prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

prod me bruh
3hrs

lyrics:

like 
what's he doin?
why why
are you mad for?
why did he stop movin?
like
why did he get popped for?

for talkin shit online
check my watch
waste of time
you wont talk to me?
oh right
don't be surprised when i don't reply.

i'm feelin kind of tired
i hunt you on the 31st 
like michael myers
then i come an find ya
i hit my briar then i go ahead
and then hide ya

i said what's he doin though?
hide his body behind where his dad works
at that liquor store
oh trust me lil bro
you a bit-
we done both know
you can keep her man
if you want my suggestion
throw out that hoe

NOW HE'S BEGGIN THE QUESTION WHY????
THE CONSEQUENCES OF A LIE
AHHH DIE
THE CONSEQUENCES OF A LIE

foul tarnished 
in search of the elden ring
someone must extinguish
thy flame

we were friends
so why the disrespect?
pect- pect- pect
grow up and get some balls man
(ambition)
'fore i come an teach you a lesson
and curb stomp you to the floor
shit'll get messi
jobless activity
your behavior's the same as my enemy
bro go get a job and stop hating me
eighteen+ acting this way so beyond me..

briar

you ft Wraith

prod me

why when we talk do my thoughts wash away?
why when we call do i always want to stay?
communication with u makes me so excited
and when u ask to call my brain feels delighted
even the periods that i am alone
ur presence fills the room and toughens up my bones
so i can sleep well at night knowing that ur there
even then i still wish u were here so i could stare

even when i cant sleep
ur there to comfort me
but when u talk about him
my thoughts start to wear thin
until the trip
where will i begin?

HOLD ME IN UR ARMS
UNTIL THE NIGHT FADES AWAY
TELL ME AND COMFORT ME
SO I CAN SLEEP SOUNDLY
BUT WHY
OH WHY
DO YOU ALWAYS SEEM MAD
IF IT'S WHAT I DID
you know its my bad

u know its my bad

u stay up to talk
even if ur tired
and somehow u know im sad
i think our brains are wired
erode in my spot
until the light catches
and when u see my face
you'll know u cant get past it

u feel bad for me
cuz i cannot sleep

one, two three-

HOLD ME IN UR ARMS
UNTIL THE NIGHT FADES AWAY
TELL ME AND COMFORT ME
SO I CAN SLEEP SOUNDLY
BUT WHY
OH WHY
DO YOU ALWAYS SEEM MAD
IF IT'S WHAT I DID
THEN YOU KNOW ITS MY

BREEZE IN LIKE THE WIND
CREATE A SOFT GLIM
BUT DONT EVEN MAKE AMENDS
I THINK THAT UR PERFECT
I KNOW THERES A DIFFERENCE
STRUGGLE WITH ADMITTANCE
EVEN WHEN I GRIMACE
UR STILL THERE TO FIX IT 

haven

dredge, a message found floating in a bottle.

produced by purc
mixed by me
mastered by ne'erdowell

lyrics 

As the carcass decays
Starts to rot through the roof
Smell the flesh dessicate 
As it wafts through the room

Light a candle or two 
For the few who remain
Hope the stench starts to fade 
What a claim, wasn't you 

But the corpse has a face 
It was someone you knew 
False purchase of fame 
Then the fall, first the view 

In the ocean is fate
Singing hymns from the blue
Wipe the spray from your face
Throw the bones, tell the crew

There is work to be done on the boats of the town
Grit your teeth and ignore that what lurks further down
Lest you lose your mind or what's left of your soul
Dragging up fish with three heads from the maw of god

Fog lights, in the dead of night 
I can never sleep, I seen a poltergeist 
Memorise the passege hidden in the ice
Someone said that here that even dead can die
Alright, I guess the time is right
I cut off my thumb, perform this holy rite 
Prepare to see my love for the final time
I'm flung to overboard and all the seas rise 

As the carcass decays
Starts to rot through the roof
Smell the flesh dessicate 
As it wafts through the room

Light a candle or two 
For the few who remain
Hope the stench starts to fade 
What a claim, wasn't you 

But the corpse has a face 
It was someone you knew 
False purchase of fame 
Then the fall, first the view 

