Intermittent explosive disorder, or episodic dyscontrol syndrome, is a mental disorder characterized by explosive outbursts of anger or violence, often to the point of rage, that are disproportionate to the situation.

i.e.d

going thru all this pain but i keep on rolling 
i try to hide my anger  but i can’t control it 
niggas change up everyday, i can’t believe you  folded 
depression hurting me so deep these drugs kill me slowly 
girl you meant so much to me i really hope you know this
 i was begging for some help i thought that  you’ll notice 
they say i’m too emotional that’s probably why they don’t like me 
tryna say im stealing sounds but no one sounding like me
im tryna show my fam the world japan im tryna sight see 
girl leave me the hell alone don’t even try to write me
you’ll think this shit a mmo how bitches kite me 
baby let me go, can i love you nooo
anti depressant use em when im feeling low
self esteem shit main reason i don’t post 
done with this lame shit this pain done took a toll
manipulating myself saying this jus how life goes
all my friends gone they turned into my  foes
i been scarred before man i thought you knew that 
you really hurt my heart why the fuck you do that 
my trauma hawked me down  like a panzer soldat 
why everything good always fucking go bad…
i can’t trust no one i can’t trust a soulll
yall say this who flow? tell him take some notes
without 0 retune yall can’t hold a note 
im talking about my real life none of this a joke.
ima pop it on my own i dont gotta brag or boast 
this just my lifestyle no this shit not new
girl if you lived my life you’ll wanna die too 
i almost killed myself man i really tried to 
i make that real shit that niggas sit and cry to
these niggas not really care about you 
i know the feeling well when nobody likes you 
all these evil thoughts i pray that they go away 
i say im good dawg knowing dam well that i ain’t
and when i go up they gone try to eat up off my plate 
but i don’t care, all that matters is my people straight

negativity > positivity (shyne)

ova 
what the fuck do you want from me?
speak up stop mumbling 
i gave that girl all i had that’s why my heart crumbling
she was the best thing i ever had
but now she done with me
i took my L like a boss babygirl you know im a G
if i was bad as you say 
why did you say nothing 
the problem could’ve been solved only if you said something 
why you had to go away
why did you run away 
this real life baby i ain’t got no time to play 
some niggas won’t be satisfied till they see me in a grave
i tell people that im fine but im not okay 
too stuck up in my ways don’t think ill ever change 
i promise when im gone i wont even leave a trace
you can see the pain in my face 
got a lot of shit on my plate 
was all this for a reason or all this just a waste?

say something ft osei (backxster)

it be the niggas you trust the most 
that end up being the fakest 
i really got backdoored how my own nigga gone snake me 
i really been sad as hell 
ain been myself lately
is this shit all for none or is it time i’m wasting 
why do niggas not rock with us 
this diary shit not what it was
i really stay out the mix 
why do niggas hate my guts
niggas hating just because 
like what did i do to them 
they not fucking with li ova 
they always be rude to him 

my heart is broke it’s torn
i wish i wasn’t born 
i wish they would’ve left my side before these feelings formed
been cutting on my wrist again got cuts all down my arm
why they did me bad when i didn’t mean no harm
walking through the storm 
why did you do that
tried my best man that’s a fact
i need yo help man where you at
on the block bitch like im shaq
you switched up aint feeling that 
had to cut some niggas off when i found out they’ll rat 
they did me all typa ways 
never thought my dog would change 
they trying to take a nigga swag you can’t ride this tidal wave 
it’s like my life a endless maze 
opposition steady in the way 
everybody left my side girl 
i don’t care if you leave or stay

it be the niggas you trust the most 
that end up being the fakest 
i really got backdoored how my own nigga gone snake me 
i really been sad as hell 
ain been myself lately
is this shit all for none or is it time i’m wasting 
why do niggas not rock with us 
this diary shit not what it was
i really stay out the mix 
why do niggas hate my guts
niggas hating just because 
like what did i do to them 
they not fucking with li ova 
they always be rude to him

is this all for none? (backxster sowhat)

