they sowing calamity
they all gon take they got nothing to hand to me
so i'm rejecting my sanity
they are just destined to damage me

everything is temporary it is only scary if you realize
that it never matters everything'll happen
it repeats itself, it's a cycle in my fucked up state of mind

this is the state of my mind
this the state of my mental
this is the place where it went wrong
look at the way that they die
why is it lookin so peaceful
why am i lookin so see thru
i'm finally finding my tribe

i'm with the spirits tonight
please do not fear it, it's fine
i gotta keep it in mind
this not my home for the time
i will return when it's right
but why is it feeling so right?
drugs have pushed forward the time
i think that i'm bout to die
it's in my dreams in the night
i don't even really wanna fight
my heart resides in the night
i don't even really wanna try
my soul likes to rest in the sky
i cannot die i cannot i die i cannot die

this is the state of my mind
this the state of my mental
this is the place where it went wrong
look at the way that they die
why is it lookin so peaceful
why am i lookin so see thru
i'm finally finding my tribe

State Of My Mind (Prod. Chousee)

june 14th, 2025

lyrics

poison in the water and were running out of rations
im of the belief that whatever happens happens 
ur of the belief that nothing ever happens 
you have to be right all the time and that wont happen
im sweating by myself inside this skin that im trapped in
theres thunder going on out, it feels its getting massive
artillery had dropped on top my city and its ravaged
my body shutting down and youre just sitting there laughing 

its falling apart
i cant help hold together 
its made out of glue
and will melt with the weather
ashamed 
carried round
and im tarred and feathered
she wants to bite in 
so i cave and i let her

somethings gonna happen_intro (sorrowbringer)

lyrics:

Her voicemail always full whenever I find my breath
This the last time that I call you back
This the last that I even make the effort
My coats hung up at home and I could finally rest
Ok swap the phones lets see how sad u get
I take my shit home first then get it off my chest
Its too much stress
Im inside my head just trying to fight my chest
83 floors up these worries hurt me less
On rainy nights I take my deepest breaths
This is the last time that I call u back
Oh u know Its nothing but land mines in this thread of texts
She tell me she promise ill get mine but what’s left to get
Im beaten down to fine pulp and its nothing left
But once again its all my fault and I sweep the mess
On late nights I could feel time stall as I roll this blunt
I take this puff and sit to watch night fall as I slowly numb
All this pain I feel tell me that im the only one who feel it
Im always the highest in the room tonight im highest in the building
Still I couldnt feel it I need something that just might kill me
Its hot in here too hot I dont get how the walls aint peeling
I look up from my phone expecting mist to line the ceiling
Her voicemail always full whenever I find my breath
This the last time that I call you back
This the last that I even make the effort
My coats hung up at home and I could finally rest
I stopped with tolerance breaks and started thinking less
Cause These drugs will line my feelings like a teflon vest
I got some years left in me before it can catch up yet
So what’s next
Im just a walking shell I work and I do my best
You finally here zombieland well more or less
We all lost the shine we had some years ago we just exist
Pattern work has overcome everything that I used to know
The cloud is hugged like a wedding ring to my daily rows
My voice is killed as its leaving me and im overlooked
It would take the ear of a diety to be understood
This one page of many im not going anywhere
U could hear my voice get carried swiftly thru the air
My reeboks got sewage on em this the second pair
And id try to ask for help but I dont like the way they stare

swap the phones (jabarionthebeat x kuji)


If I die tomorrow im scorching the earth
I need some oujia boards up in that hearse
Cause im coming back and im hurting u first

