prod. me  (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)

lyrics:
its been years since i saw you, you don't know me
like you know you do
your a cheat and the fault lies on you
if i could leave you know i would.
ouuu
yeah you know i would
ouuu
yeah maybe i should
maybe i will
why do i have to feel so damn arrogant?
i should've known that yr a fucking menace
and i'm crying here on the bed where we slept
i should've never gave u my best

first time was a lie and i know it
just play dumb and make excuses
third time I was disappointed
this girl really thinks i am stupid

I'm lying here dirt an grime all on my face
she set me up, should've known from all of the space
all i did was match her energy and the slow pace
i grabbed the flowers i bought her and ripped it out the vase
maybe it was you i should have replaced
but the first time i met you, you made my heart race
so i assumed on a dumb whim that you might feel the same
so I sat here and sat there an you never came

you make me feel stuck in the middle
this place to me is sentimental
it feels foggy, just like my mental
to me ur touch never felt gentle
never felt gentle
no
no oh

hmph you don't like how i treated you?
so you went and fucked another man?
this was my last mistake
you did the one thing
I DIDNT WANT AND IN MY OWN HOME
NOW IM BANGING AT DEATH'S DOOR
LETTING HIM KNOW
STOP JAMMING MY PISTOL
IM TRYNA LET GO
oh
im tryna let go
man im just trying to let go

gentle

everything by me

ur a cunt
really had me defending ur back
stg i was telling people
ur better than that
guess i should have known
doesn’t fall far from the tree
u and ur little racist family
kinda funny talking like ur better than me
but i would never grab my best friends girl
and then cheat
kinda funny swear to god it happened to you too
Sarah was seeing another dude
b is the one that found it
he had to tell you
what do you remember bout it?
tell us how you felt dude
when all this shit happened
tell us who was there for you
i guess a snake is snake
no matter what you do
u a snake
u a snake
u a snake
hope ur friends never look at u the same
u a snake
u a snake
u a snake
years of friendship for some pussy
what a lame
lame
lame bitch
tell us how ur friends
but u wait a month to say shit
only been a month ur both going on vacation
shoulda known when I heard u hissing like a snake bitch
bitch
bitch
bitch
like a snake
bitch
bitch
bitch
like a snake
bitch
bitch
bitch
like a snake
shoulda known when I hear u hissing like a snake bitch

close your mouth smell you from a mile away
close your mouth don’t wanna hear what you say
second pussy to touch them lips how it taste?
heard u hissing like a snake
like a snake
fuck u and ur friends
they all assholes
ur too busy
pussy whats the act for
oh how’s it feel knowing you got what u want
only the second pussy to ever kiss that slut

snake

produced by me (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)
everything by me (dawsin) :o

lyrics:
just a figment
of my
imagination
of me

RID OF ME
RID OF ME
MY OTHER PERSONALITY
HE'S NOT A FRIEND TO ME
HATE MYSELF
FAMILY STILL SCARED OF ME
.45 TO MY TEMPLE
I'M READY TO GET
RID OF ME

don't want no one
but I left these flowers 
here for you
baebaebaebae
babe it's true
baebaebaebae
that I wanna blow my head out
so I feel like a drop out
(in life)
so you'll walk in my room and ask me why I did this
ain't been the same, since I regained my pulse

let me leave
let me leave
let me leave 
this horrible dream

I might've said that "I was fine"
but-
ahaa
it's quite the opposite
i-
I don't even know how to feel anymore

remember the first time I said "hey"?
well this the last time I say "bye"
you're so fake
anxiety got me covering my arms in stripes
(our journey together, ends here.)

I'm disappointed in my self
cause 
I still have the ring on
I still haven't taken it off
AND I BET YOU THINK THATS IT'S PITIFUL
BUT I MISS YOUR EARFULS
I MISS WHEN WE TALKED ALOT
AND NOW ITS ALL GONE-

bipolarity

prod by me : /

sunlight peaks through my blinds
it burns my eyes n makes me want to die 
and you're not here, layin' by my side
and I wish that, things were different now

grab on my hips, then we start, locking lips
caught in a kiss, move my hips, just to sync
bite on my lip, love the mark, that you left 
don't loosen grip, hold it tight, close to death

fucked up in the head and I don't know what to do now
you're telling me that it's been over 
and I just feel like I been locked out
ain't no fuckin way I'm movin on

why the fuck you leavin me when you know that im all alone
got this pain inside my heart, a poison wit no antidote
people saying that they love me but I know they fuckin dont
if they really did, would I even be all alone?

