i'm so sorry for what i've done
i'm so sorry for my choices
i'm so sorry for my head 
i'm so sorry i chose the end 
it's the voices  
oh they keep on speaking im tired
and i sit in my room in the silence 

what the fuck should i do
when i don't know what to do 
who should i hurt me or u 
how was i such a fool
kept on thinking i was fine 
even tho you made me smile 
there's was something wrong all the time
i don't blame you
so don't blame me either 
i can't love you
but i can't hate you either

love isn't enough (pekarot)

produced by neverforever

cty_gazing_ inspired by city gazing by hero

completely non profit 

lyrics

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

so c'mon
u get a free throw
i'ma break ur ribs with my feet tho
u can keep those
knocking out some teeth like t bone
12 zero

switch just flipped 
so I drink and drink and drink
Molly got boys fucked 
why do I not feel a thing
sitting in a gutter 
feels like where I'm meant to be
lemme take a second 
i just need some time to think

sunrise
that's home time
well past dawn when I close eyes
my surprise 
pretty sure that i hate going outside
like oh my i can be a hypocrite ik
dont we all sometimes 
like don't lie
u don't see the grey sky

that's all i see
in u and me

all the bad all the hurt
i guess i just see the worst
fuck urself
fuck the world 
save it? nah it don't deserve
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as dirt
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as -

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

fuck like
i really woke up?
fall asleep face up i wanna choke up
fully gave up
yeah
zoning out this bitch while smoking with the raindrops

this ain't life i'm stuck in my own self made hell
hate the world almost half i do myself
i just suck but u should know i'm something else
self aware i take the devil's side in hell

cough up sludge I force it back into my gut
taste just fine it's like a stronger form of bud
bought an h and in a week I'm out of bud
sleeves r stained, recycler bong that's full of muck

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well it gets lonely 
city gazing from the satellites
all alone here 
in this spaceship and the latern light 
well ive got oxygen 
enough to maybe make the night
but ive accepted that this place 
is where I'll come to die

the view ive got from in my coffin
well it's really nice
if I jumped what'd be the chance 
I'd land in powerlines
a mangled body's not the image 
that I'd hope ud find
a lump of coal that u can bury 
is worth the piece of mind

maybe best to turn this ship 
and gun for saturn's rings
I'd meet an alien 
and tell him how I really think
this world is ugly 
if u took the time to sink it in
people selfish and absorbed 
inside of useless shit

ive got a problem
ive forgotten how to let u in
my vision fades 
alarms are blaring, I hit jettison 
a fire show ignites
somewhere above the midnight sky
I hear just silence
void is pretty fond of eating life

city gazing, with my homies:
foreign parasites 
a formed allience 
between the dead and all this moldy life
I pull the plug on sos
command don't give a shite
I found ignition in the pain
that came from u and I

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

The SoundCloud Files

other cheek

ugh (prod. young taylor)

reminiscing

[Intro]
Yeah
Needa e-transfer, I don't wanna

[Verse]
Look oh no, don't got a lot of money
I just wanna buy it, I don't wanna get declined
It would hit me, I'm broke
I won't look, I might look, I just look, now I know
I count balances, we do what we are told, ayy
Money play a role, fuck it (Playing role)
Money shape the mold, I hate it
No problems, evade them for greatness (Evade them for greatness)
Raisin' my status (Raisin' my status)
I been waiting for this very moment, finally arrived
To find out that theres more waiting and I don't got the patience
Playing PlayStation, on vacation (Yeah)
From a full time job, now my whole break wasted
Backwoods facing, videogame ragin, sleep hours changing
How long, how long can you last?
How long can you deal with despising the future and craving the past?
So good, I got knots in my back (Knots in my back)
The host told us it was okay if the window is cracked (Crack)
So I cracked it
Hey, it's okay (It's okay)
Okay I change, it's still me
Drug habits, it's still weed
Someone could help, guess I'm getting my greens
Like ouh, you see the W's, I still lose, bad mood
I needa feel good again, 'cause the blue get me rude, I'm too rude

[Chorus]
So rude, I can't fucking take it
Bad mood, heat it like a blanket
Ice cubes, up inside the bong
I'm so zooked, I'm up here with the spaceship
So cold but space looks amazing
Time zones and my vision keep changing
Mind blown, so micro I don't got time for a mouth full hit me with fac-
So rude, I can't fucking take it
Bad mood, heat it like a blanket
Ice cubes, up inside the bong
I'm so zooked, I'm up here with the spaceship
So cold but space looks amazing
Time zones and my vision keep changing
Mind blown, so micro I don't got time for a mouth full hit me with facts

[Outro]
Factual

9TAILS - rude (prod. jack stotland)

[Intro]
Yeah, woah
(Taylor 'bout to fucking flex)
Let me clear this up

[Chorus]
Dying, never felt so right (Never felt so right)
Frightning, that it feels so right (That it feels so right, that it feels so)
Lightning flashes, all throughout the night (Throughout the night, yeah, throughout the night, yeah)
Think I'm dying when the ground goes bright, ayy, yeah

[Verse 1]
All my words poison, you should wear a hazmat
Brodie moving dope, hide it in his ass crack (Just hide that shit)
Homie, why you gotta do that
You just want a laptop
So we sellin' loud packs (Loud pack)
He don't wanna do this
Buddy wanna write raps, on a new mac (Gimme me that new mac)
Chop it up, move this product
I don't wanna do this
No dreams, heavy gas, good music (Good music)
Money dreams that shit too lucid
Is too real, yeah, that shit too lucid
(Taylor 'bout to fucking flex)

[Verse 2]
I've been working on my own (Own)
Balled up, home alone (Alone)
Mailman, I'm a big dog
Throw the dog a fucking bone
Take a shower, get stoned (Stoned)
Call me up, get toned (Toned)
Number dead, new phone (Yeah)
Only one I haven't told (I haven't told, Yeah)
Yeah, only one I haven't told

[Chorus]
Dying, never felt so right (Never felt so right)
Frightning, that it feels so right (That it feels so right, that it feels so)
Lightning flashes, all throughout the night (Throughout the night, yeah, throughout the night, yeah)
Think i'm dying when the ground goes bright, yeah

9TAILS - ugh (prod. young taylor)

Mama  prod.laayz

9TAILS - Diamonds On My Neck (Prod. Skel)

produced by yusei

lyrics:

mystery 
spiteful tendancies
jealousy
manifests in me

slow down
pull back
i dont ever settle down
i just take a quick power nap

harmony is hard to come by
in my reality
could u give yours to me

blunt smoke drift up to the rooftop
rap game viagra gotta go hard
cook him up with a verse get a real chef
someone better recognize real raw

reebok, shoes, jacket, hat, and socks
sportswear lookin like a boston red sox
spark it in the backyard in my flip flops
dodge a party missing links like a wrist watch

feel the burn when i breathe
u got what u needed from me
how the fuck im spose to break free
when youre providing my heat

fill my mind when im weak
suck out information i bleed
im too high to notice anyway
theres no attention to seek

slow down
pull back
i dont ever settle down
i just take a quick power nap

harmony is hard to come by
in my reality
could u give yours to me

coxwell station
spliff smoke sunset grill back exit
personal fragrance
ever since u left clouds make it less vacant
aching
everyday smoking on big loud
bong smoke close up my throat now
cant really take big pulls out
but my sober state is too sunk down

thats my fucking honey falling into me
falling into me
baby look at me and cry when you see everything i see
everything i see

slow down
pull back
i dont ever settle down
i just take a quick power nap

harmony is hard to come by
in my reality
could u give yours to me

spring. (+ pekarot)

chainmail.