The ones that hurt to write. Stories I lived through, poured out slow like gin. Memories I didn’t want, but kept anyway.

memories and gin

the space between the stars

the space between the stars Prod  Dianasty.

dont ask me why

dont ask me why Prod  Jewelerbeats

so tired of it

still tired of this

A sad punk song; hope yall enjoy!
prod. pavlos

running low

im on empty

a tradition id like to make yearly but ive missed a few years

iwrotethis4u

February 14th pt 4 ( iwrotethis4u )

b w/ me again

b w/ me again feat ZERUNOX

a song about self loathing and self reflection and being lonely
prod. lvkee

Razor wire and a little knife

Razorwire and a little knife

like momma done said

like momma done said Prod. sleepless boy

if its all the same

Neverland

from the grave

From the Grave

my friends truck

Smokin' Marlbororo Reds

Smokin' Marlboro Reds &

vodka sprite

drinking vodka sprite

Playing blackjack was never my strong suit

"ofc I noticed.. I froze.. My heart sank into my stomach and I could taste bile on my tongue.. I didnt know what to say or if I should say anything. im sure you figured I was there but idk.. I also figure you know you could just message me whenever so I guess maybe not.. cuz youd probably jus message me if you wanted something to do with me. maybe youre just tryna check in without talking to me? maybe im just overthinking. its probably that. probably all in my head. I hope im not just a memory to you now but I know I am. and I hope youre happy. I hope youre okay. Thats why im not sending this. cuz you dont need me, I make everything worse. I know youre better off without me. considering how I feel whenever I talk to any other girls, that sinking feeling followed by a rush of you, memories, youre face, your words, like a hollow pit in my stomach, like somethings missing. and I know its you. youre the one. nobody else will ever mean anything close to what you meant. what you mean. I truly hope everything goes your way. im sorry , I never meant to hurt you..." -unsent messages

Fallback

Moving on takes guts [that I dont know If I have]

track #1 off of BLOODMOON, a project in honor and dedcication to those we've lost

dying all alone prod. yunny

NO UNSOLICITATED OFFERS [unless you wanna make a song together then hmu]

for legal reasons if im ever anything TRASH music, explicitly, isnt allowed to do anything with anything I do , ever, under any means, or for any reason, unless I specifically say otherwise. Fuck yall. 

I make music for the sad kids, the anxious minds, the ones who feel like they don’t belong. I never loved myself—but music made me feel seen. Now I’m trying to do the same for someone else. Across hard rock, indie, lo-fi, and experimental sounds, I carry the same thread: hurt, hope, and the refusal to go numb.

if you want to support me you can now buy my songs for $1 on apple music [see links]

of course they're all available to download here for free so dont feel like you need to buy them, its just a way to support me if you want -

you can also cashapp me any amount, any time, no questions asked lol 

anybody else has my permission to use my music as video outros, intros, edits, and  in any creative process so long as I am credited in a description, in said video, and preferably both. links to my soundcloud [here] would be cool. It bears repeating that this does not extend to TRASH music. 

** no this doesnt mean a buisness can use my music in advertising , nobody can unless we work out a deal 

anyway seriously if you decide to support me; then from the bottom of my heart, thank you<3

RIPEEP.

email me anytime @ "iamchriscanfly@gmail.com"  Mainly for collab works [producers who want me on their instrumentals, or other vocalists who want to feature or want a feature. no charge I just want to work with others. much love<3 ]. 

again,
NO UNSOLICITATED OFFERS

memories and gin

chris can fly<3