agony, sweet agony, I love it when you're holding me
killin me, you're killin me, my agony, it holds me sweet
agony has been here longer than anyone else ever has
agony, my agony, it won't ever leave me and I'm sure of that

I can feel the cracks inside of my persona breakin
she just tell me that anything she said wasn't fake, yeah
tell me that im special but what of that am i making ?
I can tell that life ain't done so it gon keep on taking

I done walked up on this decision and then it fucked my life
I'm just hopin that I can hold on and make it out alive 
elliot didn't get so lucky like i did.. i threw it
I could never lie about it, I know i misused it

if you think it's worth it putting me away for years, 
I'm not gonna fight it i'll pay off my debt in tears
I hope things go well for you and if they dont im here 
just a stupid dog that won't abandon post that he's near 

tell me that I deserve this, 
if you- said anything- my wrist i'll slit
my blood will drip, my life will end, 
and you'll be it

tell me how.. 
if im feelin down you'd know
promise i will tell you everything i know
until then im in hell

tell me you love me
hate me it wont break me
hold me don't let go of me
don't let go of me

you can give me your hate, it won't change anything for me
I could shake it off like leaves on a car when it's starting 
to accelerate on the speed and then they just fall off
I just wanna see the boys win and they already know that 

you deserve to be happy and I want you to know it
you're the love of my life and I wasn't even knowin 
someone could pick me up and repair me like it's nothin 
I been learning german so I can give the love a language

[[acceptance, self reflection]]

---

I made a vow to never lose again

release

cover of "wear" by xona
vocals by @1axhelini
produced by @chbv

speak lightly
I won’t seem that worried about you and me
down few
many lose lives quick, nothing’s new
hiding right behind you
you’ll choose, you’ll choose

from what I wear
to see and stare
I swear I swear
you’ll have my care

how are you here with me?
I told you I’m scared of-
graphic and the terror to seize
It’s more than it could seem
It’s more than wear and tear
and I could hardly bear
and I could hardly bear
I could hardly bear
I could hardly-

from what I wear
to see and stare
I swear I swear
you’ll have my care

wear

produced by mix
over a year in the making

lyrics:
@1m1x
in the end ima shoot em all for you
i dont care yea i been thru a few
dropped him yea hes dead its nuthin new
in the end its either me or you
yea i dont give a shit
gotta focus up when he start talkin shit
get dropped bitch ur the one who started it
losing consciousness hope you have insurance

and my soul is to be
tightness in chest so now i cant breathe
killed him, then got back on my feet
haise, that no longer is me
and i shot him dead he was just standing there
gotta cleanse now tired of all this wear and tear
built a new man, haise is dead in the grave
just killed myself to find a new life i can save

@dawsin
i came up from nothing bitch, you wouldnt understand
i said bro, leave me alone, im too frail for this
she want all of me but i don't really know her like that
I'll drink a pint of whiskey then i'll call it a day

uh what do you think of that L?
this is my perfect victory and you failed
hah i just need one breath
one call was all it took for you to avoid my death

your weak haise, youve gotta do something and fast
or hes gonna kill your men, you cant keep anyone safe
can you?
turn around haise, look at me dont turn your back on a friend
you know that you need me, do it accept me as part of you
COME ON COME ON COME ON

@dawsin
impaled his chest,
wound in his lungs
hit em up
drag em out 
leave him hung
im a ghoul eat his flesh off the bone
and in the end its die or atone
@1m1x
atone, why you running we were just having fun?
that sucks cuz soon youll be friends with the gun
eat him up and leave him for the crows and the sun
oh haise i always knew you'd be the one

IN THE END I MIGHT SHOOT THEM ALL FOR YOU
I DONT CARE YEA I BEEN THRU A FEW
DROPPED HIM YEA HES DEAD ITS NOTHING NEW
IN THE END, IT'S EITHER ME OR YOU
YEA, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT
CLOCKED HIM IN THE FACE AND NOW HE'S GOT LEAD IN IT
IT'S ON THE SPOT BITCH DON'T START FEELING NAUSEOUS
CRYING ON THE FLOOR, GUESS U REALLY LOST THIS?!!!

