Chris Helios

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VickStiX

This is the end of an era long 
Where all familiar things lingered on 
And I held on to what had to go for long enough 
This is the end of an era long 

And with the end of an era gone 
And unfamiliar feelings beyond 
I know my goal is some way off but I'll carry on
Forgetting what held me back now I know
That none of it would get me far

Bring me to the light 
Unfreeze my soul 
Let me feel alive
Unseize control

Let a new horizon form
Let me leave behind what has been done 
Now's the time for me to face what I have ignored

All this time I've beat myself down
Reminiscing of a time before
People and the places I found 
That'll never come around for more

'Cause I won't progress 
If I don't learn the lesson I've been taught for long enough
All this time I've beat myself down
Reminiscing of a time before

It's how the end of an era goes 
When you can't tend to what never grows 
But I'll find hope somewhere far from all the things I lost
And see that what I've looked back at in sadness
Wasn't even worth the cost

'Cause In my long forgotten dreams
All the ones I love never leave 
We're all there in a clear lagoon 
Chugging drinks every afternoon

I woke up in sweat
And felt so much regret 
About the things we should've done
But I know it's just the end of an era long

Bring me to the light 
Unfreeze my soul 
Let me feel alive
Unseize control

Let a new horizon form
Let me leave behind what has been done 
Now's the time for me to face what I have ignored
This is the end of an era long

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I wrote this track about coming to the end of a long period of being unable to move forward due to holding onto things in the past. It is about finally accepting that certain stories in life have their endings and understanding there is no use in holding on to what was not meant to continue, such as old dreams, old friendships or places that used to be home.

End of an Era

This track was written by myself and my best friend, Ruth Anne Pollard who has a soundcloud channel of her own, https://soundcloud.com/ruth-anne-1. 

We wrote this song as a dedication to ourselves and to many others out there who have put much of our own feelings aside in order to be there for the ones around us who are less empathetic and less likely to reciprocate. These unrecognized feelings that we struggle to speak about can start to build up within us and come to the surface, causing those around us to question who we are because we have essentially been forced to wear a mask for so long.

Musically this song was inspired by Chariots of Fire by Vangelis, particularly in the verses 

Nobody knows the things we do
For the ones we love
Nobody knows

Nobody cares
But we keep on trying not to lose hope 
Nobody knows

When you're dying to release
What no one will let you speak
And you choose words carefully
Nobody knows

Nobody knows my defenses died, falling from me
Now all I need is you to want me to be fine
Nobody knows how I've lived this lie, buried beneath
Knowing the truth can be worse sometimes

Nobody hears, nobody listens
When you're trying to tell them who you are

They pay you no mind
When you try to be open 
And It's clear all the time
You never receive anything you provide

When you're dying to release
What no one will let you speak
And you choose words carefully
Nobody knows 

Nobody knows my defenses died, falling from me
Now all I need is you to want me to be fine
Nobody knows how I've lived this lie, buried beneath
Knowing the truth can be worse sometimes

Nobody knows my defenses died, falling from me
Now all I need is you to want me to be fine
Nobody knows how I've lived this lie, buried beneath
Knowing the truth can be worse sometimes

Nobody Knows

she said you're wasting all my time, 
keeping me waiting,
through the phases of my life...

Phases of my Life (demo)

I started writing this song a few years ago when I was going through a period of isolation due to feeling a bit overwhelmed by society and how I became a little too comfortable in discomfort and how It felt difficult to motivate myself to escape from what became a repetitive cycle. I finally finished the track a week ago and It's definitely one of my personal favourites that I've written.

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The curtains have been drawn
I'm living in exile from civilization
And though It isn't far
I travel the no mans land in rotation
I sank into my shell
And I've never called anyone for help
But now within myself 
I feel I'm drowning, reaching out for air 
From the cold

With my bleeding hands
I'm ripping at the wall
And still it stands while I fall

Screaming, never believing I'll regain anything I've lost
Ignoring every warning I would end up on my own
Now I'm forced to face the result of my actions
I know this is my fault
So I'll swallow the pride
And no longer deny what I've done
Now It's me I have to confront

I roam around the halls 
Walking miles as I'm pacing back and forth
I tremble in the frost 
With weary lungs as my heart beats in my throat
And all that is warm is my breath
As I breathe in this smoke 
I fade out, I run circles in the fog