I wear these lenses that cover my bloodshot eyes
I wrap this blunt and I pull in to park at the venue and im already fried
Its me and my mind like
I feel the temperature rising in here
I feel myself getting higher in here
Im way too geared to be catching a vibe in here  
Lately its no where to hide in here lets go
I could’ve been like 
I couldve been like 6’10
With the way that im squeezing inside of this Benz
Its only two seats I dont got any friends
I pull the brake and I whip the corner
Feel the rubber let go on the brick and mortar
 im doing alright for a pot smoker
This wood in my hand need a fire poker
I roll this paper up under the Kush inside it making my body numb lets go 
Im tryna fuck u I promise I aint leaving until that whole body hum
That table got resin clumps
I rip the bong and I need me some oxygen
Like pronto Im flying im dodging the pot holes
This pill in me making my eyes close
My phone just adjusted the time zone
Im in a 747 thats over the ocean
Im going over the bro code
And I come to find that u filled up with dirty emotions 
I couldnt worry about who had got me I knew u forever but what is it worth
If u do me dirty they doing me worse
I need his blood to be soaking his shirt
Every time its always something ruining my night lets go
Ping my phone so much its now like a nightlight lets go
What’s it worth me smoking if I dont get high no more
I think u purposely trying fuck my life up for sure
Every time I reach out I just get my arm smacked lets go
25 shows im leaving the tarmac lets go
I rock this shit and I dont need no guitar strap lets go
And I miss home so much but this just life on the road
Really my baby im losing my grip I took too many pills now im gonna be sick
I see a camera im breaking the lens no flash photos I shouldn’t here
How much I take of this shit in a year
Cant be too much cause im standing right here
I just dont think of my habits enough
Im already dead so what’s one more cup
Maybe u got in my head if it wasn’t for u than I would’ve been dead
I got this back and forth here in this lead
Im turning the carpet and drapery red
And really if nobody got me I got me but I would prefer if u stayed on my side
I got some problems thats trouble to hide
And u like the only person I confide in
Cause when it all falls down ill be somewhere in the dust
Baby lay that hand down cause I see right thru the bluff
They saying its no escape now cause I checked
Its locked down and were next 
So speak ur mind with ur chest
There’s no point saving ur breath
Firing mortars u gotta choose if u fight or just hide in the back of the corner
Planning my torture I see a car out my house and I know its an enemy soldier
Baby im losing my shit I could see in my future im deep in a ditch
Ok hold up now I gotta piss
I pour again but I darken the mix I darken the mix
Every time its always something ruining my night lets go
Ping my phone so much its now like a nightlight lets go
What’s it worth me smoking if I dont get high no more
I think u purposely trying fuck my life up for sure

LEAK6 (jabarionthebeat x theevoni x skipa)

We Could Be (clean)

lil track with the boy MisFiiT, hope u fw it

lyrics
-=-=-
Wraith
-=-=-
I envy u
And u just pity me
I grit my teeth
And hold my tongue between
Girl when it’s over
Maybe you’ll know what I’m feeling
Bumping to my music
I’ll be hanging from the ceiling

Set me free from what was home
I can feel it in my bones
Everything I’ve ever loved
Everything I’ve ever known
Was a blur inside the dream
Never meant for me to own
Maybe soon it will be over
Sooner than we ever know

I envy u
And u just pity me
I grit my teeth
And hold my tongue between
Girl when it’s over
Maybe you’ll know what I’m feeling
Bumping to my music
I’ll be hanging from the ceiling
-=-=-
MisFiiT
-=-=-
i envy you but your not much better
you got a way with words that make me feel hurt
i been more lost then i have before 
and you use that to your advantage 

hanging from the ceiling 
i might catch a suicide
workin on my music 
yeah this shit is do or die
my thoughts are tongue tied so i write
get it off my mind
good times good times wish i could rewind

to me and you in a wraith
the daydream at least that we talked about daily 
you lied you lied to my face said you’d save me
now i’m fucked up goin on a binge full of envy

envy w/ MisFiiT (prod. ionas59)

Soon as I got my claws free I knew id free my legs of course
Im slaughtering the party and sitting inside the after gore
Now that I got my bags packed its not much id be staying for
Look at the sky tonight 100% you’ll see a meteor

Really what’s this world owe you
Who in that head when I hold u
Im loving the new and the old you
If I had a second then they must have cloned u
I got this kill room I gotta show you
For anybody that had thrown u
I cant believe what u turning me into
I been so evil as long as ive known u
Turn me up
Wrap up this q buddy hurry up
Whatever inside of it burn me up
This coughing gon give me a hernia
This puff in here blowing my mind right now
I think its best if I just lay down
Its Blood on the walls of the club right now
Maybe I gotta stop going out

