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bling

lyrics: 

swear that im a hothead, i used to be normal and i miss it
wanna drop dead, every day begins with reminiscing
but when i drop they love it. see the ring, look, pussy, kiss it

they love me more than i fuck with myself, its insane
i know theyre mortified, i wanna blow out my brain
treat me like coraline, take out my eyes and ill stay
im feeling more alive
i swear to god that im a hot head, i used to be normal and i miss it
wanna drop dead, every day begins with reminiscing
when i drop they love it. see the ring, look, pussy, kiss it
but they dont read nothing, kinda wish that they would listen
no, i cant sleep at all
i dream of you when i wake
i let you keep it all
you planted it in my brain
i scrape my knees and fall for you and all of your games
so if you see me, call
but i wont answer

im a hothead, i used to be normal and i miss it
no, i cant keep standing when im bleeding in the kitchen
one more day is all i need
just to make me through the week
its the same, it all repeats
say a prayer before i leave

she told me to tell her, i cant find out where to start
say you love me up and down but you dont treat me like you are

said her favorite song of mine is probably galore
cause when the metals on my wrist it doesnt leave it sore
you said i was the only one, ive heard that one before
you dont gotta love me, i just wanted to be yours

thats the thing i hate
i cant break away
cause, damn it, im a hot head, i used to be normal and i miss it
wanna drop dead, every day begins with reminiscing
but when i drop, they love it
seee the ring, look, pussy, kiss it
but they dont read nothing, kinda wish that they would listen

when they see me on that stage i pray they understand the vision
ima paint my bedroom red so they cant see how ive been living
love the rosaries, i count the beads then i proceed with sinning
i know your home is just a house to me so, baby, whats the difference
ill communicate at the best of my ability 
i was way too late, now youre hiding what u feel of me
so ill play your games, pass the time, you’re slowly killing me
so i lay awake, face is red, my fists are clenching

___ i just wanted to be yours w/ bunii

lucille - shed those tears (snippet) (OUT NOW)

lucille - fuckin freak

lucille - fear

lucille - whatever (og)

Find out how i wiped my tears
Like you ever bothered to listen
It's so surreal how the feeling is all
You don't feel real with your chest in a cyclone

I feel like i missed all the years
Running away in hope that i could escape i
Cried i wept so much
Tryna figure it out still
You came back so what?
Just to tell me you'll go again

What's the issue?
What's the matter?
I watched you throw it all away
As i let it all decay and I changed
But you won't do the same

I know your heart hurts
Oh well i thought that I'd be there
Could i escape from hell
Don't pick my brain
I feel like I'm cursed
Oh well I thought that'd you be here
Rotting away as well

Tryna find myself in the mirror
When I pass away they'll stop and cheer
Are you happy without me or am I
Just another flaw you consume
Cause I love you more than
Anyone
Don't you
Runaway to sit and I

Cried I wept so much
Tryna figure it out still
You came back so what?
Just to tell me you'll go again

What's the issue?
What's the matter?
I watched you throw it all away
As i let it all decay and I changed
But you won't do the same

I know your heart hurts
Oh well i thought that I'd be there
Could i escape from hell
Don't pick my brain
I feel like I'm cursed
Oh well I thought that'd you be here
Rotting away as well
Away as well

myocardial

THANK YOU FOR 100K MONTHLY
BASTARD FRIDAY <3

breathe

theirthoughts

and i just faced you, on the floor
i thought you take me as a corpse 
i want you to kill me 
but now that i feel it,

i'm unsure, i'm unsure 

pull the trigger would you let me die 
just pull the trigger would you let me die
just pull the trigger would you

i'll knit you a sweater 
all made from my tears 
i'd cry you a river 
just dont leave me here 

lucille - unsure (snippet)

lucille - nosebleed (leak)

lucille - one missed call (blood) (leak)

lucille - stuck (prod. lucille) (leak)

lucille - mean it (final)

didn't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

i don't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

it's a fake out
tryna trash this party
doing lines in the bathroom
do you wanna makeout?
we could probably find a spot on the hills if we had to, i know

even if you could apologize
they'd find the wrongs inside your rights

no matter what you do
they'll always be after you
until i walk alone
on misery avenue 

all fall down
under the surface
i might drown

didn't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

i don't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

hat trick

i'm not really happy i'm, alive
often times i wish that i would, die
if i perish would that make everyone, smile
if that's true, then it's, time

in my, casket
give me, flowers
it's so, saccharine
leave me, sour

so bittersweet...

lucille - bittersweet (snippet)

lucille - ur so fucking annoying

drown

lucille- you’re (snippet)

voices in my ear
to cut em out, i need to rest
to just clip your tongue (just clip your tongue)

don't wanna hold my breath
'till there's nothing left,
the way you knock my head,
through the walls it's evil
but i just stand
and i try to lose you but, i just can't

so
i'm feeling stuck
fight when it's stormy
was i enough?

think i gave this all i could!

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Dell