Then my racing thoughts start screaming out
For their rest to come
For an ending to this cycle 

Screaming, never believing I'll regain anything I've lost
Ignoring every warning I would end up on my own
Now I'm forced to face the result of my actions
I know this is my fault
So I'll swallow the pride
And no longer deny what I've done
Now It's me I have to confront

Screaming, never believing I'll regain anything I've lost
Ignoring every warning I would end up on my own
Now I'm forced to face the result of my actions
I know this is my fault
So I'll swallow the pride
And no longer deny what I've done
Now It's me I have to confront

Exile

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Lyrik: (The English translation is below the German lyrics)
Gefangen im Labyrinth aus Grau
Wo Gedanken sich wie Schatten winden
Den Ausweg such ich, blind und rau
Kann die Richtung nicht mehr finden

In meinem Kopf ein Karussell (dreht sich endlos)
Aus Zweifeln und aus alten Fragen (dreht sich weiter)
Die Antwort scheint so nah und doch so fern
Gefangen zwischen Angst und Wagen (zwischen Welten)

Doch zwischen all den dunklen Zeilen
Beginnt ein neues Licht zu leuchten (leuchtet sanft und weit)
Lässt meine Seele langsam heilen
Wie Morgenlicht durch Nebel bricht (heilt die Zeit)

(Gedanken wie Wellen am Strand)

Jeder Gedanke formt die Welt
Wie ein Künstler seine Farben mischt (Farben mischt)
Hab zu lang das Grau gewählt
Bis der Regenbogen erlischt (still erlischt)

Und ich erkenne endlich klar (endlich klar)
Die Kraft in meinen eignen Händen
Was Schatten war, wird sonnenklar
Zeit die Richtung neu zu wenden (neu zu wenden)

Zwischen all den hellen Zeilen
Tanzt nun Hoffnung wie ein Schmetterling (tanzt so leicht und frei)
Lass die alten Muster heilen
Weiß, dass ich den Weg jetzt finde (finde mich)

In jedem Stolpern, jedem Fallen
Liegt ein Samen neuer Stärke (wächst ganz still heran)
Durch Dunkelheit zum Licht zu wallen
Schreib ich meine eigne Geschichte (neues Kapitel)

In der Stille meiner Gedanken
Liegt die Kraft zur Wandlung schon bereit (Wandlung schon bereit)
Zwischen Licht und Schatten schwankend
Find ich meine eigne Zeit (meine Zeit)
Die Welt in neuen Farben sehend
Ist der Weg nun klar und weit (klar und weit)

English translation:
Trapped in a labyrinth of gray
Where thoughts twist like shadows
I search for a way out, blind and rough
Can no longer find the direction

In my head, a carousel (spinning endlessly)
Of doubts and old questions (spinning on)
The answer seems so close and yet so far away
Trapped between fear and daring (between worlds)

But between all the dark lines
A new light begins to shine (shines softly and far)
Letting my soul slowly heal
Like morning light breaking through the fog (healing time)

(Thoughts like waves on the beach)

Every thought shapes the world
Like an artist mixing his colors (mixing colors)
I chose gray for too long
Until the rainbow faded (faded silently)

And I finally see clearly (finally clear)
The power in my own hands
What was shadow becomes crystal clear
Time to change direction (change direction)

Between all the bright lines
Hope now dances like a butterfly (dances so light and free)
Let the old patterns heal
Know that I will now find the way (find myself)

In every stumble, every fall
Lies a seed of new strength (growing quietly)
Through darkness to light
I write my own story (new chapter)

In the silence of my thoughts
The power for change is already there (change is already there)
Swaying between light and shadow
I find my own time (my time)
Seeing the world in new colors
The path is now clear and wide (clear and wide)

Zwischen den Zeilen

INSOMNIA by NOVA J

(Oooh oooh Sleep)
You can’t wake up from

Why’s my mind playing tricks on me tonight?
Got heavy eyes but I’m wide awake and I
Just wanna sleep, just wanna stop
This anxiety I’ve got.
I’m overthinking. (Yeah) I’m overthinking.

