i'm still thinking about chicago.


thank u to joeboi for saving the project file. i love u.

sweet illinois

Brakence  Hypochondriac Demo

"petrichor" - the distinctive, earthy smell of rain in the air — sometimes detectable before any rain has fallen.

oh i know it sounds insane 
to say 
it seems okay to 
fill your place with time 
oh 
and the days pass 
through my gaze
as i wander 
straight through the slaughter
you made
was all of it worth it now?
and i won’t accept my fate 
the weeds overgrown
but im one step away 
from the good in this place 
so hold on.

petrichor

god's plan cover (joeboi 4cf cybertrash)

#freakyvibes

#lyrics:

you think you're tied up now
why don't you wait a minute
try to cope with me but 
I done made you hit the limit
babe I know it's bright out 
but we've been busy sinning
cause when you're beautiful and hold me close

you could tell me that I got to see to believe it
everybody wanna be a freak till the knees bent
pull the rug underneath her feet till the weekend
touching teeth baby I deceive
I run around thinking I'm the shit but I'm a thief

breakdown stunted made me talk like I wanted to
late-town coming and I don't want me 
coming to terms with the shit on my back
when my brain isn't hurt I can fucking relax 
on god

melatonin don't work
had to fiend until my soul hurt
I could run across the whole earth
I been bleeding till my nose burst
I feel a little low-worse 
I feel a little more
oh I feel a little more

breakdowns made me someone I'm not
break a hole through the wall looking through what I sought for
late-town made me something I hate
and I'm always in the corner yelling

you could tell me that I got to see to believe it
everybody wanna be a freak till the knees bent
pull the rug underneath her feet till the weekend
touching teeth baby I deceive
I run around thinking I'm the shit, but I'm a seed to believe in
everybody wanna be a freak till the knees bent
pull the rug underneath her feet till the weekend
touching teeth baby I deceive
I run around talkin shit but baby I'm a FREAK

breakdown stunted made me talk like I wanted to
late-town coming and I don't want me 
coming to terms with the shit on my back
when my brain isn't hurt I can fucking relax 
on god

why don't you wait a minute
try to cope with me but 
I done made you hit the limit
babe I know it's bright out 
but we've been busy sinning
cause when you're beautiful and hold me close
you could tell me that I got to see

everybody wanna be a freak
baby I don't wanna be deceived
come into come into come into fact
come into come into come into please (freak)

FREAK

produced by @nt7e & @zivve17

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~ lyrics
I woke up at 3am
You're texting my phone again
Tell me that you "wanna be friends"
But I already know

Baby I already know
Can you leave that shit alone?
Kick you to the curb
I can finally move on
I don't owe you anything
But whatchu wanna know?
"Are you comin' over?"
Pft, bitch I'm hangin' up the phone

Yeah I'd rather be alone when the
Bass kicks in
I can scream over a hihat
Voice shifted
I'm gonna take my fuckin' crown back
Do it for the king
And don't call me again 'cause I'm
Hangin' up the phone
(Phone x4)

Hangin' up the phone
And now it's 3:30 in the morning
Still up and I got that liquor pouring
Thinkin' about things that I regret
And memories I wish I could forget

But damn
I still see you everywhere
Makes me wanna disappear
But I know that I can't

Cause in reality, don't wanna lose you
And I kinda miss it, my fuckin' world is you
And I can't face it
I fuckin' hate it
Cause I feel like I can't
Talk to you
Bitch I'm hangin' up the phone

Yeah I'd rather be alone when the
Bass kicks in
I can scream over a hihat
Voice shifted
I'm gonna take my fuckin' crown back
Do it for the king
And don't call me again 'cause I'm
Hangin' up the phone
(Phone x8)

