w/ rainydays
mix, master by me
(lyrics)
i just couldnt let go of the past
couldnt let go of what we had
i just really want you back
but i will never have that
and im trying hard to change my thoughts
but i dont wanna do this anymore
no i dont wanna be the one adored
for the pain i lay out
looking for the answers from the lord
feeling like i was ignored
everybody wants me back
but i just cant now

Letting Go

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

don't go
please stay
I'll trade my days for what you have left
I'll give you every breath

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

everybody's calling me but I don't want to talk today
sun is out, rays are shining but I still expect some rain
I lost you to all of the problems inside of your head
I wish I saw the signs before you had left

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

9:32

prod ilyl1ght

lyrics:
i cant dispel all the dirt thats picked up from the wind
so sorry i didn't realize things that i said would make you cry 
so sorry i dont give a fuck if your delicate
 not one to ask ill be okay but i run out of gas not even half way 
shes comin back i guess she wants more 
stayin out all night have fun bein a whore
i think i wanna be dead no i dont wanna be friends
i think i wanna be dead im tired of playin pretend

what do ya know?
what do ya know about me?

what do ya know

THE WIND BLOWS
THROUGH THE WINDOWS

wind

prod. ilyl1ght

lyrics:
Do you have something to say?
has there been anything new?
What goes on in your brain?
Do you only think about you?
I hardly know any of you
Who are these people? Who are you?

Oh i give up
Go do what you want
What did you say?
I wasn't listening :/

Oh i think that i'm overwhelmed
To many people around
Catch my breath i had to stop
oops i think i drifted off
I need nothing don't reach out
I got all this figured out
They all ask how have i been
Oh i'm okay don't ask again x2

overwhelmed

produced by jolst 🦠 
featuring heylog

i won’t stay with you
won’t stay with you
cus i’m not good enough 
i won’t pray for you
won’t pray for you
i’ll cry as i’m burning up
don’t say it’s you
won’t say it’s you
it’s me, you’re not cold enough 
i won’t lay with you
won’t lay with you
take me, i’m the one you want 

and my lock screen
has your face on
can i rest here babe
i won’t stay long
sorry we’re toxic
it’s not me love
had it but i dropped it
now i wake up 
in the middle of the night 
scream “where the fuck the day gone”
i know that im ugly
so ill scratch until my face gone
i know i got problems
i know i got serious like - 
i know i got problems 
i know i got serious like - 

heylog:
wake up and do the same damn thing
got my face fixed n skin dont sting
i feel a lot better
skin just kept getting redder
im always lookin around
and im so paranoid now
all the sudden i stopped feelin safe
pack it up to a smaller town
burn it all down
burn it all
i hope youre proud
i hope it
burn it all down
burn it all
wont be around
wont be nah

i won’t stay with you
won’t stay with you
cus i’m not good enough 
i won’t pray for you
won’t pray for you
i’ll cry as i’m burning up
don’t say it’s you
won’t say it’s you
it’s me, you’re not cold enough 
i won’t lay with you
won’t lay with you
take me, i’m the one you want

burn w/ heylog (jolst)

prod me

lyrics

rewind time to look at our past
let me complete that one thing u asked
dont leave me, youre already out of sight
i messed things up, i wasnt ever right
and i will never leave again
and i feel my heart descending
my love, u looked so pretty
when we drove around the city
now i sit in bed reminiscing
cause we knew our love was neverending
give me the other half that you left
last time we hung up i just wept
never did i think id meet the hour where you left
the secret of my being in my case it was kept

i once was
the main cause

come back whenever u want
ill be sitting here with open arms
i know you didnt mean any harm
but ill get pissed off and alarmed
misunderstandings can be deadly
lets get ready
lets be steady
maybe i will
i dont shoot to kill
life feels like its hell
im just not myself
flowers breezing through
wind takes up the roof
swear im not aloof
im telling the truth



ascending

thank you for listening
thank you for being here

prodby @chillsebs

though at war, he's been indoors, the body sore, and torn, and dormant
if i don't wanna talk about it, least i'm being honest
thorns of those adored remain accomplice to the hardship
he's always fallen short of pulling swords from out the garden
the polishing of floors becomes reflective that he's tarnished
back it up before the words contort from what i wanted
evenings on a porch he's never bore of taking part in
endorsement of that orange supports the forging of despondence

time clots when you have the stopwatch break
i won't be disappointed if you show up late
the kettles had been settled in support of the weight
his temple thus embezzled of it's coriander brain

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

split at the waist, forced to guard, stood in place
and every morning that breaks subjects his soul to ablaze
he'd prefer being burnt to a pile of sage,
where the ache in the air is relieved of it's grave

missing targets that he really shouldn't
uncompressed when melodies are fluid
stake it like it's weak against the turmeric
beings want his blood for their consuming
puppet felt the tug and pull of nothing
ponders why and how he's always running
shit had changed with loss and gain of loving
mercy at the gravity of what is

i really think i'mma erode, the moment i've struck any gold, aye
just let me go, just let me go, you do not know me
hope is a torturous road, but gonna see where it goes, babe
she left me alone, now nobody knows
absent of warning

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

pendragon (chill sebs x poppy ozu)

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

scripture (treez x ryan kelly)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

Letting Go

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