About you,
About us,
About my stupid luck—
I’m still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (still)
Awake 

Insomnia
Wish I had some
Marijuana 
Can’t stop replaying all the
Drama
In my head I’ve got
Insomnia
Oh, Insomnia
Feel like screaming
But I just lie
Daydreaming
Eyes wide open
Heart still beating
I’ve got…
Insomnia

Oooh oooh
Oooh oooh

Past mistakes and future fears,
Playing loud between my ears.
Scroll my phone, no end in sight,
It’s 3AM and now it’s 5—
Oh God, I’m dreading the sunlight

Close my eyes,
But then I see
All that terrifies 
In front of me.
I’m still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (still)
Awake

Insomnia
Wish I had some
Marijuana
Can’t stop replaying all the
Drama
In my head I’ve got
Insomnia
Oh, Insomnia
Someone please
Put me to sleep,
Or maybe just
Some ketamine—
Knock me out
Or set me free
From
Insomnia
Insomnia…
Insomnia…
insomnia
Insomnia…
Insomnia…
(insomnia)

INSOMNIA

Lyrics:

You only fear
What doesn’t speak. 
But silence cuts
A little deep.

They call me quiet,
Like that makes me safe. 
But wolves don’t growl
When giving chase. 

I’m the quiet kid,
I don’t get loud,
I don’t forget, ah
I get even. 

I’m the quiet kid,
I don’t forget,
I don’t get loud,
I get revenge. 

You can't help me
Don't even try
If you cross me
You'll be first to die.

You like to play
When you think you’ve won.
But I’m the game
You didn’t know you were in. 

You talk in circles,
I draw lines.
You waste your breath,
I bide my time. 

Oh, I'm the quiet kid.
Oh, I'll get so so even.
Oh, I compared notes,
Now die.

I’m the quiet kid,
I don’t forget,
I don’t get loud,
I don't get even.

I get revenge.

Quiet Kid

“Love Like a Landslide” is a hauntingly poetic journey through a relationship marked by beauty, danger, and emotional collapse. With vivid imagery and raw vulnerability, the song explores how love can feel like both sanctuary and destruction—graceful on the surface, but unstable underneath. From whispered secrets to seismic heartbreak, it’s a soulful reckoning with loss, resilience, and rebuilding in the aftermath of emotional ruin.

Love Like a Landslide 

VERSE 1

I traced your fault lines, baby,
Like they were poems on your skin
Should've known they weren’t just stories—
They were where the cracks begin
You held me like a secret
Too dangerous to keep
And I stayed like some fool lover
Half in ruin, half asleep

CHORUS

Ceilings caving gently
Floor’s got no more grace
Gravity’s your weapon
And I wore it like lace

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VERSE 2

Your silence sang like thunder
But I kissed it like a prayer
Ignored the pressure droppin’
Just happy you were there
Built my heart from broken fences
You slipped in without a sound
Now I’m diggin’ through the pieces
Of the girl you let fall down

CHORUS

The maps, they don't mean nothin’
When the roads all shift and slide
Your chaos is my compass
And I let it be my guide


BRIDGE

There's lipstick on the mirror
And the glass cuts like the truth
But in those shattered corners
I still find a bit of youth
See, wreckage ain’t just ending
Sometimes, it clears the way
I drowned in your disaster
But I breathe just fine today

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OUTRO

I still feel your tremors, love
In every street I roam
But I danced through your disaster
And I built myself a home
I’m not alone
Not ever alone again

Love Like a Landslide

In this song, I'm painting a picture of a world that's been ravaged by fire and destruction, forcing me to escape to the barren landscape of Mars. The lyrics are a reflection on the loss of the world I once knew, and the longing to reconnect with the Earth that's been left behind. I'm exploring the emotional toll of being a refugee in a desolate new world, and the memories of what once was, now shining like stars in the darkness.


[Verse 1]
On Mars
All I know
Dead sky
Frozen snow
Worlds burn
I escape
One light
Through the shade 

[Chorus]
Will I know the Earth again?
Fire turned her dark and red
Memories like stars
Shining from afar 

[Verse]
Mars cold
Still my heart
Faint echoes
Fill the dark
The sun
Comes to end
Last rays
Burn the land 

[Chorus]
Will I know the Earth again?
Fire turned her dark and red
Memories like stars
Shining from afar 

[Verse]
Cold and red
Will I know the Earth again?
Cold and red
Fire turned her dark and red 

[Chorus]
Will I know the Earth again?
Fire turned her dark and red
Memories like stars
Shining from afar

Living on Mars

A rare happier song of mine. I started writing this a few years back after I gained the strength to leave someone who had picked apart my personality, belittled me and saw themselves as above me and worthy of being chased. I spent lots of time during this relationship studying the way they were and why they did what they did and when I gained enough knowledge and left, all I had was pity for an insecure person. This song was a big time healer for me.