phone w/ zivve

prod me

i'm so passive aggressive 

i'm duckin every time she try to ask me a question 

it's halfway impressive 

it's a method to her madness 



x2

i swear she out of my league 

id give anything to see you try to try me

she won't let me catch my breath 

cuz she a dimepice 

and it's likely 

when the time comes

you know just where to find me 





baby so obsessed with cameras 

the way she look 

i'm forgetting all my manners 

matter of time 

til she tell me what she plan to do 

i'm like baby im the man for you



at it so long 

im losing track of time 

act out

you were singing all damn night 

baby you ain't jsut another one 

you the one 



baby you gotta understand that



it's on the tip of my tongue like a xanax 

playin like you dumb

acting innocent 

baby you gotta understand

baby you gotta understand that

man4u

prod. blank & scro 

lyrics: love it when you say my name 
but i'm tired of all the same shit
so i'm with your friend right now
and she says my name so loud
i say i love her when i'm fuckin it
and she say she love me when 
im touchin' it 
and if im honest bae shes 
better than you
shawty too good
she been doing all of the things 
that you couldn't 
too bad so sad i'm with a new one
and she lovin' it 
she like when im rough with it
like when i pull her hair
and call her my fuckin bitch uh
i know she fuck with it
i'm the man
and she say it while she suckin it
oh man
addicted to her tan
take you back home and 
i'm meeting her again
and i know it's fucked up
but she got me fucked up
i'm just playing with your head
but she's so good leave me no regrets
love it when you say my name 
but i'm tired of all the same shit
so i'm with your friend right now
and she says my name so loud
i say i love her when i'm fuckin it
and she say she love me when 
im touchin' it 
and if im honest bae shes 
better than you
suffocating to temptation
i can't help but play this game
through my lies and blinded eyes
you see i go with no refrain
wasting time 
i know inside that it ain't right
but fuck it's nice 
i'll roll the dice and pay the price
to set my feelings aside. 


i fw ur friend lol (demo)

baby i'm so tethered to you
remember when you told me heaven was blue
and i cant seem to let this go
so i thought i'd just let you know x2

darling i tried letting go but i got no luck

PASTE

i ain't wanna wait for it
you think i'm not patient 
i don't need a safe word
i'm not the same boy
nothing is sacred
how do i say this
i aint got the brain for it
and i'd still call you by your name
but i don't got the same voice
would you still recognize me

(will you still recognize me)

now you're 5'10 and four sizes bigger
boy better keep tabs on who hanging with you
you're on the same thing but you paid for it
and there's still nothing to say for it
and time fly like nothing, don't it?
you abide by, but don't condone it
and the words burn like speeding bullets
and the truth hurts any way you put it
and the truth hurts any way you put it

to get like this i aint need no help
came this far just to ruin myself
without my brothers i'd   myself
had to charge it to the game; almost billed myself
to get like this i aint need no help
came this far just to ruin myself
without my brothers i'd   myself
without my brothers i'd kill myself

i ain't wanna wait for it
you think i'm not patient 
i don't need a safe word
i'm not the same boy
nothing is sacred
how do i say this
i aint got the brain for it
and i'd still call you by your name
but i don't got the same voice
would you still recognize me

boymotherfucker

prod. blank & scro

lyrics: i don't wanna be alone
i don't wanna be all by myself 
but i don't wanna see you no
and i don't wanna see anyone else
i don't give a fuck
i don't wanna talk
doors all closed when the sun come up
mind on lock 
ran outta luck 
i don't wanna see your face i'm done
( blank )
can't sleep too busy
thinkin bout 
fake dreams and dopamine 
that's not around
and you're not around 
i guess it's better now 
facetimes and phone calls 
it's all bullshit
i don't wanna hear your voice 
don't wanna waste my time 
being someones toy
i'm all alone but at least
i'm not someones ploy
i'll keep it real baby
it's what i feel 
im gone 
i can't eat 
can't sleep 
from breathing all the air 
that you made me
i can't be what you think 
i fell deep
but i need some time for me
cause i'm so fucked up
can't count on no one
it's too much 
doors all closed when the sun comes up
i don't wanna be alone
i don't wanna be all by myself 
but i don't wanna see you no
and i don't wanna see anyone else
i don't give a fuck
i don't wanna talk
doors all closed when the sun come up
mind on lock 
ran outta luck 
i don't wanna see your face i'm done
time alone 
lie unknown 
taking my home 
i don't wanna spend no time with you
i'm known to forget 
when we first met took my breath
they all say i'm sick in the head 
they all can't retie the loose ends
crashing with sickening intent.
( blank )