I'm sorry I could never be the one you thought I was

new era same old moirai
video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YctqEqrLJho
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6h7s7QHTBQ1os43UTEI4bY?si=69065b0ba82c476e
@billsburyjoeboi
@ria_chuelo
lyrics//
[hook]
everybody looking at me from the sidelines
everyday i have this feeling that i might die 
everyday i have this feeling that you might lie 
and everyday they make me wonder why do i try
now everybody looking at me for a reason
and everyday i fucking wonder how im breathing
and everyday i fucking wonder why you need him 
and everybody says they care i don't believe them

[verse]
i can't change my past
optimistic lover with a half full glass, but
but i can't go back 
tried my best but i lost my track again 
and i don't need new friends
tried to cut you off but i woke up in your bed again
and all those texts i sent
masochistic loving that i can't forget

im so sick, i wake up, i hate it
i call her up, like no shit, im wasted
she told me "im so sick of everything you're saying"
and i ain't been to church in years but now im praying
that i don't fuck this up 
im in the bathroom of a party and im throwing up
and i just don't want you to think that im a lost cause
lost cause 
lost cause
im so sick and fucking tired of the love songs

sidelines (billsburyjoeboi + ria)

dante red - murderers ft. pitfall (glasear + kimj + fortuneswan)

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ericdoa - die2niteee (feat. d0llywood) prod. vinso (rare asl lmaooo)

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prod @blackwinterwells + @notlieu
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hope u guys like dis song
i think the lyrics r cool
my fav song ive made 
prolly gone flopski but im simply bossed up !!
cover art is ma yard
lyrics :)
so much bullshit 
i cant stand it
i been crazy lately
i been going manic
ask me how do it 
baby idk i manage
wastin all my time n 
im wastin all the bandwidth

im sick !
n im overstimulated
neurons in my brain 
filled with information
she do cheap drugs
n cheap vacations
i do fake friends 
cant hold conversations 

i try hard to sleep at night
n i try so hard to make things right
n i struggle everyday just to close my eyes
i been shaking 
i been nervous
think im sleep deprived 

endorphins 
man u look so gorgeous
n u try so hard to ignore it
n u say u hate me
adore it
then the next u know
its the morning

im way to tired for dis
yeah i been way to tired 4 shit
n i try my hardest just to make things click
but it never works out so i think 

im sick !
n im overstimulated
neurons in my brain 
filled with information
she do cheap drugs
n cheap vacations
i do fake friends 
cant hold conversations

sick (p. blackwinterwells + lieu)

himynameisdante +kaktus

hi it is me again
prod me 

lyrics:
last time
it was kinda different
im the talk of the town
cuz ima man on a mission
this time
ill make it apparent
that u waste all my time
and u never take interest

when i walk down the hallways
they love to talk bout me
somethings off
and im falling away from my keep
and you should know i got through
by the skin of my teeth
bro i cant take it
this aching on me

cuz when i walk down the hallways
they love to talk bout me
somethings off
and im falling away from my keep
and you should know i got through
by the skin of my teeth
bro i cant take it
this aching on me

but i think they might be rite 
this whole time
did i spend all my time in denial?
oh my god
i didnt mean it
thought too much bout false agreements
it comes with this, it comes with that
no one wana talk bout my achievements :/

when i walk down the hallways
they love to talk bout me
somethings off
and im falling away from my keep
and you should know i got through
by the skin of my teeth
bro i cant take it
this aching on me

cuz when i walk down the hallways
they love to talk bout me
somethings off
and im falling away from my keep
and you should know i got through
by the skin of my teeth
bro i cant take it
this aching on me

denial

@ericdoa @pincode8485
deads1lent exclusive prod @rhine1k @yungskrrt

ignored - ericdoa + 8485 (prod rhine + yung skrrt)

ok i shudve made it longer 

lyrics:
still wishing u cud tell me what i did
i can see the disapointment in ur face n its so big
i jus cannot understand why u keep telling me ill fail
its like u want me out doin drugs doin coke like the rest

cuz my head stil hurts but its alright now
im stuck in place n i cant get out 
tell me why u cant accept that i get money
i get more than ANYBODY talkin 
so whys it always superficial 2 u? :(

i find it funny that u tell me that im wrong
when u know im fuckin right u jus a stub inside a thorn
u always talkin shit yea i can hear u in my room
id love 2 tell u both to shut ur mouths u stupid fuckin fools

but i try my best everytime but its not good enough
why why why do i keep fuckin up
tell me what ur problem is
tell me whats the issue
tell me what the problem is cuz im still 

still wishing u cud tell me what i did
i can see the disapointment in ur face n its so big
i jus cannot understand why u keep telling me ill fail
its like u want me out doin drugs doin coke like the rest


cuz my head stil hurts but its alright now
im stuck in place n i cant get out 
tell me why u cant accept that i get money
i get more than ANYBODY talkin 
so whys it always superficial 2 u? :(

superficial

@lei + @threedimensionsapart

good job
i messed it up again
and im sorry to all my friends
if we dont get to talk ever again
my bad
everything is sad 
i dont wanna talk about her it just makes me mad
on replay every single moment that we had
my heart breaks in half

dont wanna talk about it anyway
i swear its problem after problem after everyday
taking melatonin to fix the pain
ive been throwing up rocks at ur window pane
hey ah
come down, i wanna talk to u
and every time u look me in my eyes i fall for u
but when u look so beautiful what u want me to do

i can run from my fears but they gon catch up
and i can act like im fine but they gon catch on
and im not good at acting when im caught
and i dont blame it on u its not ur fault
im stuck in the middle
and im just jumping and jumping i feel so little
a girl is a gun yea shes a pistol
yeah shes a pistol
and fire away my love

good job
i messed it up again
and im sorry to all my friends
if we dont get to talk ever again
my bad
everything is sad 
i dont wanna talk about her it just makes me mad
on replay every single moment that we had
my heart breaks in half

what do you want me to do?

spotify

(the story of my blackout summer '20)
w/ + produced by @janeremover
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4hkrL4HTjJMdRUF5wWTWDm?si=902059c455c944c5
[lyrics]
(juno)
i dont remember a damn thing from last week
im sorry i could never be the one you thought i was 
i try my best but everybody lookin past me 
i blacked out on the pavement and i think its because

she told me i was a waste of time
and i hated life 
i was stuck and i had nowhere to go
and i know youre not a friend of mine
im not on your mind
so i said "fuck it i guess ill be alone"

(jane)
so i brought yesterday back around
and i know how i feel bout u now
im coming over and taking ur crown
been thinking bout how u let me down
and ur not even being mean ur just dishonest
got me repeating myself i think i lost it
and i told u i knew it all just like a prophet
theres this new idea: its called listening when im talking
and now im running out of options
u called my number but i blocked it
im waiting outside and ur stalling...
dont wanna say i called it but i think i called it

(juno)
i dont remember a damn thing from last week
im sorry i could never be the one you thought i was 
i try my best but everybody lookin past me 
i blacked out on the pavement and i think its because

she told me i was a waste of time
and i hated life 
I was stuck and i had nowhere to go
and i know youre not a friend of mine
im not on your mind
so i said "fuck it i guess ill be alone" (x2)

nowhere to go w/ jane remover

juno

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