Flowers of Purgatory

guitar by Michael Harrison
mix, master by me
(lyrics)
i dont recognise you anymore
not cause you're different to me
its just been a while since ive seen you
and its killing me
my memory is starting to fail now
i look at these photos we once had
and now its like that was so long ago
but it wasnt then

so where do we go now
how can i do this to myself
when can i be there 
if im not there for me

im looking for a bright day
im hoping that you'd stay
i maybe wanna run
away
away from all of life
afraid ill lose it all

whats the purpose in this life
when im never good
i know i cant let go
so dont you go away (away)
i lost it all that day (that day)
i wished that you had stayed (stay a while)
i wish you'd hold me now
i been looking for the right one all my life
i been tryna come back to what i like
write another sad song
of you
and you is what i look for
thats why i cant move on
i hope we get along

I Dont Recognise You Anymore

prod ilyl1ght

lyrics:
Oh haven't seen your face
And the sky is turning grey
sucks you dont think about me daily 
It must be nice to think your not going crazy 
staying home all day don’t wanna go out anymore 
sleeping in all day have fun being a whore 
I wonder what is like having people that care
I wonder what it’s like having somebody there
I wish that I was no longer here
Now the plan is just to go disappear

Oh haven't seen your face
And the sky is turning grey
sucks you dont think about me daily 
It must be nice to think your not going crazy 
Oh haven't seen your face
And the sky is turning grey
want you to go but I want you to stay here because I’m in love
You should probably go cause I’m building up anger that’s not good for us
Why is everybody pointing out on my flaws?
sucks to think that we’re all human but you don’t give a fuck
sucks to think that we’re all human but you don’t give a

sorry

i might be over it

lyrics:
do you know how much i love you
i was down bad still put nothing else above you
i told you all my secrets know it cut through
told you all my moves even shit i could run through

i was in the dirt
picked me out the mud, its like no matter how it hurt
you was by side before i ended in a hearse
swear that you a angel cause you finally lift the curse

i was trippin just to live, you seen the hunger in my soul
you aint even need no diamonds just to say you played your role
loyal to the grave, swear that bond dont ever fold
now its foreign whips and flights, you the only one i hold

you was there when i had nothing
now we counting up in silence
had to hustle through the pain
but you the reason i aint wildin

gave my heart when it was broke
you aint flinch you just stood beside it
want to keep you to myself
but i swear my heart cannot hide it

gave my trust, you never folded, swear you never once denied it
i was lost, you showed the way, like heaven came and just provided
all the pain that we been through, swear we never got divided
you the one i prayed for, i swear this feeling been invited

how much

worth

residential. - worth (all we left unsaid)

produced by @nevermadeithome & @prodjolst ✨ 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please 

and stay happy cus you’re moving tomorrow
so pack up all those mugs
return the books that you borrowed
it’s a double edged sword i know there’s some sorrow
but your dad’ll be fine
i know it sucks but you gotta go
5 nights on the road with a carload 
on the way to BC just avoid all the potholes
when you’re in your tent all alone with a bottle
and you’re lookin up at stars
i hope you know that your moms right there 

when you’re down baby please will you tell me?
i’ve been gone lately, i know it doesn’t help things 
don’t feel bad girl it’s not your cross to carry
i’m under mud from the weight that ive buried
you’re honestly fucking pretty damn amazing
a lots changed but i’ve always said the same things
“its not fate” i tell myself, then it kills me
you honestly will never know how much youve helped me :( 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please

canada (nevermadeithome x jolst)

lyrics

stuck in a station 
5 minutes late but i told u i made it
deep in the mix, deep in the swamp
drink on the job, yeah i'm lit while i'm painting

i think it's getting too easy for u 
i'll go on airplane (mode) just to conform with the norm (toxic)
i can't connect all the dots in the moshpit
but baby i love it

u say i'm off
baby i'm just in that transition phase where you move through the mountains
i'm hopping i'm bouncing
i'm on this beat like a wave
i'm surrounded, by this darkness

replenish my soul, close my eyes and i spark it 
i'm feeling lifted but really i'm grounded
where's the fountain?
bags under eyes like i'm down in the dumps

really it's hard just to rid all these bumps
aged twice as fast now with what i've become

i think you're missing the point
i've got my lips wrapped around this ol' joint
walking around with these old joints
flicking my fingers with old coins

maybe you're missing the point exactly
all of my truth is foggy and ashy
show my beliefs in the worst way
i've got an-

i've got an ear for the darkest guitar
i see the words when i poke at my heart
i need to ask more questions, make less statements
i know it's sounding bizarre

figure i should do it then say it 
i've gotta make this less complicated for u
leave u on seen for a day then i call u
picking the pieces like a machine

let me come clean to you baby
i've got these doubts all stuck in my head
i was a teen slow dripping to death
so is what i'm doing a myth

missing, i'm missing (you)
the distance is killing (me)
but i'll be ok i'm a man on a mission
this pains on my hit list

maybe it won't go, maybe it won't go
but ion need to wish it 
baby the systems in place like a prison
i keep the bad thoughts away from the vision

what for?

