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Singles: Vol. IV

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by Carlby & @horoshavibes
Guitars by Lavender_Txwn (@user-757072975)

LYRICS
Don't know how much more I can take
You've got a way with words
You always get your way

And when you talk down to me
I don't talk back
Always playing defense
Now I'm on the attack

Said it before and I'll say it again
I don't like myself when I'm like this
I was down bad
Now Im feeling better
I'm not that same sad boy you remember

So we are never getting back together
I'm my own man now
I don't need to be tethered
I'ma show you how to keep your cool under pressure
I won't let you hold me down forever

(sendflowrs)
Hold me down forever
Trying to keep it cool while I'm under pressure
Yeah its now or never
Kiss me, or don't
I don't care
whatever

I been runnin' runnin' runnin' from my problems
I've been loving loving loving all this time you give me 
Smokin' way too much yeah just to solve 'em
And you pussies ain't a hundred yeah you barely fifty

I Don't Like Myself When I'm Like This w/ sendflowrs (Prod. w/ Lavender_Txwn)

Featuring @itsyungvan
Produced by @taurs & @prod5head
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
You can't relive the past tense and it's not fair
Stuck into my old ways like I'm still there
I'm try'na move past this
Grown cold from your absence
But I won't cry I'll just be glad that it happened

No I won't lie you really hurt me
Wounded my pride
Am I deserving
Of all this pain
I long for better days
'Cause I don't wanna feel this way

(yung van)
We weren't perfect
But you got me
And I thought we were steady as a
Steady as a heartbeat
Oh now you've turned into a nightmare
And I can't let you go until I've held you
But you're not here

I miss how things were better than
You didn't need acetaminophen
I know I talk to fast without my ADHD medicine
Some sounds still trigger memories
Like that loud train on Elmer's street
That woke you up at night
After you had fallen fast asleep

Past Tense w/ yung van (Prod. Taurs & 5head)

Featuring @kaiyko
Produced by @horoshavibes & @splashgvng

LYRICS
I know I fucked up real bad and I can't win you back now
I look straight ahead but I don't see a way out of this
Turns out the vow that we made
Didn't mean anything to you anyway

Now everything just seems meaningless to me
I meant it when I said 'til death so let me rest in peace
I know I fucked up
Blame it on my bad luck
There no more bad blood
It's only love

So when you look back do you do so with tenderness
Or am I just another memory that you repress

(Kaiyko)
I wait for you to come around to say
The things I've already heard before
So tell me what's new
Got a broken heart and nothin left to lose
I know 
You're doin okay
But I am always
Thinkin' of ways to
Get right back to you
But it's too late too late
Gotta get back home to our places
Not sure if I can make it
But I will tell you I would take it all for you
If we could take it all back too
Even if it's all even if it's all for you

I Meant It When I Said ‘Til Death, so Let Me Rest in Peace w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Horosha & splashgvng)

Produced by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Lately I've been stuck
In a cycle of
Falling in and out of love
With what we had
I still want it back
From time to time
When I romanticize

When I romanticize about it
There's just no other way around it
I miss you

I'm never one to back down
You used to be the background
On my phone screen
But now you're just a distant memory
I should've left you in the past
Really thought you had my back back then
Fool me twice shame on me

(Horosha)
I had that dream again 
And I woke up knowing that it's over 
But in that moment it felt real enough to touch 

I know you've moved on now 
White picket fence and wedding vows 
I just wish I had caught up 
Falling behind so show me how 
You deal with the world spinning so fast 
My fingers are slipping now

Lately I've been stuck
In a cycle of
Falling in and out of love
With what we had
I still want you back
From time to time
When I fantasize

Romanticize (Prod. Horosha)

Featuring @kanashisadface
Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Engineering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I can do this on my own
I don't need your influence
Got me feeling so low
Damn you really put me through it
I'm off the meds now
But I'm on the mend now
Figuring myself out
I don't fuck with self doubt

I'm on my way up
Standing on my own feet
I don't need no crutch to lean on
I should've known better than to fold under pressure
Knowing full well that I can't rely on these drugs forever

But I just wanna feel better
I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness

(Kanashi)
I just wanna feel a little bit better
Take another hit
My eyes go a little bit redder
I'm so sick of all the lies they feed me
Emptiness is not a substitute for how I'm feeling

They shove these pills right down my throat
Will they ever work
Nobody fucking knows
And I swear they just want to control me
This little tiny bottle got me feeling like a zombie

Crutch w/ Kanashi (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact