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vocal mixing is garbage, not sure if I want to upload this anywhere else yet so SoundCloud heard it first. 

edit: I think the vocals sound a tad bit better now not sure I replaced the original file with the newly mixed one.

Lyrics:

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

I’m at the bottom,
still getting deeper but it aunt a new problem 
but it gets worse, every time I try to solve em 
tryna keep it steady I’ve been tryna keep it solid
didn’t mean to pick it but I somehow still got em
no how many times I try to rearrange I pick the same mistakes again,
sometimes I wonder why and wonder how
but maybe that's just who I am

the demons in my head I try lock away
it’s makes no sense no matter what I do they stay
so what if I can’t get any better after all
will I become the man that I despise

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

please you gotta understand I’m clueless
nothings making sense to me and I don't wanna do this 
I didn't choose it, fuck I didn't choose it
man I wanna lose it this just confusing me 
lightheaded I gotta make some decisions
it’s normal I know it isn’t
I’m just tryna make it seem like it’s worth it 
like it’s worth it 

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

I don't know how to do this
nobody askin 
I never saw it in me

I’m just tryin make it
tryin my hardest 
but you don’t ever ask me

collapse (demo)

Marco Polo [Prod. 1jeemin]

so long

@zoahsl - BLESSINGS feat. Giovanni, Amped, Promoting Sounds

Bleeding Through My Sleeve (feat. endri) p. Zbeatz

ONEWAY (Prod. Taz Taylor)

Lullaby (demo)

REST OF OUR DAYS

Leave It To My Guys

https://ethanross.fanlink.to/vertigo
put our hearts & souls into this song.
hope it resonates
<3 
here for y'all forever

- ethan ross

Vertigo

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