[Intro]
As it slipped through my hands
And I try to make sense
I don’t know
Why I can’t keep control of my thoughts
And my relationships exhausted
I tried
I’m trapped in my mind

[Chorus]
When I told you I’d rot
And my brain sort of stopped
I’ve been losing my patience
Been locked in my basement
I’m pulling out hairs that been stuck to my brain
I don’t know

[Verse]
Close your eyes
Talk to me
How to waste your time
(I don’t know)
I can wait
It’s hard for me
It’s hard to switch sides
Think I’m losing my mind
And I’m losing myself
All of these faces keep changing
It’s bad for my health
I know I’m tired of being anxious
I’m tied up being someone I’m not
I know it’s wrong

[Chorus]
When it’s over, it’s not
And that pain never rots
I’ve been losing my patience
Been locked in my basement
I’m pulling out hairs that been stuck to my brain
I don’t know

happy birthday to me ig :/

so many days that my life turned out bad

so many nights that u been up in my head

its hard to not think about what u said

i cant forget that i used to take them meds

i hated waking up at 6am

when i could of been sleeping in

i didnt wanna go to school

but i went to see my friends

its my birthday in 9 days

but i dont really feel like my age

as a kid i didnt feel pain

like i do now


some people say when u get older

that your problems will fade away

its another birthday where i feel nothing

i know that it wont change into something

my birthday (ALL PLATS)

middle of the summer
feel like throwing up
know i hate to be a bummer babe
liquor in my stomach
spent half of the year face first out a hummer
ran into your friend, almost gave her my number
i swear, 
you know i don't mean to hurt you
but im quick to get out, desert you
maybe we're two different people
no ones holding you down, you can leave if you want to

maybe i can be a bit too harsh
maybe you can take it way too far
screaming how i never played my part
pulling on heart strings
watch me play this guitar for you
i feel like you're stuck in the past
and maybe i move on way too fast
something unconditional is all i want
and its all i ask, but its way too hard

bummer

pull the trigger (feat. bastard)

amnesia

no where to go (intro)

deranged

more and more (outro)

prod bashful

@ggyaru
locked in my room getting faded
all that I've done is feel hated
messed with my touch, my persuasion
all that I've touched has been tainted

I hate all my friends, but hate is a strong word
I try to pretend, but I cannot foster
you used me to lend, I wish you'd act proper
I hate my friends

@fiestivals
they ask where I've been like they care now
but I gave them my best then I tapped-out
drown the room in my smoke, its my hideout
then I melt in the haze till I blackout

I gave them my time, my time they'll just borrow
they show up for highs, but not for the sorrow
they act oh so sweet when it's good for they're ego
it's another fake hug, one more fake hug tomorrow

@ggyaru & @fiestivals
I hate all my friends, but hate is a strong word
I try to pretend, but I cannot foster
you used me to lend, I wish you'd act proper
I hate my friends

i hate all my friends

rot ft zape$

(prod by hundro x gavinhadley)
made in 2023

deranged

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