haise w/ dawsin

ft. shade & tori, luv u guys <33
additional creds: abiss & siah for helping me mix
prod. sickboi

lyrics:
(solr)
don't call me your one
sick of this, i can't even get a jump
waste my time, bitch what the fuck?
make your choice, should i stay or should i run?
oh my god, can we wrap this shit up?

im an idiot, consuming
short form content, drug abusing
if you couldn't tell, im losing
can't let go but you're confusing

(shadeexyz)
i don't wanna drift apart, can't help but feel you're losing me
speaking up on all of this subtle abuse to me
i'm tired of making excuses
deep down i find you disgusting, find you putrid
wish i forgot that i loved you, was i stupid?
apologize to myself for rooting for you
i'm pulling out the knife from my back
you wanna run and hide now that your ego's under attack
zip it up, listen up, i don't wanna hear no more
you try to crawl your way back, but i done closed that door
come take your stuff right now, or it's off the second floor
im in a rut right now, wait till you see me soar

(solr)
you threw my love on the floor
and i won't even ask because im already sure
you prolly love him more than anything
but we'll dance around the topic that you love me too
i hope he's buying you a wedding ring
so you can get out my head
but i don't wanna be alone
im sure you tell him all these special things
but do they even amount to what you told me before? 

(SARTORIUS_noway!)
yea, i feel like i’m craving more, woah
i wanna be in your life for sure
and i don’t wanna be selfish 
but when it comes to me and you, i can’t help it 
i’ll go crazy if it means you’ll except me 
the way you pick me apart, i feel just like a daisy 
can we just wrap this shit up now 
i don’t wanna lose my patience but you might end up turning me out
i’m not your dog on a leash, you can’t treat me like i’m coming back (no) 
and it doesn’t make no sense to me 
you claim to have some affection but you treat me like an enemy (woah)
if i just could understand how you really act 
so maybe i won’t be so blind like a goddamn bat 
i don’t know why you pursue to go toy with me 
all i wanna do is wrap this shit up now

wrap it up

ₛ₀ᵤₙdcₗₒᵤd ₀ₙₗy ₒ.ₒ

produced by dazed?!

inspired by "creek" by grasior <3

lyrics:
carnage rains after im done
narcissist, and a fucking cunt
so take it in, i wont be here
you'll take a hit when i'm not near

take time, i feel you fucking lie
im hoping that you die
leave me at peace this time
god damn what a time to be alive
know damn well ima strive
split in two because you pried

why
why
why dont u take the piss?
let me hear you fucking fake it
now u've got me pissed
oh god
was it worth the risk?
or was i killin my damn self for a petty bitch

OH I CAUGHT YOUR MAN
g17 to his teeth in Japan bitch
BUDDY STEADY THINKIN THAT HE COOL W ME
BUT I STAND UP W MY FIST CLENCHED
to knock his teeth
ALL THAT I ENDURE
SET YOUR FINAL SCORE
RAN THROUGH FUCKIN WHORE
bet you i get more-ahh
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new music soon

carnage

Verse 1
Woke up late, same t-shirt
Phone lights up, I don’t answer
Say I’m cool, but it still hurts
I play it off, I play it faster
Pre-Chorus
You say “chill,” I say “maybe”
I don’t know what you made me

Chorus
I don’t wanna think tonight
I don’t wanna get it right
Say I’m fine, say it twice
Still you’re stuck in my mind
Yeah, I act like I’m free
But you know what that means
I don’t wanna care so much
But I care, I care, I care too much

Verse 2
Backseat talks, low battery
Same mistakes feel familiar
You get quiet, look at me
Like you already figured me out
Pre-Chorus
You say “relax,” I laugh it off
But I’m already gone

Chorus
I don’t wanna think tonight
I don’t wanna get it right
Say I’m fine, say it twice
Still you’re stuck in my mind
Yeah, I act like I’m free
But you know what that means
I don’t wanna care so much
But I care, I care, I care too much

Outro
Maybe I’ll call, maybe not
Maybe this is all I got
If you leave, I won’t say much
But I’ll feel it, feel it, feel it—yeah

care too much

prod me, shorter song

lyrics (not many)

did i love her?
i mean, yeah
but
i cant stop what the future has in store for me, so
if she's gonna be a snake, then she can be a snake
not like i can do anything about it
so when you ask me if i loved her
the real question is
did i trust her?
yeah.
a lot.

I BUILT THIS TRUST ALL ON A 

LIE

I BUILT THIS TRUST ALL ON A