Soon as I got my claws free I knew id free my legs of course
Im slaughtering the party and sitting inside the after gore
Now that I got my bags packed its not much id be staying for
Look at the sky tonight 100% you’ll see a meteor

So I came thru im fucked up and im ready to get so much more
Baby just put a hand up and im pouring out grey goose on the floor
I dont do shit but track and get blitz inside my house of course
Me and jabari are back this shit brewing in me since comet 4
Let the concierge get you  im outside in its pouring rain
U could take what I gave or u taken back nothing babe
I got neighbourhood up on my hat
I hit this pitch and im breaking the bat
I got some friends that deserve to be sacked
I know im good cause they cant help be mad
Im tryna break in this bitch They wont let me
I blow this door its hinges for entry
I run my keys on the side of this Bentley
I could of killed already dont tempt me

Soon as I got my claws free I knew id free my legs of course
Im slaughtering the party and sitting inside the after gore
Now that I got my bags packed its not much id be staying for
Look at the sky tonight 100% you’ll see a meteor

a falling star / aftergore (jabarionthebeat x theevoni x g06beatz)

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

Soon as I finish work ill be there 10 ill make it happen
I cant help but stay up thru this night im off a gram of magic
Every time we fight I gotta tell myself u never mean it
I cant help but sleep as soon I mix my cup and see it bleeding
I cant help but sleep as soon as I do my cup and see it bleed
Its too hot in here im tryna recoup but I count breath
I fucked up the dose and now the drugs alone controlling me
I need u to lift me up and try to put back the soul in me
I got 20 bucks in the pocket of my diesel jeans
Im just tryna do whatever I could to be wanted
I could buy a deeg and relax while u holding me
Never in my life did I think id be a zombie
Marks on my hands I think doomsday upon me
Burns on my back scratch marks on my face
I got bruises on my waist but im still so cocky
Could u Help me with my heart cause I cant tell the bad apart from the good
Anymore
And even if I could would I wanna know which one I am

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

Its racks on my head she wrapped round my head oh no
U got me in a headlock baby
If u couldnt wait how the fuck I stand a chance on my own
Its hard when half the people here hate me
Its good having shoulders around u until its elbows
U tryna take it left I know u tryna take it where I dont wanna go
U keep tryna take it personal and that game plan is starting get old
Im in the basement and im starting grow mold
I been here forever what’s a couple nights more
Ill keep waiting here and until im part of this floor
She reach over to feed and I just watch the blood pour

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

luvbitez (jabarionthebeat x prodcrater x vogomusic)

[intro]
i don't wanna save you
i'm tryna find the damage
im tryna find the damage
under ur decay, selfish
do u think that i should leave?
do u think that i should leave?
[/intro]

i don't wanna wait too long
these drugs had left me way too gone
so imma just sing my songs
double up my dose
so i don't feel wrong
baby i am not that strong
i just hide inside myself
i hate myself
when i fall down ion' even try to save myself

baby come n watch the fuckin stars explode
and our worlds fall down, it's like my heart u know
like it's so damn cold
we could turn this into a new start, u know
we could build a new home, out of frostlands snow

i been hiding pain too long
i think smth in my brain gone wrong
i keep pourin out my drinks too strong
just to wash down all these pills oh god
i can't be saved by a song
i keep trying but i break myself
i fucking hate myself

i don't wanna wait too long
these drugs had left me way too gone
so imma just sing my songs
double up my dose
so i don't feel wrong
baby i am not that strong
i just hide inside myself
i hate myself
when i fall down ion' even try to save myself

i don't wanna save you
i'm tryna find the damage
im tryna find the damage
under ur decay, selfish

i don't wanna wait too long
these drugs had left me way too gone
so imma just sing my songs
double up my dose
so i don't feel wrong
baby i am not that strong
i just hide inside myself
i hate myself
when i fall down ion' even try to save myself

exploding stars (4lexf x Poppy Ozu)


