i’m either numb or i feel way too much
i’ve come to terms who i am and how it’s just my luck
i always hated change i hate it worse involving breaking up
when i can feel i gotta front
i’m always acting tough
i’m missing all the days with not a worry in the world
cause now i’m in a daze just tryna make some sense of it
as soon as i climb out i fall into a deeper pit of darkness 
leaving me to wonder if i never found my way out
would i be missed

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do i feel like this
anxiety has got a hold on me it’s got a tight grip
my fist striking the concrete while on night shift
so many people but i still don’t know where i fit
i don’t wanna work a normal job 
i got dreams i could reach if i carry on
i have days when i feel like i could be on top
but then most of the other days i hate every single song

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do good people have to go through bad things
why do people like you more when you have a little fame
why do people have advice for you when they are not the same
why can i not explain the reason that i have this pain
i don’t know if it’s cause and effect
i don’t know if it’s something that i’m bound with to my death
all i know is that half the time i feel like i am dead
and the other half anticipate for when it comes again

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

i'm either numb or i feel way too much (prod. cloud cadet)

lxst boy
[hook]
i said that im fine but i promised that i lied yeah
tryna make it right but it gets harder in the night yeah
stuck here writing songs in my room its rainy weather
my shadows my only friend now we're miserable together x2

[verse]
we're 2 different people i get that
but why didnt you tell me to step back
i was staying up waiting for a text back
and instead i got sad and i relapsed
yeah i tried and i tried, i fall down then i cry
pick myself up trip and fall then i die
you said its fine but really its not
you act clueless and watch as i rot
i check the time, its 4 or 5
then check my phone, cant see the light
i check my pulse, im half-alive
you picked my rose and watched it die
these castle walls aint fortified
i hear the lies and theyre not mine
cant feel nothing, my nerves are fried
spending every waking moment feeling dry

cavasoul
[verse]
i feel faint
lacking iron or protein
or maybe dying
been abandoned by my guide
cause i never see the signs
its over gimme one more time
you move on i fall behind
i always fake it don’t admit the fact
that i’m never feeling fine
i’m a mess most of the time
give my best i’m never right
i struggle with anxiety that makes me wanna die
no one listens
no one cares
really need to wash my hair
but i hardly leave my bed i’m miserable and losing air
suppressing my light make it snow in the summer
i wasted my time even thought that i loved her
i feel like i’m fading i’m losing my colour
i was losing my mind she was under another
another one that i can add to the list
i try to forget all the things that you did
when i think about him it be making me sick
you were wanting a high that i just couldn’t give
the time that you took from me never returned
when you give up your trust and it breaks then it burns
i’m tired i wish that the tables would turn
one day i’ll see you get what you deserve
i thought i could i save you but i was mistaken
concerned with the path you taking
you lied to my face now you can’t even face it
you leaving me here while i’m broken and shaking

miserable together w/ lxst boy (prod. boyfifty)

I Could Stay For Days (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. Mist3r]

*music video*
https://youtu.be/ha3jlyoufbE

produced by @zainibeats & @beowulf 
mixed & mastered by @zainibeats

jomie & powfu - followed by a cloud (prod. zaini x beowulf)

I swear you’re so perfect but tragic
One look in your eyes I can tell that you’ve had it
You’re trying so hard just to break those bad habits 
Not seeing your worth just the pills that you smashing
Just to take from the pain but the people keep laughing 
They’re digging you deeper to cause a reaction 
you reach out for help but they think it’s attention
But I’ll stick by your side doesn’t matter what happens

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

when I can’t breathe
think abt the tricks under your sleeve
matter fact life gettin messy
your fault cuz you know I don’t get no sleep
it’s abt what you put in the stare
makin it harder to breath
got me here trippin on air what is it that they don’t see

you’re makin it harder to quit this
look to the heavens have god as my witness
wrong all along on the mission hope I don’t you don’t miss me when I go missin
if I lose my flaws I think you come back
buti think that there would be tention
yea you say I’m wrong but I think I’m right
that’s y u jest sent me a message

look me in my eyes tell me that it’s gon be fine
every night when the light off see ur poltergeist

i know what your saying now
I’ll pick up the phone and I’ll play it loud
I’ll let ‘em all hear what I really found
if you want me dead I’ll leave unannounced

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

Too Tired To Breathe w/brecken (prod. poppy ozu)

what do i do now
gave up my trust now i’m looking like a fool now
i’m leaving my food out
cleaning my room ain’t the same since you moved out
and you threw out
my love
you always had it 
you know, throughout
everything that we been through
after sharing that bedroom
we was tight like bald fade
but we grew out
talking bout dreams tryna fly out
now i’m planning those dreams while you dry out
i been feeling better now communication died out
it was always supposed to be me
come to find out
uh
moving on don’t wanna fight now
i tried keeping alive 
my feelings but lights out
i been waiting for this shit 
but i need it right now 
been down for too long
my eyes are cried out
yeah

what do i do now? ft. autrioly

produced by Boyfifty, Pizzle, & Lxst Boy

-lyrics-

(lxst boy)
second time around 
and nothings changing
see right through your face
you’re ghosting, im breaking
picking fights
will leave you on the pavement 
girl you ain’t quirky
wow, you’re just brain dead 
this ain’t the first instance 
where you been sneaking out
window cracked open
just hoping i wouldn’t find out
wouldn’t it be worth it
to end it with me and see him? 
(answer me)
i guess you like it
when dudes fight for your attention 
non-confrontation
you hit me with a side eye
no provocation 
but now i’m just the side guy
play me like nintendo 
cause only for tonight im
getting stepped on till i pop 
like i’m shy guy
woah
yeah that last line kinda hit hard
you’re the only reason 
i got good at making sad songs
when the time flies 
you’ll realize you miss me
think about that
when you roll down his street

ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if im still alive
(wait a minute)

(soku)
tell me why you think
that you could get back with me
been having long thoughts in drives
as you roll down his street?
i swear that time could never change the way
i perceive your image
i swear that i just really hate the way
you tell me you miss me
i got a couple bags
off a song that i wrote
but you ain't getting nothing
cause you left me here all alone
you liked the secret meetings
at his place while we dated
but baby that just wasn't secret
cause you know that i hated
yeah
every second
of your little endeavors
but now you messed up so bad
that i won't bother with letters
won't get a Christmas card or nothing
girl you messed up so bad
i hope the time you took away from me
will get you right back
i hope that one day
your console runs out of battery
and you can stop playing games
with guys that don't have control
i hope that one day
that you just run out of flattery
and you can find a better path
and offer Jesus your soul

(lxst boy)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if i’m alive 
caught between the good times, thinking about the bad nights
i don’t wanna know if you’re gone this time 
maybe i’ll stay outside
tell me did i mess it up this time (this time)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
wishing i could take us back in time 
oh back in time

back in time 
thoughts of you make me nauseous 
dropping you 
fixed a magic hole in my pocket
call me ten times
i’m ignoring your nonsense 
there’s hate in my heart but it’s a part of the process

ghost girl, pt. 2 (it’s too late to save us)

If I Was Gone

this song is about how even when you get clean people be assuming you on something and having to leave some people behind even after all of the memories youve shared

$ober or not nobody gives a fuck

Shout out to the producers #freestyle #emo #FreestyleRap #EmotionalRap #HipHopSoul #DeepRap #PainMusic #RealRap #HeartfeltBars #RapPoetry

Standtall-(ProdShokwave x Jkeibeats)

https://soundcloud.com/powfu
prod @splashgvng

Like Autumn (feat. Powfu)

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