skeleflowrs part three
guitar by @jolst

fun fact I actually wrote this song from the perspective of Jax Teller, the main character of my fav tv show (and quite honestly the tv show that kept my mind occupied and stopped me from blowing my brains out for years) sons of anarchy, I ended up rlly liking it so asked my good friend The Skeleton Man to jump on it 

so yea, bonus points if you've seen sons of anarchy cus the lyrics will probably make a lot more sense to u lol

voicemail by vict molina

sendflowrs:

when everything goes wrong
and all i can smell is smoke
I promise this will be the last time
the last time I ever choke
I feel intoxicated 
the violence is killing me
I just got one last thing to do
and then I think that its time to leave

bury me a son,
bury me with my friends
and im nothing without this club
but I just want it to end
I said bury me a son
my brother we will meet again
and im telling you my love
I just wish we could start again, we could start again

skele:

we can start again
this can’t be the end 
i had so much for us to do 
and i don’t know who’s a friend 
i might be broke but i’ll mend
i don’t wanna do this without you

honestly, i know i never meant a thing, love 
i’d give you anything
i’d bleed until the days done 
n honestly i know you’re already gone 
i just wish you wanted to hold my heart 


sendflowrs:

so I sit here, on my roof,
write another thought down
about you
I know im not my father
what should I do?
need to lock this shit down
and get a move
need to clear my head right
think ill take another ride
in the night time
oh this town it comes alive
heart is air tight
I cant let you read the lines
oh my love I 
think its
time for me to go 

so just bury me a son,
bury me with my friends
and im nothing without this club
but I just want it to end
I said bury me a son
my brother we will meet again
and im telling you my love
I just wish we could start again, we could start again

bury me w/ skele (jolst)

stockholm (prod. sorrow bringer)

9TAILS - creme soda

produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

we're all trapped in hell
cant contain it no more
im up in decibals
explaining alot, shut up u act like fool
i hate you i really i do
i go up in decibals
oh wait heres a pause i know
study my flaws you whore
i guess im sad bitch
that doesent mean im emo
i fell in love with you
thats not a thing anymore
you catch me chilling
i go up in decibels

GUESS IM PUTTING ALL INTO MY SONGS SO U LISTEN
TANKING BULLET HOLES EVERYDAY INSIDE MY PRISON
WHEN SHE LEFT SHE SAID AM I GONNA KMS 
THINK THAT I MIGHT END IT

baby dont go
happy at home
she thinks im happy she dont know
i would kill you gladly she turn ghost
i fucking need you badly you dont know
berry in my medly with bloodflow
try your best forget me i wont go
im someone who you envy, i switch flows
im fresher than some dead, ill grab a rose
im sitting in the backseat, when she awoke

I DONT WANNA USE YOU JUST DO IT YOURSELF
YOU CAN DRAG ME DOWN TOO BUT ILL FIND MY WAY OUT
i pump inside her mouth
travels down her throat
BABY DONT MAKE A SOUND
bitch she like grope
i bend her snap her spine
ill put you in a choke
ILL FUCK YOU IN THE PINE

everystep i take
doesent seem to stop my aches
twist it round and pull her face
do it now remove all grace
turn it down your ears might break
IVE GONE UP IN DECIBELS

decibel

originally performed by sewerperson
produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

she gets high 
every other night
and just cries
girl I'll be with u tonight
im en route
im near the drop off

every day I fuse into one this month
i can't keep control if the speed too much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i can't even see my fingers front my face in these lights

everything's different than it had been before
unroll my backwoods and break my meteors
friends like this family I never knew before
life on this planet ain't felt this new before 

get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl I'll be with u tonight
im en route yeah
im around the block
yeah im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down yeah
i cannot stand for this shame
im to proud
im locked up so I kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down
guess she know me too well

im bleeding im falling 
im tearing apart
past the andromeda 
im in the stars
one u look down 
on the earth from this far
u can see just how small 
of a person u are

u could stay girl it's cold, 
can u see the lightning?
i just talk then I leave
im not tryna slide in
i distract then I bleed
if she got me hitting
don't get me wrong
we all human
but in uninviting

tell me if I take too long
i just wanna turn u on
turn u on
rip thru the phone book
she grip me by the heart
plenty left me broken
but the way u do it
turns me on
why's this summer so long



locked_ down_ x turn_ u_ on_ (ztope)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

love song 4 the ghost i see in my room sometimes 

original beat by killedmyself (chopped and pitched)
additional violin by my good friend Mohini 

its not somethin else
its exactly whats the most obvious
its so easy to tell
and im no good at hiding it
its rly not that hard to figure out
the obsessions not mutual 
i know u like me but not as much
i wanna be what you think about
i cant help but fall in one sided love 

and im stuck in it  
i get so dumb in it 
there might be something
to make me feel more whole 
somehow 
your touch that feels like home 
but then u cast me off and i end up more alone
strung up
im just a puppet
u can make me dance 
im happy to perform 
in ur bed
im nestled up and warm
hoping 
the night can last more long 

ive been numbed up i dont feel it 
i dont feel the touch im too hollow
can u help me get more human 
maybe some emotions to borrow 
i think im the worlds best escapist 
back then i just didnt wanna exist
so i buried my head in the sand
look at all the time i wasted

. . . . .

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

spring. (+ pekarot)

chainmail.