I put myself through a Hieronymus Bosch painting and all I got was this playlist

Brain damage 8: Clean Band-Aids

/r9k/

Away From Home.

Belowground  - Away From Home.

raised by the world wide web (crustsox cover)

kanashi1 did all of the epic guitar work

epic fail:
Why’d you think I’d like that? I don’t even like myself
That's a spine tap, put me underground with the elves 
Never tried that, cause I don't trust no one else 
At the ice caps, don't you wish you would've helped?

Why'd you think I loved you? I don't even like myself 
Thought you played me, I barely even noticed your wealth
I've got rabies, I'll spread right into your mouth 
You'll never change me, I'm way past saving now 

Kanashi1:
Yeah I feel so shit feels like I’m under water 
Such a lazy loser I’m a desperate lover 
Feeling so weird I rly want to touch her 
Yeh I’ll never ever touch her

I’m so a scared 
And I rly need to die
I don’t like my self and don’t care about 
life
Got my digimon on
Ropemaxx fun 
Maybe come over 
Suicide love song 

epic fail:
Why’d you think I’d like that? I don’t even like myself
That's a spine tap, put me underground with the elves 
Never tried that, cause I don't trust no one else 
At the ice caps, don't you wish you would've helped?

Why'd you think I'd save you? I can't even save myself 
I'm in the ocean, way past the continental shelf 
They tried to find me, labeled me a species of kelp
I'm a goner, it was over before I could tell

Kanashi1:
I could tell 
I could tell 
I could tell
I'm a goner
I could tell 
I could tell 
I could tell
I'm a goner
I could tell 

Why’d you think I’d like that? I don’t even like myself
Why'd you think I'd save you? I can't even save myself

aquamarine (epic fail x kanashi1)

puke

Kanashi1-I Give Up

please don’t drag it on
why can’t you see my jeans drag
i even dyed my hair black
you look sad alone
come be sad with me
i’ll keep you company in bleeding 

with your fingerless gloves
sharing razors when we cut
i’m not alright 
with your fingerless gloves
sharing razors i’m not

please don’t drag it on
you make me feel like nothing
tell me that means something
you look sad alone
if you’re hurt and bleeding
i want to be the reason

every time you feel loved
i’ll tear you down and tell you off
i’m not alright 
white with a black wolfcut
yeah you can ruin my life
i’m not alright

with your fingerless gloves
baggy jeans 19 enough

Sharing Razors

Made in Sweden carbon steel
Hole in your neck asking is this real
Fade to black as I chop away
No knife game this is swordplay
Ancient forbidden hidden technique 
Blade in the belly your gut will leak
Filled my quota of kills today
The only thing that's real is swordplay
Writhe around in agony
I possess your life
Not my fault that you are weak
Soul taken by my knife
Live by the sword

Swordplay

stuck in my head
sick in my bed
sick in the head
wish i was dead

lead painted walls
feeling so sick
i cant do this
vomit in the halls
and im so done 
with it all

when did it all go wrong

sick

my love letter to precorporate internet, this is technically nightcore lmao


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lyrics:

[incoherent mumbling]

I keep punching my wall
Ive got nothing at all
I’m smoking every day
I still call people gay
My life’s a grating bore
I’m at rock bottoms floor
Cuz I kept chasing clout
Now I’m neet dropout

I could’ve been a doctor, and raised my own a family
But those dreams fell apart in 2020
And now my memories, exist to torment me
the things in life i've seen just, make me, yearn for, what’s been 

Like
Club Penguin, and chat rooms
Way before the vine boom
There was 1337sp33k, and flash games
Before the world had gone insane
Kid’s my age, who've moved on
Look at me like its so wrong
to still be obsessed with when
We were, back in, 2010

2010
[instrumental]

I knew every trickshot, they did in MLG
way before it was e-sports, we called it major league
And I played modded minecraft, in 1.3.3.
but that was way before~ I was fucking deadbeat

Now all the new joji fans
Don’t know who frank is
And all the kids my age
Can’t hold on a relationship
When the hell did YT
Start to replace TV
What the fuck happened to 
Inter-net-re-lay chat (and)

Newgrounds, harambe, calling your facebook friends gay
Typing lolspeak, in roblox
Before the net was filled with bots
Kid’s my age, who’ve moved on
Look at me like its so wrong
To still be obsessed with when
We were, back in, 2010

[guitar solo]

I hate the modern net, it’s just corporate slop
Since when was all of humor 30 second brainrot
And when did AI memes
Become mainstream?
It’s time to, stop (x3)

Let’s bring back
Myspace, and Miku, before #MeToo
It’s called trolling, not ragebait
We’re only posting awesome face
Kid’s my age, who’ve moved on
Look at me like it’s so wrong
To still be, obsessed with when
It was 20-10

Club Penguin, and chat rooms, waaay before the vine boom
There was 1337sp33k, and flash games
Before the world had gone insane
Kid’s my age, who have jobs
Tell me they think I’m a slob
I don't care, i'm stuck back when
We were, back in, two thousand and ten

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this was just something i wanted to throw out before i get to work on the album thanks for listening