what for? (secre x caves)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
run
breathe through your lungs
hold onto me
hold onto me
fast
won't let you crash
just look at me
just look at me

we're separated
and no one has called back
i just wish you were here
so i could hear you laugh
and it stopped raining
he kept seeing your blonde hair
i just want some hope
that you're out there somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere

rip my heart heart out, slowly listen
hold my hand but you're too distant
sometimes i can't even breathe
when u are no where to be seen
i hate that i left that night
and cutting skin is a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin you know i hate
i been searching everywhere
and i miss when i had blonde hair
you said you liked that bout me
and now it looks dead and dirty
don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin's such a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin' you know i hate

i'd rip my heart out so you could live
and you can't stop me from doing it
now you're right there next to me
but only happens in my dreams
and i should never of left that night
i didn't know it'd be our last time
and i hate myself for that
it was the most we ever laughed
i keep searchin up and down
n hopes that i'd find you somehow
i'm not having any luck
and i refuse to give it up
and don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin is such a waste of time
and you'll get no where with that blade
cause that's something you know i hate

one two three

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blade

No more favours
No more favours
I had done way too much these guys still shit like I cant save em
U gotta prove u hot before I cut my split and pay em
Its not shit on me he playing that game we bound to flame him
No more favours
No more favours
I put the big guy on him this guy tall as a Florida gator
I cant do no 50/50 bitch im not a skater
Purple inside the banana wood my Kush look like a laker

I put money on top her back she arch so deep its breaking physics
These guys get so bitchy they think we friends cause we in business
I had done held my tongue like way too long these guys some minions
Too much fake love here in this game I think I hit my limit
Bari sent thru some beats im tryna blow right past my limits
I put numbers up on the board u not gonna see me in the scrimmage
Really its fuck these guys they only online to get some gash
How u not embarrassed when u crying and pushing trash
I see u right now I promise that beak is getting bashed
Now its no more favours sorry my love its not gon happen
I take care of myself I couldnt take care of fucking bad friends
We used to be family but this money got him acting
We used to be family but that shit had turned to past tense
Ok now im locked in
She ask me if I geek up I said often
And right now
I avoid the come down
I need more thrills
I dont even go out
My house full of blue pills
My house full of cracked seals
This shit surplus here like tylenols and Advils
Baby u know u stressed kills
Im just tryna curb the graph
This Molly hit my head and get my spinning like a laundromat

No more favours
No more favours
I had done way too much these guys still shit like I cant save em
U gotta prove u hot before I cut my split and pay em
Its not shit on me he playing that game we bound to flame him
No more favours
No more favours
I put the big guy on him this guy tall as a Florida gator
I cant do no 50/50 bitch im not a skater
Purple inside the banana wood my Kush look like a laker

no more favours (jabarionthebeat x haze x yakree)

you fell and stained the ground beneath us 


prod/master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

feeling my body going numb
waiting but morning never come
i hope that god will forgive me 
oh the things that i've done
hurt somebody i needed
and somebody i loved
blood loss
my vision is starred,
hold on
i'm slowly reaching my fingers over top 
don't think there's ever been something 
that i feel like i want 

it's just the way that it goes
i know you feel like i don't 
like i don't love you at all 
i know it kills you the most
i never wanted to go 
i never wanted to stop 

i called your name a thousand times
and in my dreams i saw you die 
i saw the light fade out your eyes
and i woke alone,
and cried in case you
could hear me there
could hear me 
i screamed your name 
believe me 

(baby i wanted to stop 
got me praying to god 
love i'd do anything, i've
i've got my hand round the cross) 

i can feel the warmth 
drain out of your skin 
my shirt stole red from the cracks of your lips
i held you close and you felt so thin
i held you close like the way that you did 

i held you close
i held you close

you fell and stained the ground beneath us





i held you close


I touch down and im hitting you first I had thought Missed me more
Maybe im way too deep in this shit and im reading it wrong im sure
Im cutting off this rot inside of my life so losing friends
Lets see how deep envy running inside these broken men
Took me a while to get where im at so im stingy in giving it up
I took too much at the party im good tho im probably throwing it up

Come outside 
This cold air
It blew my high
Im impaired
But my sight
So damn clear
But im alright baby
Different time
Different zone
Where ive been I cant say
When I die get me home
I need frost on my grave
Take me and bury deep in the north
Right where the soil the hardest
The top of this shit is my target
Im dying happy just knowing I marked it

Maybe I needed a hand then now im good on my own shit changes
Cameras inside my vision like
Im going blind just walking to stages
Soon as I get my mind we so brutal
We so mess
Soon as see that red light I know u start getting undress
Everywhere I go
Everything I do
Everything that happened
Lead me right to you
Everything they say
Everything they use
It dont hurt at all
Im so bulletproof
Where ya wanna live
Where ya wanna move
I could buy the house
Baby ill take care of you
Know its word of mouth
But words is what I use
Its my fucking job
And im good what I do

Come outside 
This cold air
It blew my high
Im impaired
But my sight
So damn clear
But im alright baby
Different time
Different zone
Where ive been I cant say
When I die get me home
I need frost on my grave
Take me and bury deep in the north
Right where the soil the hardest
The top of this shit is my target
Im dying happy just knowing I marked it

Come outside 
This cold air
It blew my high
Im impaired
But my sight
So damn clear
But im alright baby
Different time
Different zone
Where ive been I cant say
When I die get me home
I need frost on my grave
Take me and bury deep in the north
Right where the soil the hardest
The top of this shit is my target
Im dying happy just knowing I marked it

I Dont Recognise You Anymore

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