If anyone could help me clarify the genre of this song I'd really appreciate it :) 

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A fine line breaks whenever you try to play your mind games
Spinning around without direction, I can't take a tour in your small brains
So I close my eyes and phase out every hilarious typical phrase
Leave every human claiming they're wise surprised

You had your way, you picked me apart and kept me in chains
Begging to let me outside of my headaches
If you can't agree with me once
Interrupting all I want to say
Well, I'm better off someone who got away

I will lay cards and you can break the table
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour
I can break the chains off and you can be the chaser
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour

I dance by the window 
Away from my telephone 
All your fussing put to one side
Buzzing under my pillow 
Now I'm over my mistake
I do what I want, I say what I like
Whatever keeps your kind of people from mine

I will lay cards and you can break the table
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour
I can break the chains off and you can be the chaser
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour

And time did tell you didn't mean well
You can't accept when you're wrong 
And you can't handle that I'm tired of your love bombs
You narcissistic, self-addicted king of the pride
I bet your prey feel wonderful before the bite 

You poor, sweet, pitiable beast 
Feasting on the wrong side of somebody
But I no longer have the patience
Gather your flock and pick your supply 
But you'll satisfy no appetite on someone like me

I will lay cards and you can break the table
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour
I can break the chains off and you can be the chaser
Don't try to play with me, you're just not as good a gamer

Break The Table

An ode to the movie of Minecraft. I played this for my 11 yr old son. He laughed. And then: "You're weird, pop." Yes, yes, I am. 

Also, Mojang, please don't sue me.

Chicken Jockey

#alternative #womanartist #songwriter #lyricist #love #lost #lovesong

Gone forever
Forever in my heart
Forever in my heart
Gone 
Forever…

I held on to you
So tight 
(To you)
So tight
(To you)
That the blood flooded your pretty face
I held on so hard so hard (to you)
To you
Turning you into a deep crimson red
Rich and dark
But 
You quickly turned into vinegar
Bitter and sharp
So now I must release you 
I release you (release you)
and you fade (you fade) away
Away
Away

Gone forever
Forever in my heart
Moments flood me
memories of goodbyes
Coming back again
And again 
Goodbyes
Goodbyes
If I could only get (just get)
Just for a peek backward
But you’re never there
Never there

Gone forever
Forever in my heart

Gone forever
Forever in my heart
Forever in my heart
Gone 
Forever…

fade away

This song is about feeling overwhelmed and desperate for escape from the pressures and pain of the world. For me, it's a reflection of the longing for a safe haven, a place where I can retreat from the chaos and find solace. The song touches on themes of anxiety, vulnerability, and the desire to disconnect from the world and reconnect with what's truly important – in this case, the comfort of a loved one, symbolized by 'my girl' my sis in music, my new best friend, @DJShAnkAri who I pray we get to meet in person one day soon, and take a trip like this one. It's a raw expression of the human need for friendship, refuge, and peace.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I lie awake
Frightened of the things that I know I can't change
So I'll just shut my eyes and count back from ten
And maybe by then I'll find some peace of mind 

[Chorus]
Take me away
Away from the people
The world
Take me away
Where it's safe and it's just me and my girl 

[Verse 2]
I'm not alright
I wanna pretend
But it just doesn't work
So I lie here
Crying out loud
But no one ever hears 

[Chorus]
Take me away
Away from the people
The world
Take me away
Where it's safe and it's just me and my girl 

[Bridge]
And I'm so tired
I've tried to be good and I've tried to be brave
But it feels like the harder I try
The more the world tries to take from me 

[Chorus]
So take me away
Away from the people
The world
Take me away
Where it's safe and it's just me and my girl


Take Me Away

Birth name: Chryselios Chryseliou. Born and based in Liverpool. I'm a singer-songwriter, composer and producer. My main instrument is the piano which is my musical home but my music taste is huge, ranging from pop to rock to avant-garde so I love trying out different sounds.

I'm always open to collaborate with other musicians.