All this hitting my chest im in shock then it fade
Girl if u tryna take it there well take it that way
Always with this extra shit when drinking bombay
Oh could you shut the fuck up im getting migraines
All it takes some bullshit to ruin my day
Im just tryna talk while u yell in my face
One pill too much now Im somewhere up in deep space
Every night im dying but at least its my way

I roll this 2 but its hitting like 3 to me
I take this pill and it boosted my energy
Ion take time off its no one cover me
I fill my plate with whatever they feeding me
I had to spend 10 nights alone
Im in the woods and im breaking my phone
I tried to call u but no one is answering
I just said fuck it im letting u go
I just said fuck it im too my zone
I threw out my heart and I put in a stone
I just said fuck it I already tried to be nice
But im better off distant and cold
I just said fuck it I already tried to high but I guess now I need more drugs
With this in my system I feel in my element fuck it im never gon need more love
You should’ve thought this through before u typed the shit out and sent it
Now im just laughing inside of my head and busting my weed up on top of that message
U know I seen this all before
I hated the first time I also hated the second
It never changes war
Just like a birth sign u gon use it as leverage
How much more of this
Do u got in the tank
Aren’t u bored of it
Aren’t u getting strained
Surgery on this wood
I might hit a vein
I dont know the strain but
You know its packed with pain

All this hitting my chest im in shock then it fade
Girl if u tryna take it there well take it that way
Always with this extra shit when drinking bombay
Oh could you shut the fuck up im getting migraines
All it takes some bullshit to ruin my day
Im just tryna talk while u yell in my face
One pill too much now Im somewhere up in deep space
Every night im dying but at least its my way

migraines (jabarionthebeat x fizzle x haze)


Leave the beef at home parties never work
Shit just got so heavy
I cant be around you guys no more
I could explain if u let me
I cant be around you guys no more
This the year im too ready
I cant be around these pussies no more
I cant beat around the bushes no more

I cant hide inside the borough no more
This the year im too ready
Im going up and im testing the torque in this bitch
When im whipping the corner on church
Oh god 
I couldnt think anymore on this shit yea this pill got me dry and im dying of thirst
You could’ve died and what was it worth
Couple goodbyes and a face on a shirt
I pour up more
I pour up four in this bitch and im sending someone to get more
I check the score
Im off the board in this bitch and im knocking off everyone lower
I promise im keeping there in my heart
Maybe someday I could send u a card
To show u I really had done it and not only that but now im the one setting the bar

I got bodies thats covered in tech
No its not raining but u getting wet
Im wearing something right outta the met
I gotta be one of the safest of bets
Whatever im saying I say with my chest
Whatever the worry I put it to rest
Whatever the function im wearing my best
She hiding her phone she failing the test
Baby im trying paint u inside the back seat here
Cause the lighting is perfect
Im tryna love u in every way possible im getting love all on the curtains
Im rolling blunts on top of the phone screen
Im getting bud all over the surface
Im getting bucks like im on insurance 
Whatever u want from me I know its worth it
I just walked out Saks with half a wardrobe on and I know u hurting
Everyone hate me eggshell white shoe prints Im tired of watching my wording
Maybe u didnt get smacked around growing up
Thats why u scared to be speaking up
I like the words when its heating up
I just dont think u get mean enough

Leave the beef at home parties never work
Shit just got so heavy
I cant be around you guys no more
I could explain if u let me
I cant be around you guys no more
This the year im too ready
I cant be around these pussies no more
I cant beat around the bushes no more

Come here I could show you
What I really mean when I say I wanna get to know you
And hold you
Someone should of told you
Most the guys on bad time
They just tryna mold you
I promise
Im the one u need im being honest
Plus they always flood to the comments
And ill keep u safe and u know I will
Im feeding these guys the hardest pill
What we got I know its real
What we got I know its real

rosewood (jabarionthebeat x kxvi)

remember to look up.

New music out whenever I feel like it

exploding stars (4lexf x Poppy Ozu)

Caramel