damn... i just fuckin love what ur doin💖

i still dont understand why this ep so underated. literally some of my favs

this self prod goes crazy and that cat is so cute 😭✨ I love this song

[+] sick of crying out for help
*produced by @thersx *

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LYRICS:

sick of crying out for help 
you don't seem to hear me baby I cant make a sound
lying on the floor tell me do you see me now
look at what you caused this aint what its bout
yeah its deeper than that there's no feeling
cut thru to the bone now im bleeding
I just try to think of you when im feening
cuz I don't wanna fuck this up
I just need some of your love
is it really that hard?
someone to hit up when im lying in the dark
all alone, baby would you even pick up if I called

crying out for help

crying out for help (feat. skele)

Weather Patterns (prod. notmorgn)

@sleepywater is a qt i love him
(sleepwater)
im an insomniac an i dont get no sleep
i wish u would call me back do u find the irony in me?
point ur stubbon finger its a shame that i still linger
a part of u im broken, i think that i might pull the trigger
empty shells im still broken, still searchin for what is woven
in the seams yh im still looking, feel like i was fucking chosen
to die this fucking way, in my grave no i awoken
im seeing stars today, ur the reason i keep going,
its a carnage i'm fucking like that, i would rather die in a car crash
why can't you try or even fight bacck, what we had i think it went bad
ur a tree and im a bee, ur a wolf and im its prey
need u back, just let me c :(
what u do and what u need
i dont think ill ever be
anything u ever need
begging on my fucking knees
ur all i ever need :(

(casperrr)
i just i wish i could be helpful
relieve ur stress when the days are painfull 
im so hollow i feel like a void 
am i getting paranoid?
replace me with any other boy
push me down onto the soil
be careful with the gun u shoot, cause u still get the kick from the recoil
even if you hurt me 
even if you brake me 
i will always be here 
to help you with what you need
so brake brake
brake me 
hate hate
hate me 
can you see the irony 
i want to   leave but im stuck in here
stop dont point ur stubbon finger everything goes wrong in the winter
i dont want to pull the trigger but i know that im a sinner
empty shells i know im broken, all the words that werent spoken
the pain won't fucking leave, i feel like i was fucking chosen

stubborn finger w/sleepwater

prod. me

[casperrr]
the marks on my body
make me remember
what everybody made me go thru
back in december

[autumn]
this all is my fault
it aint no surprise
i lean into the wall
and back intol ife

[casperrr]
my body is rotting
could u save me now
i can't stop myself from falling
but can u pick me up from the ground

[autumn]
im stuck in the rubble and ash 
to fly in a line is a definite crash 
stumbled across who i was in the past
hope i don't re-la-pse

[casperrr]
they all think im different
really whats the difference
i do have feelings
how can't yall see that

[casperrr & autumndropsdead]
ooh~

casperrr x autumndropsdead - back_in2_life (casperrr)

cover art by my mother 

all the songs in the flesh alb r jus gone be released as singles

sewerperson "lights r on but no ones home" covered in the song

mix & mastr @fleshgolem
lyrics

fillin up th cup 
i feel my body start to ache
evrything telling me to stop
even see th walls starting to cave
and they love it, a body piled function
don’t wanna cause fussing but it’s building up coz every day i see my grave

this aint who i am
but ima act like this is why i am 
my perspective starts to change in where i stand, looking out th window pane
look i dont blame u for thinking im not keen staying 
but i dont hav a plan, anywhere on this dirt feels same

sink to the floor, coz it’s the norm, 
don’t u touch my skin
it’s all been stored, i’m now reborn
coz i can dump my things
yelling fuck it, pressing on my stomach
i can feel it coming but i’m not fucking stopping
 till i’m turned out in 

look at my face, see my state i jus kno ur confused 
i need space, cannot wait let’s take a break on the moon
i’m in pain, still in shock, lost in thought and i’m bruised
u saw me thru th glass and then just left me bleeding out in this hotel room

i saw the lights on but i knew that no one else was home
look at the nikon and check the camera roll, i'm all alone
feel the bottle pop, spew it out, opening in the mouth
i'm a cyclops when it comes to seeing no one else
okay, okay

i feel my ears pop when i take the lift up to the spot
in the function, sipping on this ace and rolling pot
i'ma punch in, even when i'm geeked, i'm on the clock
like a pumpkin, i'm lit up and my body start to rot

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

know i act tough i just need someone to see i’m not ok
the whole domineer off i’ma just leave it to fate
cut my feelings off coz that mean i’m not suffering the same
sure it isn’t real but when i smile i still feel sane

i still feel sane, but mostly when im on a subs
get apifannys that turns my wants in to musts
i get a lot dreams but w my habits theyre all stuck 
i got these goals but w these habits theyre all fucked

