Released: 8/20/22

Featuring \\
@hope_nikku
@kiano_kano
@onlyhandwrittenletterss
@capkyle

Tar Through Your Veins Feat. HOPE Nikku (Prod. Siemspark X Ayoleybeats)

lyrics 

notes in my
notes in my bag
tell stories of a man who 
had gone too far back
scooping out my brain with her hands
oh its bad
scooping out my eyes with a spoon
its gone bad
in the frontlines
i had seen them ripped apart
on the other side of the tracks i lost my heart
pretty coastlines
pretty soon ill depart
in the midst of it
i try to leave my mark

maybe misheard me when i told you id be back
maybe u deserve the shit im pulling out my bag
i cant say no more to this shit you try to act
i cant take your words to my brain its like some lag

match and a gasoline tank
mask n it covers my face
it takes me a moment to brace
im burning this shit from the fence to the lake
i steady hate how it tastes
still i be killing my brain
the beams fall and crush both ur legs
lie in this mess u had made

notes in my
notes in my bag
tell stories of a man who 
had gone too far back
scooping out my brain with her hands
oh its bad
scooping out my eyes with a spoon
its gone bad
in the frontlines
i had seen them ripped apart
on the other side of the tracks i lost my heart
pretty coastlines
pretty soon ill depart
in the midst of it
i try to leave my mark

the frontlines

the frontlines (tiedforsilver)

took me a bit to make this, but it was a ton of fun to experiment with some new sounds. s/o hero for teaching me about formant shifting /o/ 
I'm gonna try and release 2 songs next month, no guarantee though c:

lyrics:

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side 
I’d die for you
  
So I tear myself apart everyday that’s fine
I know that every piece ends up entwined
with my hands tracing slowly up up spine
sewing threads so tight they won’t unwind
I

wanna know
have you ever tried to be
anything more than what you’re trying to be
need to know 
if you’ve ever tried to see
everything that I can see

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that
that

Iiiii
will love you like I know to
castle in the sky 
baby I think we should float too
I’m barely alive
but for you I wanna pull through
if you were my ride or die
there’d be so much I could show you

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright  
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side
I’d die for you

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that before?

break your fall (empty roads)

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone

every single bone (josiah3)

prod dash 

sample from whiplash
lyrics ⬇️
theres not a future thought in my head oh well
well i could tell you what i want next 
but you would yell
yell at me for my best
for secrets that i had kept
then wonder why i aint slept
oh well
think this is something i cant repeat
keep stoopin low
you gonna find me out in a ditch
i dont want you to know
i dont think i dont think i can be seen like this
id rather you go tell everyone im just in an abyss
stuck out in the snow
way too cold so i couldnt flinch oo

think my lil brodie jus hit em a clip
360 y y hit on yo miss
and he doin damage so that you cant stitch
all of the stuff that you wish he aint did
act like my wifi aint runnin so i could just possibly find me some rest
act like this wachu been wantin
honestly please come be my guest

white paint on my whip
all of my vices green
i dont want you to trip
but i dont wanna you to cling
like what do u mean

well its pretty easy if you would just listen just for a minute 
i could tell u how i really have been 
like walkin to finland
thats how the distance feels between us when you get tempted
if i had wishlist you wont get it
ill throw that lil promise over the hedge

hits like a comet covered in ship
if we woulda saw it it would be sick
hints like a comment you wont forget
but we had a problem thats what we missed
covered in star dust under the mist
woulda been harder not to be hit

barley had started when you had dipped
hate you departed think we had skipped
my head been clouded hate to admit
i hope these feelings diminish they cant replenish
you act like a skit but this now a show
like where did u go
if i had a blick then i woulda blown
like you didnt know

and i cant explain how im feelin alone
every night i feel like theres not a phone
no where to reach
nowhere to be
part of me feel like im left out to bleed

finland (dash)

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
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I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

too good at losing friends

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

soul destroy

love like the movies

This the best part of the story
Making it out after its all bloody and gory
I lift my arms and i look up it’s like im soaring 
I handed her my heart like can u keep it for me 
It’s almost 5 im working while they tucked in snoring 
I couldn’t live a normal life the shit was boring 
I tore it all apart now something new is forming 
You can keep the love I gave you it’s not for me
Im on the highway doing 90 thinking bout it 
If I go off this median like it’s accident 
I got this pump might put the shit right to my melon
I just don’t think I got the guts to put a shell in 
If he racking arcteryx he prolly tellin  g 
All my homies diked up like Ellen D
I made about as many wishes as the well is deep
I don’t think there’s any truth in what your telling me
And bitch i brought my name outside 
When I’m walking to the ___
I brought my name outside when I’m walking down the street 
Pull out pieces of my heart 
So something’s left there when I leave  
Bitch im faded barely holding on myself like an old tee 
Don’t show my face outside
Less it’s for nessisity
As long as my mom proud 
U can all think less of me 
Bitch im on it right now 
I can barely feel my feet
I was down before but now im making money though at least 
It’s nothing much fuck everybody 2016 
I go to bed fucked up so when I see you in my dreams I don’t remember it as much 
This drop it steep 
The whole world spinning around me but I’m planted in this seat 
And I noticed everything just don’t say everything I see 
And I always act polite so I feel less bad when I leave 
And I lost myself in people that were not for me 
And it still hurts all the time but it’s a bit less bad at least 
And it’s nothing much forever est 2016
And it hated seeing you cry 
And I loved seeing you happy 
And I know it’s okay to cry
But I don’t want it about me 
And I know you hate when I 
Say that but it’s what I mean 
And I don’t feel bad for loving unconditionally 
And I don’t feel bad for wishing I could make you smile at me 
And Im smiling right back cause if anything its funny 
And I didn’t think that I’d make it this far past 20

making shapes

I make music sometimes
blew!Team! we da shiii!

<333 @333collective 😈

Tar Through Your Veins Feat. HOPE Nikku (Prod. Siemspark X Ayoleybeats)

Cap.Kyle