how did things get so bad 
didn’t expect it to end like this
i’m starting to cut again got blood all on my wrist
you really broke my heart hell nah it can’t be fixed
you blame me for your pain but we all been through shit
i was so downbad yeah i was at my lowest
i was begging for help from you 
yeah i thought you’ll notice
you used to cry to me 
i used to cry to you 
you used to lie to me 
but i never lied to you 
yeah i suffer from ied so i sabotage myself
i try to express myself but things never always go well
if you didn’t love me for real girl why you didn’t tell me
thought that girl was my world but now everything’s failing 
i thought things would work but dam im finna give up
i’m finna give up 
dam 
im finna give up
i’m on the southside posted with my niggas
who would’ve known that emotions could kill us
creative mode niggas can’t out build us
they switching on me but they know i’m the realest
ah dam know im the trillest
you here to hate then get the fuck on 
pop 2 percs now look now i’m gone
even my therapist fuck wit my songs
love is no good i wish i was warned
she look good but a demon with horns
she hurt me so bad girl my heart is torn
tell me how do i get through this storm

walking time bomb (backxster)

all i got is just me 
all i got is myself 
crying yourself to sleep
girl i know how i feel 
why this happened to me
this shit don’t feel real 
i tried the best that i could but somehow i still fail 
like what the hell suicide i might aswell
just got myself i don’t have no one else 
say baby why you leaving me 
i’m the one who treat you well 
my heart hurt when it bleeds i was so sad you wasn’t there 
but you don’t care bitch you not even trying 
you obsessed with fucking lying 
in the vc with labyrion 
where’s true love i can’t find it 
life going bad niggas dying 
im not doing good on my end 
i’m depressed can’t you see im crying 
this shit happens again again again 
i’m thinking bout giving up i hate my life i don’t deserve this shit 
so much pressure building up i don’t think ill ever fucking win 
they tell me pray to god but best believe i already did 
yea i pray every night and nothing change ain’t nothing happening 
just look me in my eyes and you’ll see the pain that’s deep within 
i hope my prayers work because i just want this pain for to end
everyone giving up why they gave up on me at my worst
she put me in last but i’m the one who had to put her first 
shit hurt me so bad ima still move on even though it hurts 
even when life bad ima still hop on beats and somehow surf
play with my twin im going berserk 
she played with my heart but i know my worth 
you want you a bag i buy you some kurt 
im not what you want but im what you deserve
im not losing focus girl im on alert 
i cry to myself hope things don’t get worst 
why do you treat me like im a jerk
try to hide my scars but shit doesn’t work

can't hide my scars (backxster dimpleb)

i know it’s my fault baby that things changed
it hurts me girl that we went separate ways
didn’t want you to go girl can you please stay
i’m trying to move on but i’m afraid..
of this world without you 
i don’t know girl if i could live without you 
i’m all alone i got no friends
i die right now i won’t be missed
like why do i even exist 
my life just filled with misery
i just wanna quit 
am i meant for this?
i don’t think i am
i’m fighting this illness
and things getting worst
man this hurts
i wanna die take me off this earth 
all this pain i might deserve 
i try to heal but nothing works

nothing works (yungdni jkj dimple)

i did what i could
i think it’s time to quit
im focused on my grind 
girl i’m tryna go get rich 
didn’t expect you for to change
didn’t expect you girl to switch 
girl tell me what you want best believe i’ll grant your wish
i’m tired of this pain it ain’t no end of this
a hole in my heart i can’t get rid of it
my heart is broken it ain’t no fixing it
girl all i know is pain and misery

you say it’s ok but it’s not
i gave you all i had when ain’t have a lot 
you want me dead you hope i rot
you better than this that’s what i thought
sadly i was wrong i dont regret shit baby 
you’ll miss when i’m gone
i’m trapped inside my room 
been crying all night long
i thought i told you baby im not safe all alone
i’m trying to stay strong
i know what’s real what’s fake
i know that you a snake
just trying to tell my story and somehow they still hate
like why they hate on ova 
because they know ill be great
as long as the wind blowing I’m gone keep going
wanna know why i’m this it’s a sad story 
i’m done trying with you girl our love horrid
i rather go m i a then deal with torment

i.e.d

Ova!