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

lights r on

lights r on (flesh)

prod @nate2timezz <3

hope you enjoy
thank you for listening, like seriously, so much
gotta keep moving, somehow

irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

how'd another worm get caught in the rain?
sun come out to enhance that pain
shame, shame
all that you wanted was someone to save
now that you're lost, you treat them as god
paying your dues, they've been clogging like clots
don't care about being 'part of your mirage
fuck an applause, this all i got

that weight upon the water's nothing more than just a storm
so what we drinking for? 
what we drinking for?
those ideals are everything you've only felt with utter scorn
so i can't take no more
i can't take none

fluid ghosts, i can feel them haunt my bones
i cannot break through the drapes though
radiation burn my halo
don't you go ask how my day goes
you're not concerned anyway
you're plastic as legos

quiet down while break the seal
'cause i'm numbin' down from what they claim is real
every day i wake just to fuckin break, then rejuvenate
i'm in shock, kinda like an eel

hit em with a swift so fast like an aipom
they went from a real to fake in a day; gone.
rollout like an autobot, waiting for december sun
who am i depending? 
honestly, not anyone anymore

so, you like to target? 
trust me there's no need to implore
inside my cartilage, there's already arrows galore
you're my narcotic, the thought of you imposes me warmth
or so i thought it; ultimately leaving me sore


irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

so i can try to fill in all the blanks
when shrouded in mirage, i'll take the blame
poison in the pot,
love it 'till you hate the fact that you forgot
what mattered anyways

aipom (nate2timez)

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

Silently all night
Write notes app paragraphs
To get the words right I gotta make a draft
And I get afraid of accidentally pressing send
I would rather do it here and copy paste it in
I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

Tie me like an anchor to the floor
Or you can drag me all around like a bad dog owner
I don't wanna live like this no more
I'm just standing too high at the store
Yeah
I stay still and as I walk the ground moves under mе
This package hit my lungs like UPS trucks as I cross the street
And baby I'm your doll
I swеar that I'm just your dummy
Swear the way you love me, hurts so much it's funny
Tapped and always dumb and I'm so beautifully ugly
Throw me on my back, make me feel my body numbing
495 ways to tell me that I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
How could I do something else with myself
If it's all decided and its not in my hands?
I don't know, I just wish I'd calm down
And be someone else that doesn't like just always fucking hiding
Got nowhere to go
I'm just camping out by myself
Some place I can find that
Lets me feel like I'm there 

Im a wasteaway
Watch me waste away next to you
Just a waist away

I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

we made a heart farm o* + notes app drafts  .o*

[Chorus]
No one is glad that I'm back
'Cause I never leave, that's a fact
It's track after track after track
And I cannot stop, it's a fact
Bong hit and knot in my back
You gotta give me a sec
Mad busy so you gotta reach me
Call me, I do not look at my texts

[Verse]
I'll visit but I gotta jet
I'm sorry, I'm always leaving
I left you a joint in the back
Just text me when you free again
I promise, I'll sesh you again
I'm sorry, I ghosted my friends
I fucked up, got lost in the vision
But swear I went missing just needed a vent (Vent)
I don't pop no xans, but my eyes so low
I been looking like a mothafuckin' zombie man
I know you got a friend and I know you don't like him
If you think he might like me then call me then (Skrrt)
Why my vision fuzzy, no a blunt does not do this here
Someone filled it up with something
Someone filled it up with something
You do not know me
Not a brother, not a cousin

[Open Verse]

[Chorus]
No one is glad that I'm back
'Cause i never leave, that's a fact
It's track after track after track
And I cannot stop, it's a fact (Fact)
Bong hit and knot in my back
You gotta give me a sec (Give me a sec)
Mad busy so you gotta reach me
Call me, I do not look at my texts

9TAILS - facts (prod. nciku)

Epilogue. Cigarette outside. Bag of chips.
The night is over — identity isn’t.
Manchester breathes with you.
You survived. You shined.
You’re still here.

12, Still On Canal Street

Lyrics:

[Verse]
You should see my face right now
The tears are fallin' fast
They're gonna make you laugh
You're probably thinkin' this is just like me
For drama and tragedy
To have you holdin' me
Oh

[Prechorus]
And if I lose you
I lose everything
Oh
Baby
You
Are all I need
Oh-oh-oh

[Chorus]
If I lose you
I'm left with nothin'
No one to hold onto
Oh
If I lose you
Oh
Oh

[Verse 2]
I've never been a desperate type
But you came into my life
And you changed my mind
Now all I think about is
If you ever walk away
I would never be the same
Oh

[Prechorus]
And if I lose you
I lose everything
Oh
Baby
You
Are all I need
Oh

[Chorus]
If I lose you
I'm left with nothin'
No one to hold onto
Oh
If I lose you
Oh


[Bridge]
If I lose you
I'm left with nothin'
No one to hold onto
Oh
If I lose you
Oh


casperrr x autumndropsdead - back_in2_life (casperrr)

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