In the ocean is fate
Singing hymns from the blue
Wipe the spray from your face
Throw the bones, tell the crew



dredge (purc)

all platforms 12/13
prod. guttertrvsh x sorrow bringer
album art by avxid <3

lyrics:

dobry:
throw me to the wolves and watch as i die
where's my comfort?
there's no comfort in this
(you fucked me up)
i can't breathe
shoot me up with enough drugs to help me be
i love it when you fuck with my mental
til you fuck with my mental
show me up

kotaray:
all my demons they cut me down
you can forget it, i'll never settle down
all my veins keeps on hurting as im falling south
desperation as my head keeps on fading out

where did i go?
ive seen my life spill out on the floor
dead in my home, hell i see nothing in my door
hello desperation are you hearing me out?
im talking to myself all my demons on their way down
im trapped out of my mind
let me tell you all the lies
that get me high

avxid:
i could throw up
im no one
its blown up
in my face
i erase 
what you say
from my brain
itll be safe

baby could you look me in the eyes
i aint gonna sleep tonight
i got shard of glass just digging in my eyes
oh ive grown but still i cry

whyd you burn it down i swear theres nothin left
i got metal sticking to my chest
i can feel it when i take a breath
its a bad time inside my head

i can see the torch lights
i can watch it catch fire
it was fun, i wont be here for long
it was fun, but i wont be here for long

ryn:
been so long i know i might break
feel my blood rushing thru my veins
so many things i didnt say
its been years it still brings me pain
tear stains on my shirt i know i cant help it
im crying on my own maybe im just selfish
i wish i showed you how i really felt
but these scars made it so i couldn't get help

kairu:
i tried to help you, i couldnt reach you
i put us through hell, i didnt mean to
and i hate myself, for what ive been through
but im with you now, so can we make it out?

2 drinks in me, but i feel fine
i start to weave through dotted lines
i feel it taking hold of me
i fear im running out of help
i need you, it hurts, to bleed through
the bandages we made, over time and time again

4 drinks in me, you're on my mind
it's hard to sleep alone at night
i fear my heart is growing weak
it longs for you and nothing else
compares to, the pain, we've been through
but still i hope you know, that ill always want you close 


syon:
to me youre colder then dark 
my demons know who you are 
god damn i know from hell then 
they need help from the start 
and god knows that im not going to make it 
so why have me spend it all down here 
i am alone and i dont feel like breaking out
you hit my phone and im letting it ring out 
like you didnt care about me then, so why the fuck do you care now?

gutter:
i dug in deep, but i found nothing new inside my soul
you cast me off then i found myself just rotting inside this hole
i fucked up but you left wounds that wont recover on their own
now i cant fall asleep without your face as my eyelids start to fall
i pushed myself deep underground
you could find me there and rip me out
but you dont care enough to save me too
i guess i played myself, i guess my part's the fool

so ill just dive in deep into this ashen lake
this fire consumes all my love and all of your hate
she'll proclaim me a witch, they'll burn me at the stake
once im but a husk im sure then she'll feel safe
i hope it hurts it too much
i hope that im ashamed
i know that i deserve
all of this torturous pain
i hope i learn it well
when i go down in flames
if i cant fix this mess
then hell was all in vain

hell was better than this (with Dobry!, KOTARAY, AVXiD, ryn., kairu & syon)

dr0Wn w/ C X L E

lost for a while

Hold me down 
You confuse me more than hell itself  
You twist the words I say 
You make me feel insane 
Why is it so hard to stay 

I can’t let go 
Cus I love you so 
But you don’t care I’m cold

can’t remember the last time 
I truly ever felt alive 
can’t fathom the fact that you’re no longer mine
Am I going insane 
Or is it just  the way you framed me?
To make you seem like a good person 
it was all an illusion 

Push me away 
Till I breakdown 
Till I breakdown 
Push me away till I breakdown

Hold me down 
You confuse me more than hell itself  
You twist the words I say 
You make me feel insane 
Why is it so hard to stay 

I can’t let go 
Cus I love you so
But you don’t care I’m cold

ILLUSION

produced by me (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)
lyrics:

my patience runs thin
my doubts start to creep in
this town feels cold
like it wants my soul
and my friends have split
i barely give a shit
i was always on my own
not one sound from the phone

i feel getting closer
i can feel it deep inside my bones
i can, i can feel it
feel it
i can, i can
whenever you're not around
i talk to myself like a ghost
i can, i can feel it
feel it
i can, i can

i can, i can feel it
feel it
i can, i can

i can, i can feel it
feel it
i can, i can

and i
hand me a pair of scissors
so i can cut my heart out
my heart out
beggin to die
cut me open
just to prove
not the monster you once knew
and the lies
peeled my skin
waste my youth
frizzy hair
and a rotten tooth

by now there's moss on the wall
powerlines fell down, no calls
it smells like mildew
blood on the carpet, it came from you

oh the guilt towers so tall
wishing my brain will just thaw
oh I'm afraid of you
of what you have the power to do

menacingly walking out the fog
she says to herself "like wtf"
oh ill happily die on this hill
till my blood grows cold from the chill
in my two hands, equipped with a club
go to her safe place, at the pub
gun got a nose and its a snub
you gave me a look like you wanna run

haven

chbv