lyrics:

im so sorry
im useless
im worthless to you

im so sorry
im ignorant
im messing with you

i should run away
nothing feels the same
nothings in my brain
i swerved in your lane
i cut in your lane
paid the price to pay
am i here too late
im 5 minutes late
im 10 minutes late
im a decade late
you should run away
im not perfect girl
im so wreckless girl
you should get away

excuse me for being such a loser

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod both of us as always

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later: 
slow down 
shut up 
take a picture of us 
watch her driving away
leaving nothing but dust

i know 
you dont 
really like to pretend 

you love me so let me go
??

me: 
im sorry
you know me
you expect way too much, again

you're going
still coping
i cant live my life without u in

so she'll go
on her own
and find someone else to make her smile

it makes me sick when i think of what we said
so many words i regret, but cant forget

pictures of us

prod @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

1,000 words, 1,000 days
not enough to explain all the times you were fake
locked away and now im floating in space
close my eyes and all i see is your face

i walked away from your love
all because you didnt give a fuck
you were proof that i ran out of my luck
disappear from my life cause you fucking suck

1,000 days later and i still cant forget you

produced and mixed by me

theres so many things left to do
i cant see you moving out of this wall
and i know its all my fault
now theres no one to catch my fall

NO MORE,
YOUR DEAD!

GET OUT OF,
MY HEAD!

YOU CHANGED,
MY FATE!

I CANT,
GO AWAY!

I KNOW WHAT,
YOU SAID!

I'LL DIE IN,
MY BED!

I'LL JUST,
DECAY!

TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS PLACE! (FUCK!!!!!)

11-08-24

the trees can talk

mortified

2. all alone w/ i wanna be mesmerizing to you

Too many shots

Going away w/ guitarbf

Fake Plastic Trees

coming down

Psalm 55 ESV

To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments. A Maskil of David.

1 Give ear to my prayer, O God, and hide not yourself from my plea for mercy!

2 Attend to me, and answer me; I am restless in my complaint and I moan,

3 because of the noise of the enemy, because of the oppression of the wicked. For they drop trouble upon me, and in anger they bear a grudge against me.

4 My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of death have fallen upon me.

5 Fear and trembling come upon me, and horror overwhelms me.

6 And I say, “Oh, that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest;

7 yes, I would wander far away; I would lodge in the wilderness; Selah

8 I would hurry to find a shelter from the raging wind and tempest.”

9 Destroy, O Lord, divide their tongues; for I see violence and strife in the city.

10 Day and night they go around it on its walls, and iniquity and trouble are within it;

11 ruin is in its midst; oppression and fraud do not depart from its marketplace.

12 For it is not an enemy who taunts me—then I could bear it; it is not an adversary who deals insolently with me—then I could hide from him.

13 But it is you, a man, my equal, my companion, my familiar friend.

14 We used to take sweet counsel together; within God’s house we walked in the throng.

15 Let death steal over them; let them go down to Sheol alive; for evil is in their dwelling place and in their heart.

16 But I call to God, and the LORD will save me.

17 Evening and morning and at noon I utter my complaint and moan, and he hears my voice.

18 He redeems my soul in safety from the battle that I wage, for many are arrayed against me.

19 God will give ear and humble them, he who is enthroned from of old, Selah
because they do not change and do not fear God.

20 My companion stretched out his hand against his friends; he violated his covenant.

21 His speech was smooth as butter, yet war was in his heart; his words were softer than oil, yet they were drawn swords.

22 Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.

23 But you, O God, will cast them down into the pit of destruction; men of blood and treachery shall not live out half their days. But I will trust in you.

Psalm 55 ESV

Musical Instruction: Capo 3 | Chords: Vs - C, Am7, Dm7, C; PrCh/Ch - F, Am7, Dm7, C

Arranged and recorded: 12.7.25

2. all alone w/ i wanna be mesmerizing to you

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