Stuck in 2010

baxk to square one




hey
i want you
i need you 
cant wait to tell you
hey
i love you
i had you
why are you still leaving

hey
why are you the one whos gone
hey
i guess im the dork you called
i
i just want you to come back
i
i just miss the way you laugh

3 hours 
i had you
3 hours
we talked to
eachother
for hours
3 hours
forever

dork

4 years on and off of playing bass and guitar and I'm still so off time... I still think this is bad but it should be better than last time I uploaded it



i used to be fine now i never will again
now i waste my future for more time in my bed
i know ill crash soon
but i refuse to get up to standard
my retarded mind keeps me trapped inside an endless loop of failure

hey im a retard and im gonna end your bloodline
tell everyone im not sorry for wasting your time
hey to all my friends online this isnt a joke
my stupid bwaaa-ka life has got me by the throat

(its all stupid its all stupid i fuckin hate it i fuckin hate it) 
(its all stupid its all stupid i fuckin hate it i fuckin hate it) 
(its all stupid its all stupiddd bwaaaaaa)

i cant rise to the task i crumble under the pressure
i cant harden up im as coal as ever
im just the rough with no diamonds to discover
completely fucked up by the indifference of nature

(humming)

(chorus 2x)

(fuck!!!)

My stupid bwaaa-ka life

People say you're shit
And we're out of time
I think they want you to quit
And I know perfectly why
Try invest stocks
Into internet rock
It's just the tunes they suck
Is that a crime

Thank God
My guts
Will never be
A wojak
It's not
My rot
Never fucking
worth that

I think the ego's
Too big to ignore
Want to connect
But you call her a whore
She says your through
And she calls you a jew
Even if she knew
There's nothing more

Thank God
My guts
Will never be
A wojak
It's not
My rot
Never fucking
worth that

never be a wojak

https://soundcloud.com/roadkill777/misaki

misaki (roadkill cover)

Slime St8

you kiss my open sores, love soaking through my pores 
i've lived a thousand lives, this one is my demise
the day you leave my side, come thoughts of suicide
im riding shotgun in a car 
 going nowhere but we’re getting far

Substance abuse

When I'm gone, I'm gone 
So don't wake me up
Got a tattoo on my chest 
Just to tell you "get fucked"

I don't wanna come back
I'm cool just where I am
There's no pulse in my wrists
So quit squeezing my hand

I know you'll miss me
Any mother would 
But I've been set to go 
Since my childhood

When I stop puking blood
Just get up and go
Cuz I got three letters 
That I need you to know  

D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R 
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, I got a
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R
Don't resuscitate, I'm better off asleep than I am awake

Breathing air, seeing faces
All those things I'm sick of
Affections I can't return
No future, no love

I was scared for so long
But I don't care now
Grim reaper taking me home
While you put me in the ground

You signed the form, I wrote my name
And now I'm ready to bail
So don't go jumping my heart
Should it start to fail

No tubes down my throat
And no lights in my eyes
I'll kick your fucking ass
If I come back to life

Cuz I got a 

D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R 
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, I got a
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R
Don't resuscitate, I'm better off asleep than I ever was awake

D.N.R

And it's not like I really wanna change
I just want every single day to stay the same 
Nothing coming in, nothing going out
And thoughts that I can't do without

Don't tell me what I feel
These tears I cry are the only thing I know that's real
Everyone's got there own way to deal
And I got wounds on me that I never ever wanna heal

Every single year is just the same thing
Nothing I do has any meaning 
Throwing away all the days of my youth
Tell me to be happy but it's no use

How much of this shit is my own fault
Don't wanna think about it but probably all
No one wants to help me get through it
Cuz I'm just so comfortable being useless

Don't tell me what I feel
These tears I cry are the only thing I know that's real
Everyone's got there own way to deal
And I got wounds on me that I never ever wanna heal

Dead End

rather die than try to fix my life
cuz it's easier that way
run away and hide, never face what's wrong inside
so everything stays the same

hurting yourself is lame and fucking gay
but no one's gonna stop you
no one's there to say "hey are you ok?"
so waste your life if you want to

I live lifeless, i don't even try to fight this
cuz i don't really care
i'm used to the silence when i call out
and nobody's there

nobody's there because 

i lie to myself
and say i always wanted to be alone
i don't really know myself, don't know anyone else
so i just guess i'll get stoned

i guess i'll get stoned

Fugue Life

feat. Augie Deimos on guitar/bass

mean no disrespect when I say that I’m probably not getting off this shit this time
no matter how much I need to, it’s not enough for me to fight through my
whole life is just repeating the same thing, never getting better unless someone makes me and
hating myself more than anyone could possibly hate me as i
burn through my brains doing everything that can sedate me

how long will you believe that I’m still trying my best, as I do everything to show that I just gave up on this
it feels so weird that I’m so free to die whenever I want, while parents, friends, and strangers need me to still carry on 
guess it’s cool as long as I still get to get messed up, that’s the only thing I love and it’s fucked 
and it sucks that I’m spitting on everything that I don’t deserve 
all this love and support just enforces this misguided hurt

I don’t know but I don’t care and I don’t know cuz I don’t care
And I don’t know what’s out there or what comes next or why I’m scared

Brain damage 8: Clean Band-Aids

Cammy