new ep soon <3

lyrics

stay up, if i go to bed can't bake up
get scared to death imma wake up
break down, i'm a fuck up
babe you look great
makeup, and she out in town
i don't go around, i'm not going out
(i don't go around, i'm not going out)
(i'm not going out)

motivated, 2am by then i'm hella faded
bitch i'm elevated, ion choose to wait
hella shoes to fill, but i got empty plates, and a couple spills, i'm not doing great
losing weight, but i'm keeping pace with the tracks i make
i hope they relate to the shit i say
know the words hit worse, when you see
the weight
feel the power struggle of my sentimental
with a better mental
my new fashion recently blackened
but newsflash i don't interact with no-
woahhhh (yuh), tell me what you need from me
i know i'm bad but i been changing like the leaves, honey
don't even need money
just wanna make my shit and smile and really be something 

𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖊 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖒𝖊 𝖇𝖊 𝖓𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌

*kill or be killed
by myself i'm the king of this hill
you want me to be dead well then great
come and get me cause i like a thrill
ain't no fixing this shit dr. phil
busy mixing my shit like for real
and i'm sicker than shit need a pill
but i'm sick of this shit, i can't feel*

what (idealism)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

produced by: @everythingmackk


and my heart rate 
it slows down
used to talk alot
guess i’m on my own now
and i beg you 
to come round
she don’t talk to me
she’d much rather go out
and you’re a liar
cold, no fire
all the rubies in the world couldn’t buy her
i can’t find her
so i retire 
and im bound by these ropes
but couldn’t tie her 

and i broke loose
for you <3 
all the shit i did, 
i swear i had to do
split me in two
and i’ll play the fool
as long as u pick up 
when im calling you 

and i swear i would do about anything u asked 
what u want
we can hit the town and try to make it back
i’m so drunk ! 
she pulls me closer says there’s something i gotta ask
i said go, 
you can tell me girl i promise i wont laugh
she said 
“boy i think i’m falling for you,
don’t think i can mask
things i feel any longer
so please ask what u gotta ask”
i was shocked,
now my heart was pulsing, felt it in my hands
was this real?
or am i dreaming 
either way, i’m gonna stay right here 

and my heart rate 
it slows down
used to talk alot
guess i’m on my own now
and i beg you 
to come round
she don’t talk to me
she’d much rather go out
and you’re a liar
cold, no fire
all the rubies in the world couldn’t buy her
i can’t find her
so i retire 
and im bound by these ropes
but couldn’t tie her

to those before, and to those after (mackk)

produced by taurs

and it’s cold here
so grab your coat 
don’t say i love you
i know you don’t 
and it’s awkward
cus you’re too nice
and im obsessed 
with those blue eyes 

and i’m besotted 
with your new guy 
it made my heart crack
just like new ice 
how could you do this
i was a fool, i 
just never knew that
you were the cruel type.. 

and my head spins
when we are together 
you never show me love, 
despite that, you’re so special to me 
got ugly eyes, im not the guy you fell for
but i could try my best 
if you give me a chance and don’t leave 

callin, callin callin again
why the fuck are you still stalling?
those texts you left unread 
i can’t avoid the hole, i fall in
fall in to the abyss 
my chest caves in when you call me 
the one that you regret 
i’m so tired of ur shit

and it’s cold here
so bring your coat 
don’t say i love you
i know you don’t 
and it’s awkward
cus you’re too nice
and im obsessed 
with those blue eyes 

and i’m besotted 
with your new guy 
it made my heart crack
just like new ice 
how could you do this
i was a fool, i 
just never knew that
you were the cruel type.. 

you were the cruel type
i know you hate me you didn’t have to say it two times ): 
i can’t stay here anymore
my veins are blue, i
guess i’ll just lay here in the snow and watch the moon rise

ugly eyes (taurs)

produced by imalmostjoey
completely non profit

lyrics

u gotta listen
i got an ear for the music
i got some thoughts for u to listen to 
cus lately im winning
like half the lyrics are stupid
u aint got shit that u proving
least when i run my mouth 
i ditch the couch and get up n prove it

honestly 
when did everything become so damn trife
watchin me
why does every body think theyre damn right
totally
to say this is a skill is fucking toxic? right..
totally
insulting to the ones who live this damn life

thats how i know u aint about it like i am
i know a lot of fuckin artists who are honestly just fans
it aint about what u accomplish but the texture of ur hands
cus if u had a spine at all u'd plant ur feet n take a damn stand

damn tramp
u aint ever caught a damn hand
trust a good knock to ur head will shake ur brain n all that damp sand 
wam bam
love to see ur back bend
how u getting pressed about a fight u fuckin started man
shady plans 
why u throwin shade out on ur twitter fam
make amends
never gonna happen if u play pretend
i just had to say my piece 
oh who knows if it was a waste of breath 
its sad i hit the scene nd had to ask 
like where the music at

honestly 
when did everything become so damn trife
watchin me
why does every body think theyre damn right
totally
to say this is a skill is fucking toxic? right..
totally
insulting to the ones who live this damn lie

nevermind

sleep talking (imalmostjoey)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

The SoundCloud Files

I could_cry

lyrics

every piece of me is saying
word on the streets is you’re not staying
beg on my knees for you to say it
x2
but pleasant grove is all you know and fractured homes with broken family
i can’t tell you where to go
but every road led back to folly

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

iv been throwing up, iv been throwing up all on the pavement 
she’s said it’s so frustrating 
she said i wish you were happier
so now every smile feel like a facelift
now you got tears running down your face 
but you took it all and i gave it
i know it’s not good for my brain 
but i have more fun when im wasted
now i been drinking every night but safely
six months ago this looked so much different 
but word on the street and my mind says you hate me 
that would rip my heart in an instant
last time we had a fight 
i remember what it felt like to cry 
got smoke in my mouth and got tears in my eyes
cuz i don’t want the last time
to be the last time we say goodbye 

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

sticks and stones tend to break me down
try to grab the wheel but im crashing out
mom and dad don’t like me know
it hurts because they used to be proud
why you never around 
when i’m calling your phone,you’re just putting it down
iv been falling apart on the burial grounds
iv been screaming for help but can’t open my mouth.

folly w/ notahero [king theta]

I have this daily fear i've lived my best, and theres nothing left to come
like these constant notions i piece together don't fuck with me enough
is it the self esteem or the overwhelming selfishness in my blood?
or how i settle down in past mistakes to mask what i've become

i lie awake

atleast im honest
fuck the things you promised
these thoughts engraved inside me make me vomit
atleast im honest 
fuck the things you promised
so dont judge me for these pills inside my pocket
atleast im honest


honest (all we left unsaid)

THE MOST INSANE LEAK EVER

MIFFY

DEMONCLIQUE4L

lifeisacarrideandimwaitingtocrash-comingsoon

spring. (+ pekarot)

chainmail.